CH 6: He has changed (Part 2-Lan Wangji)

The unknown person clenched his sword, he couldn't bear to see the person crying, but he couldn't show himself, because he wants to be by his side, if he shows himself, he might really leave him again, so he wants to stay by his side

Wei Ying, "Why am I like this? It's not like he knows I am Wei Wuxian anyways. I could stay by his side shamelessly as Mo Xuan Yu." He let out a forced laugh, "Why did I even fall for him in the first place, he just said those words at the Burial Mound to comfort me and to take me back." He laughed at himself with tears in his eyes, fortunately nobody was there at the moment.

As the unknown person heard those words, he clenched his sword even more. He couldn't bear the person crying like that, so he risked and showed himself. "Wei Ying"

Wei Ying, "Who?" He was alarmed as there was clearly nobody else there, who could possibly call him. Just as then the person showed up. He was Lan Zhan.

Lan Zhan, "What if I tell you I recognized you at Buddha's Feet? What If I tell you I already recognized you and wanted to keep you by my side for my selfish desires?"

Wei Ying was taken aback by the words he said, he then mumbled his name, "Lan Zhan" it was in a low voice yet he heard it.

Lan Zhan, "Will you leave again?" he said in a pleading voice.

Wei Ying, "I" he then thought, 'Why should I still stay here, I didn't forget how he got slashed because of me, if I stay and my cover is blown, he would suffer again. Although I'm unwilling, I have to so I can protect him, and he is happy here together with his son' "I am leaving to venture around the world, after all this is my second life, and I don't want to be Wei Wuxian in this life, I want to be Mo Xuan Yu the crazy Mo Xuan Yu, the step-brother of Jin Guangyao, bastard son of Jin Guangshan, not Wei Ying, Wei Wuxian nor Yilling Laozu."

Lan Zhan, "You won't investigate what happened years ago? At the Burial Mounds? Nevernight? You really don't care anymore?"

Wei Ying , "No!" He answered straight, in order to not give him any hope.

Lan Zhan's eyes widened, he spoke, "So all these years, waiting for you to come back, all this 13 years I have been waiting for nothing!" Saying that he turned away, he gave a pouch to him, inside there was a silver bell, silver and his painting, "Since you're not willing then you should leave. Lan Wangji couldn't bear to say those words to his face so he said it facing his back.

Just then Zewu-Jun showed up, "Wangji, if you really want him to go, then all this years what are you waiting for?"

Lan Zhan, "I have been waiting for nothing." He turned to walk away

Zewu-Jun, "Stop right there!"

Wangji stopped just as his brother said, "Do you really think I don't know where you've been all this years? Do you think I don't know where Sizhui came from? Do you thinkg I don't know why you spread those rumors" His tone was higher than normal.

Lan Zhan, "Since you are my brother, you should know that I never go back on my words."

Zewu-Jun, "Yeah, you never did, but after this you'd be gone for years again, this time you came back, but if you didn't met him, you wouldn't come home again will you?."

Wei Ying who was there was feeling awkward to be the reason they are fighting, he finally butted in, "May I know how Zewu-Jun recognized me?"

Zewu-Jun, "Wangji has never came home since 13 years ago after he was punished by uncle, so I know that it was you whom he brought back after all only me and Sizhui has came to his jingshi before, no outsiders would be allowed to get in. Not even Jing Yi, Sizhui has told me everything that happened at Buddha's Feet."

Wei Ying, "Lan Zhan, are you a fool? Do you know that it could be possible that I'd never come back again? Why did you have to wait for me?"

Wangji didn't answer but clenched his Bichen instead, "So what if you would never come back, aren't you here now? At least now, I realized all this years I was all wrong, a small mistake to ruin my life." Saying that he went to his jingshi leaving Zewu-Jun and Wei Ying in the woods.

Wei Ying was silent but tears escaped his eyes, Zewu-Jun faced him.

Zewu-Jun, "Young Master Wei, I only ask you this, do you love Wangji?"

Wei Ying, "I... I do"

Zewu-Jun, "Then did you know that this is the 3rd time I saw Wangji being like this? The first time was when mother passed away, the second time was when you died, he blamed himself for letting go of you and not telling you what he really thinks, today is the third time. Wangji never cried when he was punished by uncle, he also didn't cry when father passed away."

Wei Ying, "Sorry Zewu-Jun, but he would be more in danger if I am with him. I can't bear to see him hurt again, after all those whip scars, were because of me." He said in a low voice.

Zewu-Jun, "Then do you know that he always wished to be beside you at your worst, he regretted he wasn't by your side at Nevernight. It would hurt him more to know that the person he was waiting for all this time, has changed.

~Jingshi~

Lan Wangji, 'I hid in the jingshi all night, I can't hear anyone, I could only hear his voice repeating in my mind, his smile and memories together. The person I had waited for all this years, the person I loved all my life, the person I want to protect the most. He's gone, he's not the same person, he's different. He has changed. The person I love...' "Would never come back again." He was sobbing quietly in his jingshi. He then reminiscence about the past, the memories, his smile, everything about him, he remember. But he's already gone, and he might never come back.

Just after a while a knock was heard, as there was no response, the person knocked again.