Chapter 22 - All that I can

Gunner.

We were laying together in the grass, she was happy and smiling. It was sunny and warm and there were wildflowers all around us. She sat on top of me with my shoulders pinned to the ground. She leaned forward and licked from my chin over my lips and nose and growled at me seductively. Oh Goddess, I want her. She kissed me passionately, rolling her tongue in my mouth and biting on my lip. I felt my erection growing as she sat on my lap. She started to kiss my neck as her hair fell over my face. Mm… she smells so good. She reached down and began to stroke my hard cock so I thrusted my hips into her hand. She started to rub my cock harder. Fuck yes, that feels so good. I squeezed her thighs and she squeaked.

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I opened my eyes, shit, it was a dream, and I'm hurting her. I threw myself off the bed, grabbing a pillow as I rolled. I stood in the corner by the door covering my huge erection with the pillow. Holy Goddess, I'm an idiot. I rubbed my face trying to wake myself up,

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean too". My cheeks blushed red after I realised what I had just done. She giggled from where she laid on the bed, so she's not mad. I looked over at her. She is heavenly, just lying there looking at me innocently.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked. The sight of her laying like that wasn't helping ease the situation in my pants.

"No, I'm okay" she said patting the bed for me to come back. I couldn't, not yet. I don't know if I have full control of myself, the moonlight is making me a little wild. I've been able to control the effects of the full moon for years, but now with her in the scene, I'm nothing more than a horny and undisciplined kid again.

"I'm sorry, I should have controlled myself better" I whispered.

"Gunner I'm okay, please come and sit back down". I walked slowly back to the bed, keeping my pillow where it was. I am so embarrassed with myself, grabbing her and grinding on her like that, after everything she's been through. I need to change the subject, get my mind off it. I bet she's hungry, she hasn't eaten in days.

"Are you hungry? I can go and get you some food" I asked her with a smile,

"I'm starved" she moaned,

"I'll run down and grab you something" I said standing up,

"Actually, if it's okay I'd really like to walk a little. Can I come with you?" I looked at her and tilted my head. She couldn't be ready to get out of bed yet, could she? How much could she have actually healed already.

"Are you sure you're up for it?" I asked, feeling unsure. She tried to lift herself up but couldn't. Okay so there hasn't been too much healing then. The exterior may look a whole lot better, but the interior still has a lot more healing needed.

"I'm sure" she said adamantly.

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The entire time we were in the kitchen, Zelena was letting off some serious pheromones, and it was making my boy bounce. Her scent is addictive, and I could spend the rest of my life with my nose pressed to her skin. I want her, all of her, but I know that I have to wait. She has been through too much for me to just stake my claim over her. Even though I so badly want to. Even though everything in me is begging me to claim her.

She closed the bathroom door and I waited for her to finish her thing. But after a minute I could hear her sniffling, I walked to the door and pressed my ear against it. She was crying, I could feel her pain and sadness radiating through the door. I knocked,

"Zee, are you alright?" I called through, she paused for a second and then answered,

"No, I'm hideous" she sobbed out. I opened the door and found her curled into a ball hugging her knees. I sat down beside her and placed my hand on her leg.

"Please don't cry" I begged her, but she pushed my hand away,

"Don't look at me" she mumbled through her sobs. She doesn't want me to touch her, that's fine, and completely understandable given everything. But she needs to learn that I don't give up that easily.

"You'll heal Zee, it just takes a little longer for young wolves" I cooed, trying to calm her down. She stopped sobbing and lifted her head to look at me, her eyes were red and puffy, and her cheeks were wet from tears.

"What do you mean young wolves?" she snapped,

"You're a newborn wolf. You've only had one change, right? Well, the healing ability gets quicker the more you change". She looked at me confused, like I was losing my mind or something.

"But how do you know?" she asked wiping the tears from her cheek,

"I just do, we got taught this stuff as pups". Where was she going with this?

"Pups?" she questioned, tilting her head to the side. Oh of course. She's not in the pack and there are no other packs nearby, so unless she comes from a family of recluses, she probably had no idea that werewolves existed. Her father didn't smell like a Were, and he was beating the living crap out of her, so why would he bother to teach her about what she is… Unless he didn't know himself. I am about to blow her mind. I stood up and reached for her hand.

"Come sit on the bed and I'll explain" I said smiling down at her. She grabbed my hand and I pulled her up off the floor. We sat on the bed and I looked at her, she was staring at me anxiously.

"What do you want to know?" I asked getting comfy on the bed.

"Pups?" she demanded. And so, I began to explain the simplest way I could, answering her questions as I went. I told her about the Alpha and Luna, about the pack. She even asked if I was a wolf, which made me laugh. As we moved on to Omegas, I could feel her starting to grow anxious. I confirmed that at this very moment she is technically and Omega. But I didn't want to scare her with the whole True Mate thing, at least not yet. She just got a whole brick to the face worth of information. Best to take it slow with the whole destined to be together thing, I think. I calmed her nerves the best I could. I lifted her face and looked into her eyes,

"You won't be an Omega for long, I promise". She is mine, and I was never letting her go again, I leaned in close ready to kiss her,

"You're not going anywhere" I whispered. I stared at her, ready to feel her lips but just as I was about to kiss her, she surprised me by jumping across the bed and into my lap, tightening her arms around my neck. She was hugging me. She initiated contact. Her sudden show of affection made me feel happy and validated, like I knew now that she wants me too. I took a relaxed breath and hugged her back, resting my cheek on top of her head. I held her close, simply enjoying the fact that she was letting me hold her like this, after everything that her dad had done to her.

She nuzzled her face into my chest and placed soft peppered kisses on my exposed flesh. Her lips on my skin sent shivers up my spine and I froze. She continued kissing my chest, up and over my collarbone. Her scent had completely changed, I could smell her heat and desire and it was messing with my self-control. She bit down on my earlobe and I moaned, unable to hold it in anymore. A growl bubbled up from deep within me. I want her, I need her. She tugged at my shirt and I lifted my arms tossing it away as she pulled it over my head. I gripped her thighs, pressing my fingers into her, anything to stop myself from tearing off her clothes. She kissed down my bare chest, biting into my skin. I lifted my head back trying to resist the overwhelming urge to dig my teeth into her flesh. Her pheromones were strong, and I could feel myself giving over to them. The full moon is definitely not helping. She sat up higher, still straddling me, her neck now right in front of my mouth. My claws were starting to extend, I could feel them pressing into the skin of her thigh. I kissed her neck gently, imagining the feel of my teeth pressing into her flesh. I grabbed hold of her perfect tight ass, wanting so bad to be inside her. I lifted my hands to her shoulders and pulled her down onto my lap. I could feel the heat from between her legs pressed against my throbbing cock. She moved her hips forward, sliding her crotch along my dick. I can feel my wolf taking over from inside me. I wanted to sink my teeth into her, taste her blood, and burry myself deep inside her. She moved her hips again, pressing herself harder onto my cock. I shook my head to clear it of the lust filled haze, I need to stop this before I hurt her. I pulled together every ounce of strength I had left and grabbed her shoulders, lifting her off my lap. I placed her gently back on the bed and stood up, taking slow backward steps away from her.

"Stop. We can't" I panted. I tried not to breathe through my nose, knowing that if I smelt her beautiful juices, I wouldn't be able to hold back again.

"What?" she whispered. I took a deep breath to steady myself.

"I want to, I really want to. But not now, you still need to heal". How could I have been so reckless, nearly taking advantage of her like that, even after her father had raped her. She's just a young wolf and would have no control over her emotional actions yet. Especially under the control of a full moon. I can't believe my own selfishness.

"I'm sorry" she whispered,

"Will you still lay with me?" she asked softly, lifting the covers. Oh Goddess, I love her so much. I nodded and got into the bed, I pulled her in close and wrapped myself around her, then kissed her on the head. Wow, I do, I actually really love her. She was asleep in seconds breathing softly into my chest. I couldn't risk this again, I couldn't risk hurting her in a burst of passion. I closed my eyes and relaxed, letting my power seep into her. I'll give her all that I can and hopefully soon, she'll be healed. My head started to feel heavy, and my body was weak and tired. I passed out.