You Are A Mystery

I never was this way. I don't remember when I turned to this person. I have always been one to do what I please, never bending backwards for someone. To find myself that I have been doing this, feels like a betrayal.

I have betrayed myself.

Did it start when I was Trevor, or was it always there?

The reason I feel like I have done so much more, is that women in my society are always bending backwards to accommodate men, they are doing things they don't want all so that they don't feel like they will not be viewed as before.

It makes me sick because I am thinking that, yes it was such a little gesture, but what if it wasn't? What about those that do more than the little things? I feel sick.

I haven't gone to see Dr Aimee today. I don't think I want to.