Chapter 21

I never said I hate you.

He still looks at me blankly and completes:

''I wanted you to hate me.''

Hearing this makes me angry and I say:

''Do you have any idea how bipolar you are?''

I try to follow, but he stops me.

It would be easier. It's always easier when you're hating me, but... I can't live with it.

I look at him confused and he continues:

''After I kissed you....''

He runs his hand down his neck and confesses:

''Well, I wanted to kiss you again.''

I laugh.

Not because this is funny, more a nervous laugh at what I just heard.

I think he understands.

Right away my breath is burning in my throat for a while. He continues:

''So I had to act like an idiot because if you hated me it would make it easier for me. Believe me, I know it's selfish of me.''

I remember one of the reasons why I am hating him these days, I look at his arm and he follows my gaze and immediately understands:

''That was pretty dumb too.''

I avert my eyes and go to say: