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Chapter 12: Rule # 12: Mastering Yourself is True Power.

Beatrice.

I couldn't stop this panic attack; I couldn't stamp it down and pretend like it wasn't there. The room was closing in too fast, and my breaths were coming in too quickly. I needed to get out of the booth, and I needed to be far away from the people in it before they could see me completely lose control. I felt out of control, overwhelmed by being ripped open and exposed. It was too much too soon.

It wasn't the fact that Abby abandoned me the first chance she got, completely throwing me under the bus in the process or the fact that it was the one and only friend I had, that made me feel like I was unwanted and alone. It was the fact that I was stupid enough to believe that I could have the freedom away from all of it. That I was able to go out to dinner with an attractive man, his brother, and my best friend and feel like maybe he liked me for a fraction of a minute and truly live inside of that reality.