26: Jin

When Zoey exhiled from her bed chamber, my brothers had already left on their last errant. The chance that she'll see anybody apart from me and Namjoon, is below zero percent. The were the last she've sealed it with, apparently. If only things had worked out the way that I wanted, than Monie and I would've been the last two to seal it for this curse to be lifted. Assuring a successful ending, but that assumption flew out the door when Jk didn't seal it off. I'm the only one who had yet to complete a single step. I gave her a bowl of cold noodles and she thanked me happily. "Maybe you should spend some quality time with Namjoon today," I urged her on after she finished with her breakfast. The look she gave me seems distraught. It hurts so bad. I just want to wrap my arms around her and assure her that what she's feeling right at this very moment, is mutual. Yet, I couldn't move nor trust my voice enough as to let her know that my brother is outside. I mentally kicked myself, she must be think that I'm not affected by the curse, which couldn't be further from the truth. I am deeply affected by only making eye contact. I'm trying my up most best to conceal it, not letting it show on my outer covering. Though deep down inside, I'm fantasizing about her in my arms. He lips brushed up against mine. My fingers entangling her hair. My heart gave a uncomfortable yet warm tug just by the mere thought. She mouthed something that sounds like an okay and left me alone with my thoughts. I stared at the archway through which she'd just disappeared. I slammed my fist into the countertop in absolute frustration, before rubbing the back of my head.

I know fully well that I am helping her. I want to lift this curse just as much as she does. I don't want to loose either one of my brothers, but I will be unfaithful to myself if I said that it doesn't hurt. Courage had the privilege to meet her, before I even knew about her existence. When I found them, Hobi and her, in the living room on that faithful day kissing. I wanted to scream to the hilltops, but I kept my feelings hidden. The other day, when she and Tae locked lips_ I wanted to be he knight in shining armor and swept her away from the villain, yet I kept my feelings locked away. I can't even begin to describe this sensation of utter affection that I'm feeling towards her. After washing up, I made my way down towards the river, fishing gear at hand. Maybe I am to relax if I did something that I love to do. Perhaps I can mentally and physically calm down if I force the image of her out of my head. Just when I thought that my method is working, I saw them kissing. My heart burst. Exploded like dynamite. I packed up and back paddled. At my department our eyes met. I'm struggling to keep my eyes from tearing up. It erupted. I'm a man for crying out loud, I'm not supposed to be crying. I'm not supposed to be this weak.

I went to my room and laid down. I need to distract myself from everything. She's doing everything she can to save Jimin and here i am being a jealous mess. I want to seal it too and help him out of his distress. While on the other hand I want to savor this moment forever. I want her to remain here even after the curse had been broken. Maybe even fall for her all over again. Last night Yoongi went to her room, thinking that nobody noticed, but I had. Everyday Jimin greets her like a fool in love, perhaps him being her first encounter makes him worse off than the rest of us. Even so, Yoongi shouldn't be so affected. Is there a reason behind it?