Leonard held back the great disappointment within him. Inevitably, he began to justify Celine's words, which had been asking him to stop harbouring feelings for Fernando. Until whenever. Fernando will love Erna Soedirjo, not him. During this time, the man's heart will remain devoted to Erna.
And no matter how hard he tries, he won't be able to get Fernando's attention completely on him...
Would it be better if he gave up--
"What if you disappear like Erna, Leonard? I won't be able to afford it if I have to go back to losing people around me..."
His thoughts stopped for a moment, finding Fernando who now focused all his attention on Leonard's eyes. The man's hand grabbed the napkin used by Leonard to compress the man's forehead, throwing it in any direction in annoyance.
"Do you think I'm not afraid?!"