Chapter 11: Innocence - Avril Lavigne (Part 2)

Julia's POV

Julia took a deep breath. "Hey, how are you?" Cecilia ignores her. Julia bites her lip, and she puts her hand in the pocket.

"I lose my best friend and she died because of an overdose." Julia sat on the chair. "She's important to me, and she is the reason I'm not giving up." Julia took her zippos and put it on the nightstand.

"I lose my girlfriend. She dumped me, and I have a friend that obsessed with me." Julia tried to hold her tears. Cecilia hug her teddy bear as she muffled her mouth.

"All of us have the same unique problem, but the difference is how we dealt with that problem. For me, I want…" Julia gulped her saliva, "I want to be with you, but this circumstance made me realized that I'm dealing with a stubborn person like me." Julia wiped her tears.

"They lying, Julia. Even…" Julia helps Cecilia to sit and she looks at her. "Even my Nonna," Julia sat next to her.

"I almost died because of a car crash before. It was two years ago." Julia holds Cecilia's hand. "I hate hospital, but it's the only way I could get to know you," Cecilia hunched.

"Are you attracted to me?" Cecilia asked. Julia shrugged her shoulders.

"I don't know," Julia put her hand, "I'm still confused with my feeling towards you. It's that love or it's just a lust. I won't force you anyway," none of them talked for a minute. They deep inside into their thoughts, no ones know what they thinking about. Julia cleared her throat.

Cecilia rubbed the nightstand next to her and furrowed her brow. "What is that?" Cecilia picked her Zippos and rubbed it.

"It's my matches. I was an addict before I met you." Cecilia inspects the object by rubbing the surface.

"Why?" Julia rubbed her nose.

"My girlfriend dumped me," Julia said as she picked her Zippos. "I already talked to Chester when you passed out."

Cecilia rubbed her face. "He stills loves you, Cecilia. He already engaged, but he said he only needs her money to repay his father's debt." Julia bites her lips.

"Are you lying?" Julia shook her head.

"I might be a mafioso right now, but I never tell a single lie to you." Julia gets up from the bed and took a deep breath, "I have cosa notra tonight," Julia strokes Cecilia's hair.

Without warning, Cecilia kissed Julia's lips. They closed their eyes, enjoy when their moment together. Julia hugged her waist to get close to her. They kissed passionately until they were out of the breath. They looked into each other eyes.

I wouldn't change a thing about it

This is the best feeling - Avril Lavigne

Cecilia's POV

Cecilia bites her lips and holds Julia's jacket. Cecilia put her on chest and hugged her.

This innocence is brilliant

I hope it will stay

This moment is perfect

Please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by - Avril Lavigne

Cecilia closed her eyes and she sniffing's on Julia's jacket to fill her lungs with her scent. It's a new addiction for her. Whenever she was around her, she feels something strange whenever she was next to her. She feels safe and always lets her guard down.

"Can you stay?" Julia wants to stay with her, but promise was a promise. She was already under the oath to always present and be there when it's come.

"They need me." Cecilia rubbed her back.

"Can I come with you? I swear I'm not reporting you," Cecilia lift her head and their eyes met. They can hear their heart pounding so fast. Julia let go of her hug and cupped her cheek.

I found a place so safe, not a single tear,

The first time in my life and now it's so clear

Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here

It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere - Avril Lavigne

"I don't want you go because…" Cecilia bite her lips, "It's a trap," furrowed her eyebrow.

"How…" Julia clenched her fist and took a deep breath.

"I-I'm a fortune teller, remember?" Julia rubbed her arm and looked into her eyes. Cecilia wants Julia, but does she want her? She's blind. It's impossible for her to get Julia.

She was a fortune teller who can't tell herself a fortune. Love can't predict by anyone in this world. Cecilia shook her head to get rid of the negative thinking about her. She took a deep breath. "Julia?" She hummed.

Cecilia tightened her gripped on Julia's jacket. "Can I talk to Chester? H-he stills alive, right?" Julia nods.

"I'm not like Rico." Cecilia hugs her again.

"Please, don't go away." Julia nods, "promise?" Julia twined her pinky finger.

It's a state of bliss. You think you're dreaming.

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry - Avril Lavigne

"I should go home." Cecilia looked at her.

Julia's POV

"Will you comeback?" Julia nods.

"I will come…" she looks at her phone and opened the door. She saw her Capos standing and shook his head. Julia nods.

"Cecil?" Cecilia hummed, "you should take rest." Julia said.

Julia walked outside of the room and place her hand on her chest. She leaned on the door and shook her head. "It's impossible. I shouldn't get involved in their live." Julia wiped her tears.

It's a state of bliss. You think you're dreaming.

It's the happiness inside that you're feeling

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry - Avril Lavigne

Cecilia took a deep breath. She wants to hold Julia's hand. To stay with her a little longer. Wish she could say it to her, but she can't. She's neither her girlfriend nor wife. They still make sure that no one was getting hurt by one of them in the end.

She still knows nothing about her. Cecilia only knows what everyone knows about her. She's a Don of the most notorious Mafia clan in the world. Salvatore. Cecilia took a deep breath and closed her eyes, tried to sleep again, but it doesn't work.

She stills wondering about what happened to past few days, when she passed out. Cecilia took a deep breath thinking about how her to support her family.

Cecilia closed her eyes, and counting sheep as she fallen into deep slumber.

TBC