All of this, you see, all of me is yours

"Good morning, beautiful. You should wake up now," said someone in my ear, which made me giggle because it was ticklish.

Five more minutes. I say, turning away.

I felt soft kisses on my neck, which made me look up.

"Wake up or I will give you more kisses," he says shamelessly.

I immediately sat down, my heart beating fast in my chest.

I felt Nathan putting my hair out of the way and gently kissing me more on my neck.

I leaned into his kiss and looked him in the eyes.

He picks me up like I am so lightweight and puts me on his lap.

He leans in, and someone opens the door before he can connect our lips.

I stood up in a flash and looked at the door, putting my hand in my hair, feeling ashamed. I know I must be red by now.

"Sorry, did I disturb something?" asks Emily.

I was happy it wasn't Dad because it would have been so embarrassing, but then again...

"Good morning Emily. Of course you didn't disturb us. How could you when you are this cute?" Nathan says, smiling at her before I can answer her.

Emily blushes a bit, and I smile.

"Noah send you some of his clothes so that you can be comfortable," she says.

Nathan stood up, walking to her.

Emily shyly gives it to him.

He takes it from her, pinching her cheek.

"Thank you," says Nathan, whispering something I didn't hear into her ear.

Emily looks at me and goes away, smiling.

What did you say to her? I ask him.

"It's our little secret," he says, winking at me.

What?

That is unfair.

I want to know it, too. I say, acting cute.

"I know you are cute, but that won't work on me," he says, putting the clothes on the bed.

I looked away, feeling annoyed.

"Do you want to take a shower first, or do you want to shower together? I would love to do the last one," he says, coming close to me.

You take a shower first, and then I will go! I say, pushing Nathan towards the bathroom.

He chuckles and goes in.

My second drawer has a new brush, and towels are on the rack! I shouted after him.

I went into my dresser and picked comfortable clothes.

After a while, I went out of the dresser room and saw Nathan coming out of the bathroom.

He had a towel around his waist and one he used to dry his hair.

I looked at him with big eyes.

He was looking so damn hot.

His bangs were in front of his face, and he looked so handsome right now.

Water was dripping from his head to his abs.

OMG, his abs!

"I like that you love all this but aren't you going to take a shower?" he says, smirking.

I looked away, knowing that I was becoming red.

Y...ou... W..why... didn't you put on your clothes? I ask, trying not to stutter.

Oh god! 

What is with me and stuttering? 

"I don't like putting on my clothes in the bathroom," he says like it is normal.

But still... I was about to say something when I felt him coming closer.

He grabbed my arm and turned me to him, my hands landing on his bare chest.

"All of this, you see, all of me is yours, so you can look at me however you want," he says, looking me in the eyes.

I knew I looked like a tomato, so I put my head on his chest.

Can you not say things like this like it is so casual? I say to him, whispering.

He puts his hand on my chin and makes me look him in the eyes.

"But I really mean it," he says.

I nod my head and let go of him, going into the toilet.

I quickly looked at my clothes, but something in my heart told me to leave them behind, so I did.

After a while, I finished showering and put a towel around me and one for my hair, just like him. The towel was big enough to cover me till almost to my ankle, but still.

Hesitantly, I went out, drying my hair with the towel.

I looked up at him, and he stared at me with so much warmth and something else I couldn't figure out.

"You... You didn't put on your clothes," he says, still not breaking eye contact with me.

I don't like to put on my clothes in the bathroom. I say to Nathan, repeating the same thing he said.

Putting my clothes on in the bathroom is what I have been doing my whole life in that house.

He smirks and walks to me.

"I see you know how to play," he says.

I took a step towards him, bringing us even closer.

I also want to tell you that all this, me, is yours; although I don't have an attractive body, still...

He puts his fingers on my lips, not letting me finish my sentence.

"Don't you ever say that again! You are the most beautiful and attractive person I have ever seen," he says, looking at me with such adoration.

I look down, feeling happy by his words.

"Shall I go out, although I wouldn't mind seeing you put on your clothes?" he says, smiling.

I knew he was teasing me.

I push him away, not being able to suppress my smile either.

"I will see you downstairs, sunshine," he says, closing the door behind him.

I giggle and blush at what he said.

I quickly put on my clothes, his words never leaving me.

I blow dry my hair and put it in a messy bun.

I go downstairs after looking in the mirror for the last time.

I almost fell off the stairs when someone caught my waist.

I looked over to my side to see Noah.

He smiled at me. A creepy smile!

"You should look out, sister. You never know what will happen next time," he says with his hand unnecessarily close to my breast.

I let go of him quickly, feeling uncomfortable.

I gave him an awkward smile.

Thank you. I say, leaving Noah there.

"Good morning, my daughter. You okay?" asks Dad, looking at me with a worried face.

Yeah, yeah.

Nothing is wrong. I say, smiling at him.

"You know you can tell me everything, right?" he says.

I nod my head, and he kisses my forehead.

I said good morning to everyone and went straight to the kitchen, hoping this feeling in my stomach would go.

"Good morning bestie. Did you sleep good?" Olivia asks me, having a cheesy smile on her face.

Hey, good morning. I say to Olivia, not really focusing on the last part.

"Hey, is everything okay? Did something happen between you and Nathan?" she asks, walking towards me.

I shake my head.

"Then did you have nightmares?" she asks me.

Oh yeah, I forgot about them.

Last night, I didn't have a nightmare for the first time.

It must have been Nathan.

I felt more peaceful and connected to him when he told me about his father.

I feel like he understands me more than anyone does or will do.

I shake my head again.

"Then what is it?" she asks me, this time more worried.

It's nothing.

I am sorry I made you worried for no reason. I say.

She looks at me, not believing me.

Don't worry.

I will tell you when something happens. I say, giving Olivia a sweet smile.

She nods her head.

"You should go back. I will bring breakfast over," says Olivia.

No, I want to have breakfast with you guys today. I say, not wanting to see Noah for now.

"And you still say there is nothing wrong?" she asks.

Can't I just have breakfast with you?

You don't want me here anymore? I ask her, acting like I was hurt.

I really didn't want to tell her this was about Noah.

She likes him. I can't do that.

"You know I don't mean that. You can always eat here," she says, smiling.

Then I want pancakes stuffed with Nutella. Just like you gave it to me on my first day here. I say, smiling.

"Are you sure? Although I am all about breaking rules but you haven't fully recovered yet and unhealthy things aren't good for you," says Olivia.

Just for today, please, can you act like I am the healthiest person on earth? I ask Olivia, begging her with my eyes.

Olivia sighs.

"Okay, then I will act like I am blind for today. Just give me fifteen minutes," she says.

I give her my biggest smile.

My smile faded away immediately after she left.

I sigh, hoping nothing terrible is going to happen.

"Hey, is everything okay?" asks someone.

I look over to my side and see Evelyn.

I give her a faint smile.

Sorry, I just want to eat here today. I say, hoping Evelyn will believe me.

"Are you sure? I know you only come here when something is bothering you," she says, sitting beside me.

I really wanted to tell her what was bothering me, but I couldn't.

He didn't do anything yet, so what was I worried about?

What was I so afraid of?

It's nothing.

I just want to eat something unhealthy, and I know Dad will be worried if he sees me eating it. I say, trying to make up an excuse.

"Oooh, I see Mia is turning into a bad girl but I agree with you. It's good to eat something unhealthy if you are craving it," says Evelyn, smiling.

I smile at her.

"Mr Mason asked for you, but I said that you wanted to have some fun with us," says Olivia, returning to the kitchen.

I thanked her because I really meant it.

If I went there, he would know something was wrong.

After a while, Olivia finished and came to sit with us, putting the plates on the table.

 I looked at the food, the feeling I had before going away a bit.

It smells so good. I say to Olivia, still looking at the mouth-watering food.

I could hear Evelyn and Olivia giggling.

"You look like someone that hasn't eaten for days," says Evelyn.

I look at them, glaring at them.

I could see Luna, Ella, Chloe and Mila joining us.

I give them a smile.

Hey girls. 

How are you doing? I ask them all.

"Good. Life blessed us," says Mila, smiling.

"How are you? How is it going between you guys?" asks Luna.

I blush at her question, remembering what happened this morning.

"Ooohh, someone is blushing," says Ella.

Guys, can you just....? I ask them.

"Yeah, because it's our turn now," says Evelyn.

They all start to laugh, but I just glare at them.

"I see someone wanted to eat with her friends instead of me," says Nathan, kissing me on my hair.

I couldn't help but flinch when he put his hand around my waist.

The same place Noah touched.

Nathan let go of me when all the girls were like, "aww".

"It's always best friends over boyfriends," says Evelyn, flipping over her hair and high-fiving Olivia.

"True, but I am not any boyfriend. I am the coolest boyfriend," says Nathan.

I stand up, feeling guilty that that feeling came back when Nathan touched me.

Nathan would never do something to hurt me.

Uh, I don't feel like eating anymore.

I will go outside for fresh air. I say and go without waiting for their response.

I went into the big garden, which was more significant than the house we used to live in. I mean the house I used to live in.

The house that I was never meant to live in.

That house broke me into pieces, pieces I didn't know could heal.

A tear slid from my eye, deceiving me and showing me once again how weak I was.

I quickly wipe it away.

I could hear someone walking towards me, but I didn't have the energy to see who it was.

When two arms are wrapped around me, I instantly know who it is. My heart, which was beating in fear, immediately calmed when Nathan's body came in touch with mine. 

"What is wrong? Did I do something?" he asks me gently.

Of course not.

Why would you think that? I ask.

"You left the moment I came," he says.

I could hear the sadness in his voice.

I turn around in his arms and look at him.

I put my hand on his cheek, and he leans into my touch.

I am sorry you thought that.

I just thought about something. I say, hoping Nathan wouldn't feel bad for something that wasn't his fault.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks me gently.

I smile at him.

I did.

I wanted to talk about it but felt like something was holding my throat. Something was forcing me to shut up.

A tear falls again, betraying me.

Showing him just how weak I was, how broken I was.

I didn't want him to see me like that.

I just wanted to disappear from this world completely.

Nathan wipes it away with his thump.

"It's okay. If it's hard, then you can tell me whenever you are ready. Just know that I am here. I will be right there to hold you when you feel things are too much. I will be your light in those dark nights," says Nathan, looking at me with so much tenderness.

I put him in a hug, crying my heart out.

Although I couldn't tell him what was happening to me, at least I could show him, right?

He lets me cry like that for minutes, not complaining, just stroking my back, showing he will be here.

After a while, I calm down.

To change the topic, I remember I still had to ask him what he told Emily.

By the way, what did you tell Emily? I ask.

"You are never gonna let that go, are you?" he asks, smiling.

Of course not. I say.

"It's a surprise," he says, connecting our foreheads.

I back away from him a little and laugh a little at his shirt.

"What? What happened?" he asks.

I strained your shirt with my tears and snot. I say, a bit embarrassed now.

He laughs as well now.

"It's okay, and it's not mine, by the way. It's Noah's," he says, still laughing a bit.

I couldn't help but feel that feeling again upon hearing his name.

What was I so afraid of? 

Why didn't I feel safe around him?

Is Noah really someone that would hurt me?