First of Jesse XIV

Why did he take care of me?

Actually, I never thought that someone will do it but Oliver did. He even buys some groceries and cooked me a meal. What a husband material--- wait what do I mean he is a good man.

It is already 6:30 in the morning but I still didn’t want to leave the bed. I am still thinking about things related to him.

I am really surprised because the real reason why I became sick is because of him.

Would you believe that? Well, too much stress is the answer.

I am not stressed about my work or the manuscript but the thought of Oliver alone gives me a lot of stress. I always think of confessing my feelings but when I am about to do it there is always a girl who is always beside him. And honestly, I am kinda jealous of all the beautiful ladies that surround him because they all look good for him.

And honestly, I lied to him when I said the reason why did I avoid him. The answer is obvious but I cannot let him know it. Not now that he didn’t know who I really was.

I am afraid.

Oliver is really handsome and I like him for too long that is why in every day of life living as Red Wright is a challenge for me. He is not even aware that I like him and his action made me dumb.

I want him, who wouldn’t? But I don’t want to involve myself with him anymore.

I don’t even know what love really is. Is this love what I am feeling? Then I don’t want it. It’s too painful and too scary.

But…

I am also scared to be left alone. Everyone needs love and I don’t know if I will be able to find one someday.

Too many things are running inside my brain when I heard my phone ring.

I stand up into my bed and pick up my phone.

I am feeling better now (thanks to Oliver’s magical therapy) so now I can move in everywhere I want.

“Hello?” I said when I answered the phone call.

“Hello, Jesse” It’s Matthew.

“Long time no talk Mr. Lover boy,” I said.

“Oho! Why are you in a good mood, you are in unusual in an angel mode now” I heard him laugh to the other side of the phone.

“Geez, nothing happened okay? If ever something happened then I’ll tell you” I told him to shut him up.

I went to the kitchen to drink water and head straight to the living room. I sat on the sofa and I saw my unfinished story.

“Okay, but how are you?” He asked.

“I’m better now, my fevers are down now,” I said like it was normal to tell him.

“What, you’ve got a fever?” He shouted on the other line.

Shits, I forgot that I didn’t tell him I was sick. Telling him everything is really a daily routine to me so no one should blame me for spitting it out to him. But the real thing here is I really forgot.

“Sorry I didn’t tell you but don’t worry I am fine as an ox now,” I assured him.

“Thanks to Oliver,” we said in unison.

“What the!” I almost cursed. Why did Matthew mention Oliver? I was just gonna tell him that.

“Of course, who else would you let take care of you other than me?” He said then laughs

Arggh, this guy really has a big a*s brain.

“So, did you guys kiss?” He suddenly asked.

I feel my face become so hot. I don’t know if it is because of embarrassment or Anger.

“Shut up Jerk! None of your stupid fantasies happened so go away!” I said with a loud voice.

I swear I’ll have another fever just because of Matthew’s idiocy.

“Oh really? But why the other time you guys are hugging each other? Jesse Hmmm” Then he laughs the loudest of the day.

“I am not and please stop laughing, or I will tell Chryss about how you wet your pants when he---“He cut me off

“Okay I’ll shut up,” then he stops.

“Good, don’t think that I don’t have any secrets about you so don’t fight me or you’ll regret it,” I said with a dark voice.

“You fight no fair” I heard him sniffle (of course it’s fake). I know he is pouting on the other side but do I care? HAHAHAHA

“What Mr. Styles?” I teased him.

“Nothing! I said I’ll be back next Monday” He said.

“Oh shoot’s finish?” I asked

“Nope, changing location so Welcome me back,” He said. He sounds like a child. Ahhaha

“ Okay, bring Chryss with you next time,” I said like a mom. Geez, It’s like we are stupid brothers that after a fight, we’ll talk again without apologizing.

“Okay, see you next Monday” Then he ended the call.

After he ends the call I am still smiling. He’s still not changing even though he had the love of his life beside him. I’m jealous. Kidding uh maybe a little? But my mood is now lightened up because my best friend called me.

I lift my head and I saw the untouched manuscript. What will I do now?

I was about to grab a paper when I heard the door open. Who could it be? Matthew is the only one who can enter my apartment because he had a duplicate key.

I waited for someone to enter and to my surprise it was Oliver.

“H-how” I stuttered.

“Sorry I didn’t lock the door before I left yesterday so I entered without warning.”

He looks at me like he was really sorry, so I sit straight and then look at him.

“I thought you were still on the bed so I bought this for you, I hope you’ll like it” Then he handed me a plastic. I don’t know what this is but I wish it is delicious. YUM

“It’s okay, thank you very much,” I said.

“Another thing. Don’t work on your manuscript today, just take a rest and do it tomorrow you should have to regain your energy first” Oliver remind me.

I just nodded and we look at each other without blinking. I don’t know why but he is still looking at me with that eyes. It’s alluring you know? He is like scanning my whole feature.

I was about to open my mouth to speak when he suddenly talk.

“Uhm I gotta go” He said I nodded again and he rushed back outside.

Woah, I didn’t mean to look at him like that but… He is the first one to stare, right? Or Am I?

Whatever the answer is I am embarrassed. I almost forgot about my thoughts earlier.

Anyway

The he*l did I stare at him?

O gosh,

And Jesse Peters is blushing the whole day.