Chapter 19

  School went fast and before I knew what was happening I heard the closing bell. Kids rushed to their various homes while I sluggishly walked towards the toilet to start cleaning with Devin.

   Since what happened between him and Xavier he hasn't really talked to me. He just showed up after school that day with fresh bruises on his knuckles and I wonder how often he gets into a fight. it could be that he is always been bullied but the principal refuses to see that.

   One never can tell.

  Today would be another day, at least if the school hours went horribly, the closing hour might be good. I can as well try to talk to Devin to see if I can forget how Nigel made fun of me in class today. He literally called my trash in from of everyone in class just to make fun of me.

   If it was only that, I won't think about it. He called me a hoe and photoshopped a naked body to my face, with the way he did it one would hardly tell it was photoshopped except they have seen my body which would be only Xavier.

   Xavier!! That son of a.....

  Well, my mother is not a bitch so I won't say that.

  Xavier had seen everything about me even when I was still wearing my pants. I still can't believe I almost let him have sex with me.

   I raised my fingers to my lips and imagined his lips still on mine. Although his mouth still tastes like toothpaste but his breath smell like a fresh cigarette. I wish his hands can come back to my body and explore more, the way his fingers pinch my nipples is what I want.

   "What am I thinking?" I whispered as I walked past the janitor close "Xavier"

   I wasn't sure if he had started his punishment or had not even come. Standing in front of the door I contemplated if I should go or check upon him. Not in the sense of knowing if he is doing well, I just want to see his face.

   All through the lectures today I ended up thinking about the kiss and what would have happened if Mum had seen us. With Xavier completely naked and a large hard dick poking my stomach, the world would have ended. I can't imagine the disappointment on her face or how my stepdad would be if he finds out.

    'Gosh! I am so stupid!'.

   This has to stop and if I don't stop it, I know Xavier won't. He seems to be enjoying the forbidden passion forgetting that we are siblings even not by blood we can't do such. He can't keep using me to quench his hunger and call it a mistake at last.

    Deep down in my heart, I wish to go more with Xavier and at the same time, I want to kill him. It could be that I am thinking all this because I am horny and he is making me want to 'do it' each time I see him. I should do something before I lose my virginity to my stepbrother whom I hate so much.

   'Yeah, I hate him but....'.

   I folded my fist and attempt to knock before I froze. No one ever knocks in the Janitor closet all you get there are working things and nothing. That even made me being to wonder what Eva and Nili had actually been doing here.

   The principal assigned them to clean classes but I often see them here always watching at the door.

   That shouldn't be my problem for now since they are having their own punishment and not around me, making me want to kill them every minute. I knew that they haven't started their work because I saw Nili taking pictures with some group of people. Anywhere Nili is, Eva is always there, it's just so annoying how they follow each other and never get tired.

    'These are literally the kind needed to spread the gospel then'.

   I noticed the door ajar. if I can find Xavier in, I will give him the piece of my mind.

    He would never lay his disgusting fingers on me again. Never again.

    After taking steady breaths before preparing for anything to come, I pushed the door open and walked in.

   'Oh please! Dear gooad'.

   That's can't be the sound of mobs or brushes.

   Sounds of slapping and moaning filled the place. My lips twisted in disgust but something in me what to see what they were doing. It could be that they were fighting or helping each other with something else I just have a dirty mind.

    'One might be hurt and the other might be helping to clean it.

   I have watched porn videos in my free time and I haven't seen people having sex in person before. This could be the opportunity to get more experience to use when I get married.

    Slowly, I sneaked in the direction where the noise was coming from and got face to face with terror.

   Eva's skirt was lifted to her stomach right below her breasts, her pants to her ankle as she held the wall with her left hand and the right on the waist of the person moving in and out of her from behind. She looked red as if she was in severe pain, if she is I wonder why she kept screaming, moaning, and begging the person to do all sorts of bad things to her.

   The boy in question looked extremely evil. His emotionless and cold eyes were fixed on the wall while he barely made any sound.

   Just grunts.

    He bit his lower lips, and with both hands holding her well, he moved, smacking her with his might.

   Wait a minute?!...

   "Xavier?".

    I asked confused, it can be someone else "Xavier!!!" My voice became hoarse.

   I could not move, nothing else came to my mind as I felt used and cheap. I can't believe Xavier would do something like this.

   What was I even thinking?

   We are freaking siblings. Help siblings but...

  Moreover, He didn't promise me anything, he didn't say he love me or had said any relationship-related words to me. We kissed each other in silence what else should I have expected.

   "I- I hum" I shuddered "I was " I broke down.

   Before the tears could leave my eyes completely I rushed out slamming the door. I can't let them see me cry, especially Xavier!

  "Oh no!" I kept saying as I ran to the toilet "Oh no! No!! No!!!" I cried.

   I'm done. I'm done.

   I didn't turn back to see if he was following me and I didn't wish to have him follow me. This is more than I can chew, more than I can imagine as I ran Into the toilet and slammed the door. I bolt the door and rested my face on it crying.

  Since I was little, I have always preferred to cry in the school toilet than anywhere else. Freely I let my tears flow and cried out uncontrollably.

   "Holy smoke!" I heard a familiar voice behind me "What do we have here?"

  I turned back to meet Nigel buckling his belt and smirking at me. His eyes roam around my body for a moment before he moved closer and attempt to touch me but I moved. He attempt to touch me again but I did the same thing and slapped his hand.

  "What are you doing in the boy's toilet?" Nigel asked pointing around.

    I gasped, I had been in such a hurry that I fell into a deeper mess.

   "I will be out now" I turned to go but he pulled my wrist, slammed me to the wall, and braced himself on me. His face moved closer to mine so that I could feel the heat of his bad breath "get off me!" I cringed.

   I am screwed.

    If anything should happen to me I would be asked what lead me to the boys' toilet when what we always wash first is the girls' toilet. Even at that, school just dismissed and there would be a lot of kids in the restrooms.

   Like a hungry lion, Nigel smirked as he seized my left wrist. His other hand went under my chin as he raised my face to his level.

   Gosh! Why does he suddenly look so tall and terrifying?

   Nothing should happen.

  Please not now! I can't be doomed twice. What would I Tell my mom?...daddy would understand but, the shame?...

   "LET HER GO!!!" the voice sounded more like a growl.

  We both turn to meet Devin standing behind Nigel. Before the extra warning, he gripped Nigel's collar and punched him once in the face. He attempt to punch the second one when a loud bang came from the door.

   "Emily" I heard Xavier's voice "Open the door" he banged the door louder "Fvcking open the goddam door!!!" He yelled.

   I stared at the door in shock, my heart beating fast as if it would jump out of my chest. I heard someone groan and I turned to see Devin's right palm still holding Nigel's neck. He wasn't even looking at the boy whose nose was bleeding.

   A loud gasp escape my throat as I watched Devin tighten his grip around Nigel's neck. He didn't release his hand even when Nigel began to make choking sounds and began hitting his arm.

   There is something different about Devin now. His eyes, his sweet eyes were no more.

  His eyes were dark, not black but dark.

   His grey eyes didn't have the sparkle they had the day he touched me at lunch. He looked evil and with the way I was looking at him I was expecting a snap sound to indicate that Nigel's neck had been broken.

   "You will kill him if y-y-you don't s-s-stop" I whispered.

    'Oh!'.

  As if his senses came back to him, Devin released Nigel. His eyes were still dark as he watched Nigel open the door and ran out.

  Before the door could slam, the door was pulled as someone rushed in.

   'Not Xavier again!' I cried.

  His gaze roamed around my body before he turned to glare at Devin who stood in front of me.

   "Hello Xavier," Devin said "Or rather, Hello Brother" he smirked