Chapter 32

   Good thing no one came to bother me. From the bed I lay, I could clearly hear what they were all saying.

  Dave's voice seems to be the worst, extremely loud.

    Mum never talk about him and when I asked, she simply said it was an agreement and she had to talk to me.

   Ok, let me get this straight.

  My birth father agreed to let me go and here he is? What the hell is he doing here.

   Straining my ears, I realized I could only hear three voices. Mum's voice was the one with authority, Dave's loud voice, and my step Dad always trying to be the cool dad.

      My stomach doesn't hurt that bad.

  I can still feel it whine like my internal organs are getting tied together but I am used to it.

     I just have to have it at the very front of my mind that I will ha e to get this every month for four days until I am 40.

     "Gosh this is so humiliating" I rubbed my face as I tossed in bed.

    Everything is just so humiliating and as for Eva and Nili, I swear I will break them.

   I will hurt them to the point that they would want to leave the school.

   My brows arched and almost connected as I checked the screen of my phone and noticed the date still there.

   How could I have forgotten about it?

I literally forgot the name I see every day.

    "He did good tho".

  I shrugged as I recalled Xavier getting up for me. I won't say it's the first time because he had never let anyone hurt me except he wants to hurt me himself.

          His abs.

    His perfect body.

His arms.

   Now I get why Eva had agreed and have sex with him then in the janitor's closet, he is just so irresistible.

     My stomach grumbled for the first time in an hour reminding me that I have refused to eat anything since I came back from school.

    If I go down now, my dad would see me.

   "Urgh!" I rushed off the bed to the door "I am not scared of you".

     It took me about seven minutes to open the door and sneaked to the kitchen. Good thing my instincts had ordered me to peep before entering and the first thing I saw is my Dad and Xavier glaring at each other.

     Mum and my step-Dad were busy pickings on their plate of lasagna and chicken sauce.

    So this is what I am missing because I just don't want to see my birth father?

   Damn!!

  Slowly, I began to move back. Even as my stomach groans, I just don't want to see their faces, especially Xavier and the person he is glaring at.

     Quickly I brought out my phone and messaged Mum, a slice of leftover pizza and milk won't hurt right?

    Laying patiently after eating the cold pizza mum had brought to me, I had toss the place and cup under the bed and lay on my back. The ceiling became the most favorite thing to watch and I indeed before to watch it.

    A notification alert on my phone made me lose my staring contest to the ceiling.

    "Holy ribbons" I gasped as stared at my phone in fright "That whore!" I groaned through clenched teeth.

     My eyes won't just leave the irony caption boldly written in uppercase letters.

     'You can tell a dirty whore when she forgets her p day'.

    My lips quiver, not to cry, but out of anger.

    I want to scream, to throw my phone against the wall and jump off the window. It's not like I use the phone for anything aside from listening and watching the k-series.

     "Fuck you, Eva" I sniffed finally "I swear...."

   Quickly, I turned over and bit into my pillow. Holding it tight I pressed my face on the bed a let out a muffled scream.

     I screamed, doing it over and over again feels so exhausting but I think I feel better.

   Picking up my phone, I noticed so many more comments again.

   I didn't brake note of the forest comment but I know there is a huge difference.

    Slowly, I hesitated before clicking on the comment section with my eyes closed and after settling my breath, I opened it.

     'I can't wait to be inside you again, Eva *Smirks* This time, we will try a different position, seven styles in seven minutes is too fast so if you don't mind which I know you won't, I want to see you in the boys' toilet twenty minutes after closing. The same toilet you meet Nigel'.

    This can't be real.

  I blinked and rubbed my eyes to get hold of this comment well. Xavier can not just write this!

    Looking at the profile, I got to see Xavier's update staring back at me.

    'Did he just tell the whole world that he had sex with her and wants to have another one?'.

    Sweat broke out on my forehead as I began to imagine how Eva would feel now. Over a thousand plus people are against her and the worst part is that her attackers were once her fans.

    "This is so sweee-".

   My heart skipped a beat and nearly exploded as I heard footsteps approaching. It can't be Mum, she told me that she won't be back till Dave left and I can still hear his loud voice in the living room.

      Not sure of what to do, I quickly threw my phone under my duvet and lay still.

    Immediately he walked in the fresh smell of his cologne and cigarette.

   The fact that Xavier smokes baffles me and I wonder if our parents are too busy to notice.

    For a very long time, I didn't hear any sound and that freaked me out. I am sure he walked in, his cologne still smells fresh and I...I can...I can feel him closer...

     Suddenly, I felt his warm kiss on my chin. 

     "I fucked up," he said "There is nothing I can do to change the past but I can do better".

     I was too stunned to say anything. I just held my breath and hear his footsteps retreat.

    The sound of his weight making the bed grumble filled the room followed by a deep groan.

    "I know you are awake but you don't have to answer" Xavier continued "Just know that I love you Emily, sister or not".