A grief to be remembered

I looked at the blank green board across the corner as I sat down at the end of my empty classroom.

The silence felt relaxing as this was the last time I would get to see this place again.

The birds chirped as usual and the sun glowing brightly refused to set.

Huff Huff*

Amidst this silence I felt heavy footsteps approaching this silent room.

"Rehan she is calling you!", Ganesh said.

"What?"

"Shriya is looking for you since forever",he added.

At that moment my hair rose as I rushed downstairs and in an instant I found myself at the schoolyard.

I looked at the crowd as my batchmates gave their send offs to their homies.

Amidst the crowd I swayed as I was clueless, suddenly I felt a faint pat behind my cold back.

The warmth of that hand took my attention as I turned my head and our eyes met.

Eyes that reflected my face like a crystal and the hair that was majestic enough to look down on a princess.

She was an existence who made me happy with her presence and yet on that day her words engraved grief within my life.

"Hey I have something to say to you", Shriya said.

"Go ahead", I replied.

"I am shifting to Canada this might be the last time we get to see each other".

My body froze

And the silence rejuvenated as she stared at my blank face that showed no sense of emotions.

I suppressed my hint of emotion as I held back the trickling tears down to the throat.

I bitterly smiled as she exclaimed,

"Hey, you know we may not be able to meet again right?"

"I know", I said.

She looked back at me and began shifting the topic of our conversation.

I felt like I lost a place at that moment as I wished to leave that very instant from this hellish feelings I was building within me.

In the end I left like a coward and I wept in silence.

I broke down with no one to console.

It felt painful to think the one to stand by me had left me in this unforgiving world.

My mind wished to talk to her as I grew restless.

As I picked my phone up I texted,

("hey you up?"

"Yes")

"So what happened with the others", I inquired.

"Hmm I guess things worked out well", she replied.

"Worked out well, eh?", I texted and then I added,

"So you got a boyfriend now huh?".

The atmosphere started to become dense and suffocating. Our both sides knew each other very well.

" You really want to know?", she asked as this brought chills down my spine.

It reminded me of the time when we sat together in bus alone and made fun of who would attract the opposite gender more.

A childish discussion but yet felt like a hint she gave that she was already taken.

"Yes", I texted.

To think the guy who was most popular among the girls ended up In a relationship with the most popular girl was no surprise to me.

"Congratulations I am so happy for you"

Was I happy?

No

I wished it was me from the bottom of my heart and yet I was helpless with no words to speak.

In the end I was just her best friend huh?

Truly a grief to be remembered, I suppose.