Our First Night

#5. Never kiss your best friend's brother, who she hates.

"You are a bad guy, right?" I asked Axel, leaning on the door frame opposite me. We hardly talked, although his sister was my best friend, yet he was the one who had helped me. My makeup was smuggled from the tears I shed early on. Though this room was far away from the party, I could still hear the booming beat coming from the DJ. He took a drag before saying anything to me.

"Do you want?" he offered to me.

I shake my head as I inhale the smell of the smoke. I could not see his facial expression. The only light was the light leading to the stairs. Still, I trusted him more than the boys downstairs.

"It helps for the nerves."

I took the blunt from his finger and attempted to drag it.

"stop" he came beside me, taking it away from my hand.

"you are wasting it," he put in my mouth and whispered.

"suck it slowly" I followed his instructions.

"then inhale into you" I repeated the motions about 3 times before he pulled out of me.

"Why did you stop?" I whined.

"because you have already taken enough."

"it not even affecting me," I grumped, and he laughed. It was the first time I heard him laugh.

"trust me, it will." He said, taking a drag. I seductively looked at the blunt, knowing it was from my lips that he took it from his lips.

"Why did you go to Juvie?" I asked.

"You should not ask questions that concern you, Little girl."

I frowned. My legs wobbled, and the ceilings started moving. I giggled at the phenomenon of things. The world was really spherical.

"I am not a little girl. Are you a bad boy?" I asked again.

"if you asked any questions again. I am going to shut your mouth for you!"

He threw the finished blunt on the ground and used his sneakers to scour it.

I knew he was still because of me, waiting for me to calm down, giving me his jacket to cover. It made me wonder where the evil person Cleo had painted him to be.

"let go"

I held him by his arm, pulling me closer to him. My lips trembled. I licked them before I was confident to speak.

"you have had a lot of experiences, right?"

"Avery, let's go home. By morning you will feel better and regret everything right now."

I shake my head and cling on to his arms even tighter.

"Please just make me forget," I sniffed.

"Fuck it!!"

Axel hit his hands on the wall.

His lips crashed on mine. He took his time to savor my lips, sucking the bottom lip before nibbling it.

I gasped.

His tongue circled into me, playing with mine. I put my hands around him, grabbing onto his hair.

His hand slipped down my dress and caressed my ass. He took his other hand to caress my neck, but I shivered. Tears started to fall down my eyes.

Axel pulled me for a hug. I didn't realize I was trembling until I was in my arms.

"you are okay," he whispered.

"it is not your fault," he continued.

And I just simply sobbed.

We got into his truck when I was done, and he drove. I didn't ask. I simply trusted him even when I saw him leaving the town or stopping at a motel. Then, finally, Axel came down and opened the door for me. I shivered when I came down. Each breath I exhaled looked like smoked ice.

Axel locked up the car and held me as we went inside.

"One room, please" the receptionist stayed quiet. I watched her glaring at us up and down before answering.

"Your card?" he pulled out cash instead, and she checked us in.

As we entered the motel, I spotted a dead cockroach beside the bedframe. The light twitched at every movement in the room. The bed was a little dusty.

Immediately Axel tossed his phone on the bed and pulled his shirt off his body. I drooled a little, staring at the little ounce of strip tease he displaced. Then, he threw his shirt on my face blocking me from viewing it anymore.

"Take your bath and change into this" I didn't complain. I entered the jammed-up bathroom. I almost puked when I saw pubic hair inside the toilet. The bathtub drainage gathered mucus. I closed my eyes and turned on the shower. I screamed when the cold water touched my body.

The bath was short. Most of my makeup was gone, and his shirt only reached enough to cover my ass.

Axel approached me as I stood in front of the bathroom with a towel in his hands. He took his time to clean my hair. I noticed he had cleaned everywhere. The dead cockroach was no longer there, and the bed sheets were changed.

Axel tilted my head to face him. I could still feel the warmth of his hands on my ears, even with the towel wrapped around my head.

"you good?"

I sniffed, then nodded.

"then you need sleep."

"but?"

"Go and sleep, Avery" I leaned in to kiss his lips only to give him a peck because he turned his face away.

"it will all be better by morning."

I stayed up till 2am, still feeling the rejection of Axel. Then, finally, I left the motel room with a thank you note by the first sign of grey clouds.