Chapter 41

It's been two days since we got back and things with us have been okay. I'm trying not to let anything get in the way of our love this time. I want to work on my trust for him, I know that's something that isn't stable and then to let go of every pending anger and hatred. I'm trying to forget but sometimes that evil part of my conscience would remind me of all the things he did. We were still both overwhelmed with guilt we still needed to work on forgiving ourselves first. Sometimes I imagine how it would have been if we hadn't broken up if he knew and followed up with the pregnancy if we raised Evie together if he was there from the beginning and I know he thinks the same too and it makes me feel so sad and guilty because I know how much he wanted to be there for his child every step of the way.

"What are you thinking of this time?" He started by kissing my neck, kissing me out of my reverie.