It might not be possible

When the Sunday comes, I went to school as soon as I can. But when I get to school it was already 8 o'clock and Lao Shi still didn't come. Well, I was a little upset about that, why I was the latest coming student and now Lao Shi is later than me? Or was he about to change class again? Maybe because I asked many questions that made him difficult to teach, just like what he said, 'Why do you like to protest a lot?'.

Hmm, I was just curious about everything around me, I remember I asked him "Lao Shi, if the train is called 火车 in Chinese, so will the boat be called 水车?" He chuckled and replied, "It's not all the Chinese characters are made up like that." Thinking about that made me feel worried. Maybe he doesn't like to teach a student like me or maybe I asked too much and was too weird. There were teachers who said that he was more exhausted teaching me than teaching 20 students. I don't think this was my fault, or because of this mindset making everyone think I'm a narcissist? Well, however, I was not fake. I registered to study Chinese in that school, the reason is that I like the director of the school Teacher Visal. Even though he was old, but look at his past! He was handsome and ...hmm let's say he's a good man 君子. whereas my Chinese name is 启君 I thought it was fated.

Hahaha, I was waiting for this type of man for so long, an educated person, loving heart, kind, and has the vision of helping others, unfortunately, even though I like him but he didn't like me. I made a bad first impression by arguing with him, and he was like Sun Zi, always calm but would never talk to me again. Why is it so hard to impress a gentleman? I always fail to do that, never in my life once I made a good impression on my crush. However, as a woman, even though he doesn't talk to me (maybe he thinks that I'm a 小人) I registered to study in his school to be his student. Now, I am one of the students of his school and I have to obey him. But since I took the class, I never saw him in real life; he was always busy. And to study with the Director of the School, I have to reach the level HSK to get there. What a difficult path! That's why I wrote a book, in which the female protagonist is always chasing the man she likes. I named her Luna in which case it was my English name. What is wrong with just flirting with the man first? I don't think it's wrong. Or because I am ugly? ;( Maybe!

Maybe I could never get someone I like to like me back. They always run away from me or end up hating me. I don't care. However, I like them. And I will do whatever I like, but I'm not a xiaoren 小人, I never force someone to love me, even how much I love them if they don't love me I will let them go. I just can't help whenever I see someone I like, I can't hide my reaction to be like nothing happen. I'll show them directly, whether they know it or not.

I don't know when I have to lose this handsome Lao Shi, but during the time he still teaches in our class, I still have hope to see him every weekend. I'm not a shameless one to flirt with him directly, but I'm not afraid either to tell him I like him. Or maybe, we can end up together? I don't know, but I will tell you back if we can make it. But now, he's my handsome teacher in crush.