Ashely P.O.V.
Am I nuts! I must be. I knew we were, you know, messing around, but why did I show him who I was. By taking off my mash in front of everybody!
So now, everyone will tell everybody, and now my parents will too and make me quit! So now I am here in the bed with Jayson because I had to show him who I was.
Now, this is a goodbye fuck, and I can feel this reject feeling for lying to him. But, as he told me in the truck last night, I should have told him.
Oh, No!
Oh, No!
Oh, No!
I had to be dumb and hurt him. But I shouldn't feel bad. Did he hurt us how many times? I heard my inner voice say being upset with him over the years, and he pulled and broke my heartstrings and hurt me. So, I should not
have to feel guilty.
Remember, he started it first! After that, I heard the evil side say inside my head.