Fresh start

Carissa and her boyfriend Luke of 3 years have recently moved into a new apartment in New York ,because he claimed it would be better because it was closer to his workplace and that he didn’t have to drive for hours to get to work. In her opinion she liked their old apartment , she had grown to love the environment because it made her feel at home, she loved being surrounded by nature. It reminded her of the days her and her mother spent together in summer in their backyard. Another thing was that, she had grew quiet fond of their elderly neighbor Mrs. Hive who wasn’t too happy at the fact that they were leaving . rigg

She would always tell her to put herself first when it came to her and Luke’s relationship and she also said that Carissa was one of the nicest person she had ever met right next to her husband .So she was so sad at the fact that they were leaving. “Carissa, did you check all the boxes? I have to find my flash drive or else my boss will fire me I really need it , I need this job to continue supporting us since you don’t have one. How could you even begin to misplace this” Luke yell’s at her . Although she loves him , she feels as though sometimes he’s just a pain in the ass and she doesn’t like the fact that he yells at her like she is stupid . “but I could have sworn I saw it on that box over there , I don’t know what might have taken removed it from the box .I’ve even checked inside the box so many times”.

She replies while she continues to look for the object. Carissa and Luke met each other in their senior year of university, both had graduated at the top of their class. The day they met each other instant sparks flew. He had found her sitting in the park crying about her mother’s health that had been worsening every day . He asked her why she was crying and she was reluctant at first to tell him because all her life no one ever cared to ask her about her problems but she ended up telling him. He told her pretty girls like her didn’t deserve to cry and that her mother would be alright .Carissa went through everything with Luke by her side , he was even there for her when her mother then passed on .

He encouraged her to stop pitying herself, to go out there and do something she loved and not to blame herself and that there’s nothing she could have done . “Carissa why are you just standing there? Do something I need that flash drive for the presentation tomorrow , I swear you are just so useless sometimes . I’m telling you to do something about it now ! The moment he yells Carissa flinches a little and she tells herself that it’s okay that this is what relationships are meant to look like .That it doesn’t always have to be sunshine and rainbows . And that he’s just stressed about all the problems that come with working in a highly respected firm .Her growing up she would always see her mother and father fight and to her, she thought that was what all families were like .Her father was never around , the type to stay out late at night he claimed to have been working in his office and her mother would always be on his back about how he wouldn’t come back home at the appropriate time and how he never spent time with their daughter .

“Here it is I found it” she shouts as she spots the flash drive lying on the couch in a pile of papers that he said he was sorting out . “You see was that so hard to do?” “No” she replies . “Exactly” he says . In that moment his phone rings and he goes off to answer it, Carissa sits on the floor thinking about how she can find a new job. Since they had to move out of their old apartment in Arizona on such notice , she has to look for any job that she can find otherwise she is going to be jobless and she’ll be stuck doing house chores and waiting on Luke to come home every night and she doesn’t want that. As she is sitting there she hears the door slam and once again she flinches not expecting the loud noise. This is what Luke always does he is always leaving without telling her and coming back when he feels like and when she tries to ask him about it he shuts her down and tells her off .

Carissa gets up the busy streets filled with people rushing to their designated destinations and cars alike. As she is standing there she notices someone who looks like Luke just across the street talking to some girl . They stand there for some time and share a kiss,one that two people who are in love with each other share . When she thinks about how Luke barely kisses her or compliments her even when she tries to really impress him . He looks happy, happier than she’s ever seen him . They hold each other’s hands and venture off into the city with wide smiles on their faces .Standing there she wonders when this all started and why. She feels so overwhelmed about the whole thing such that she begins to tear up and hyperventilate noticeably. She feels like she is going through a mini panic attack, as she watches her world is coming down on her. The man she followed to Los Angeles turned out to be a cheater and it doesn’t help the fact that she doesn’t know what she’ll do from now on. She runs off into the small kitchen and boils water in a kettle and reaches for her favorite mug and makes herself a cup of green tea that always calms her down in situations where she feels like she can’t handle. She starts going through the possibilities of what might have pushed him to cheat on her.

Maybe he’s bored of her and is looking for excitement or maybe he fell out of love with her because they’ve been dating for such a long time .Either way she doesn’t like it , she then goes to the bathroom and gets her stress bath bomb and puts it in the water .She puts on relaxing music and tries not to think about it because she knows if she does she’ll over think and that it’s not too good for her to do that . She gets in the bathtub and enjoys the feeling , not too long after she begins to cry . About everything why she has to be such a failure in life and how she wishes her mom were still around to make her feel better like she always did.

A/N: HOPE YOU ENJOY ,LOVE CASSANDRA