Trust the process

It's been another 2 weeks since I discovered my 2nd gift. Unlike my first gift, I have spent this entire 2 weeks in the cave, cultivating it with the help of Bethany.

Within this 2 weeks it has only made 2 appearances. I have been having persistent headaches and Bethany says it because I am trying to force it that's why. She teaches me to breathe through the process.

How am I supposed to go back at this rate? I close my eyes and try to conjure the force field yet again.

Nothing.

I have told you time and time again Zenith that you cannot force the process. Close your eyes, breathe and focus on being.

You are here right now and that is all that matters.

I feel myself relaxing to her words

That's it. Deep breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth. You have no other place to be. I do indeed, I have my business in ... Every other falls away except this moment right here.

Breathe in

And out.

I follow her instructions while trying to get my monkey mind to sit still.

After an few hours of breathing and calmness. Bethany says we are done for the day.

We both walk back to the common house.

Zenith

Yes

If you want this particular gift of yours to come faster, you have to give up trying to control the timeline and putting pressure on yourself to perform.

When you let those go, and focus solely on being, discovering and interacting with yourself, you unconsciously bring what you desire to reality.

Counter intuitive right

Yeah, I wish it were that easy to give up control.

You cannot force the process Zenith. When you submit to yourself, you gain true control.

Thanks Bethany.

You are welcome.

See you in the evening.

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Hey, please scoot over a bit.

Sean gives me a dazzling smile as he adjusts on the log of wood. He, Jason and Miranda had a fire burning at the centre. An innocent animal dangling atop of it roasting.

Hi guys

Hi

Sean sends me another smile.

Hmm someone is in a happy mood. Why else would you be shining your teeth?

He smiles yet again. Weirdo

The setting feels cozy and I snuggle closer to Sean. Placing my head on his shoulder I let out a soft yawn. I barely did much today yet I feel so tired.

Miranda keeps feeding the flames which were burning without firewood. Miranda's gift is so cool. She sends Jason a flirty look and brushes past him, he grabs her waist and pulls her to his lap. Within moments they are kissing each other like horny teenagers.

PDA much guys?

Miranda stops kissing long enough to tell me to go get a boyfriend. Lol

Soon she is straddling him.

Awkward.

I look at Sean and he blushes. Can someone give me some innocent animal to eat or what. With Miranda distracted, the fire flounders until it finally sputters out. Well there is my answer.

Want to go do something that is not R18?. I purposely raise my voice at the end and Miranda gives me her middle finger, Jason was far too gone to even care.

Sure. Come on Molly. Sean's dog saunters over to us, She is so cute and small, watching her walk is funny and cute at the same time. she always walks leaning to one side as if she is about to fall down at any moment.

Why don't we go to the fishing hole?

But we don't have anything to fish with.

We could just sit and talk, the view there is great.

mmmm, sit and talk.. nah. no. that's not what I have in mind.

Okay, what do you have in mind.

One word. Scrabble.

Thirty minutes later we were giggling like small children as we had lifted a bottle of whiskey off Ryan.

Ryan will be spitting mad when he finds out.

Hahaha

Okay Zenith, I am not following. You said we are playing Scrabble. What is the alcohol for?

Well, For each word we make, we take a shot and we see how long we can play without making mistakes.

Lol, that sounds like so much fun.

I am fun. Winking at him, I grab his hand to move forward.

But isn't that two words?

I look at him not following.

You said one word, Scrabble. But we are having Scrabble and Alcohol. It's three words even.

I stare at him unblinking. 𝑯𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒐 𝑬𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒊𝒏