11: Missing her parents

She found herself sitting at the park where she usually standbys. She can see many families happily

sharing some laughter and smiles. That was her begotten wish since when.

"I wish I was never born." she mumbles and took a deep breath.

Her eyes start to water and she doesn"t want someone to see her crying. She hurriedly wipes her tears

with her palm. But the more she wipes it, the more it rolls down from her eyes. She"s so weak that she

couldn"t even defend herself.

"They always love and favor Ellaine. I keep on asking myself, am I, their daughter? It's so unfair." she

says.

A cute little young girl came and approach her. She looks like she"s into her three years of age. Elandra

wipes her tears and smiles at her.

"Hello, where is your mom?" she asks her.

"She"s there with my dad and sister." she said, pointing where they are.

Elandra got confuse if they"re not being worried of her. And it is like, they"re not looking for her. She got

so worried to the child and she carries her. She needs to give them to her parents but they are so busy

playing with their other daughter.

She stops walking, she realized, the woman she was holding is merely her. It was just a memory of her.

She shakes her head and just decided to go home. That part is very memorable for her, very memorable

that could even hurt her heart. She got almost lost when she is still young because her parents are busy

playing with Ellaine. That is the most and scariest memory of her.

Elandra just decided to go home. One of the maids bows at her and she just smiled. She feels so shy

about what happened a while ago. She was expecting their house to be so noisy but as she entered, it

was all quiet.

"Where are mom and dad?" she asks one of the maids.

"Miss Elandra, your mom and dad left with your sister a while ago. They are going back to China and

they told me to tell you that they"re going to stay there for your dad to be cured. Ellaine told me to tell

you that they"re going to stay there for good" the maid said to her.

Elandra froze, she was stunned, her eyes are already being dry not blinking too much. She almost

fainted but good thing the maid is so alert to hold her arm.

"Ma"am, are you okay?" they asked her and even let her to drink a glass of water.

Elandra"s world starts to shred. Her family left her all alone, all by herself. She doesn"t know what to

feel. Elandra locks herself into her room the whole day after that day. The maids are already getting

worried about her. She doesn"t want to open the door of her room. She doesn"t even eat a little.

"Elandra! The maid called me and told me everything. Are you killing yourself inside?! Come on, open

this up or else I am going to asks someone to brag down your door." Ashley shouted at her and keeps on

knocking at the door.

They are all relieved that she didn"t think of hurting or ending her life inside after locking the whole day.

She has no choice but to open the door because what Ashley said is also what she means.

Ashley scoffs as she saw how Elandra looks like with her puffy eyes and with her messy hair. The

windows and even her curtains are not being fixed and opened.

"Come on, girl. Are you going to ruin yourself with that? You are more than that. You don"t need to be

that weak, Elandra. You need to be strong and besides they might have left you but I am still here for

you." Ashley said making her to sobs to her chest.

Ashley pities her best friend so much. All that she had experienced and felt. She doesn"t deserve any of

those kinds of treatments. She"s so sweet and fragile.

"Ashley, they left me. They left me all alone. Why don"t they just try to tag me with them? They're my

parents nor my family. I still need them." she sobs.

Ashley just pats her head and wipes the tears crawling also from her eyes.

"Honey, if I were you. I will be braver and stronger for them to see what is the worth of the person

they"re throwing and treating so bad. If I were you. I will walk out from this room. Open up my window

and fixed up all the curtains. Tie my hair and washes my face. Elandra, there are many ways to live. You

don"t need to do anything just to please them. You have to be yourself, Elandra. You have to stand firm

and start a new you." Ashley has a point.

She wants her best friend to learn something for herself. A lesson that she needs to shutter on. She

needs to change the way she is in order for them to stop stepping on her.

"You"re right, Ash. I am going to be bolder and stronger until they"re going to come back. I need to

change for the better. I am going to let them see and taste my revenge. I will try my best to change

myself into a stronger and bolder one and not the Elandra whom they keep on stepping on. I will throw

the weak Elandra and I will be a new version of Elandra." she said to herself with firm and wipes her

tears.

She needs to stand up for herself. Not letting anyone to step on her. As much as she wants to change for the better, she thinks it's better for her to change for the worst. Whatever will happen nor what matters the most.

Ashley claps her hands at her and agreed with her. That"s what she wants to hear from her best friend.