Angry 1

"It's not disturbing like that, Arghi. It's soothing, fresh like in the forest, like rain, and something else I can't say in words. But it just seems like it makes me weird by just kissing his."

"Strange?" asked Arghi, bringing his curiosity to come.

Galant didn't answer right away, but in the end, he said it. "It makes my bottom hurt, Arghi."

"Huh?" Not that Arghi didn't understand what Galant was saying, Arghi himself is twenty-one years old now. However, he just didn't know what the smell had to do with the problem that befell Galant now.

"Arghi, forget it. We better go back to eating."

Arghi only responded with a brief nod to Galant. He knew better that there were limits to his curiosity that he couldn't just express. Especially about such personal matters, although he still wanted to know what made Galant such.

They returned to eat in silence, and this did not make Arghi comfortable at all. Moreover, he felt a look sweep all over his body. He knew Galang was watching him when Arghi ate like this, maybe Galant didn't want Arghi to be wrong in putting spoon after spoon of food in his mouth.

Arghi was blind, but that doesn't mean Arghi was stupid not to know it. He didn't want this feeling of being watched continuously carrying uncomfortable feelings coming within him.

"Galant, what's wrong?" Arghi couldn't bear to remain silent where this time Galant sounded with his restless move at the end of the table.

"Nothing, Arghi. You need something?" asked Galant back to Arghi as if he was shifting the conversation Arghi had just made.

Arghi replied with a brief shake of the head and pushed his plate forward after he finished his meal. In the end, Arghi again dared to ask. "Galant, how's the school?"

He sadly hears his question to Galant, where ideals have been dashed like the blink of an eye. He just graduated from university quickly because his goal is to find a job so that he no longer bothers this family, but in fact, the hope is that his hope remains a stone in the shoes that disturbs also troublesome.

Galant coughed slightly at the end of the table, Arghi wincing timidly at him misspoke. "I still have to go to school from home. Everything is going well, Arghi don't worry."

Arghi nodded and smiled in knots. They both close their lips and do not want to talk adding back to the awkwardness between Galant and Arghi as before. Because he hasn't found a conversation he can pull out to talk about.

Movement on the table, pulling Arghi's eyebrows in a question. "What's wrong, Galant?"

"Eh?" Galant didn't seem to be aware of the commotion he had made.

"You seem to be busy, I have to go back to the room. It's okay, isn't it Galant?" asked Arghi hesitantly.

"We just made up Arghi, why would you want him so much to go back to the room. Can we at least... Chatting together?"

Chatting together? Isn't that what they've done before? Galant wanted to talk about what with him this time? Arghi no longer knew what kind of response he wanted to be.

Arghi gasped as a warm touch looped 1 on one of his wrists. He didn't realize that Galant had been by his side now. It slightly made a feeling of fear flash onto the surface when he imagined it was someone else, and he felt quite terrible. However, Arghi simply kept these feelings deep inside and ignored him not to tell Galant.

"Arghi, we can sit back on the balcony of my room," Galant suggested out of the blue, and Arghi felt uncomfortable when Galant even spoke at too close a distance to him like this.

"You usually do schoolwork now, Galant."

"Arghi, don't think about that now."

Arghi felt awkward and only nodded briefly in response to his approval. Until he followed Galant who grasped his wrist while guiding him up the stairs slowly.

When he felt the wind that hit his front body instantly it also made Arghi unable to hold back his smile to stretch wider than before.

He grasped the balcony firmly in front of him and Arghi still felt how Galant's hand had not escaped from his wrist until now.

However, his stretched smile slowly descended and faded as he finally realized back that he couldn't see anything there. There were only touches of wind taking over his face, fresh air entering his lung cavity, but it was all just avoid that Arghi's eyes couldn't catch right now.

Empty. Like Arghi's future that he could not guess and it is very difficult to imagine he will find that Arghi finds happiness later.

His mind floated thinking about how fate he and Galant would be. What job can Arghi get with his condition like this? There's no way he's just staying at home with Galant's father's savings. All of that is meant for Galant's education later, not for their living expenses in the future.

"Arghi don't think too much." Galant's voice entering his sense of hearing broke Arghi's daydream.

"No." Arghi's mouth twitched as he uttered that one word of lies and Arghi blinked too much here and there. Arghi shifted his focus to the tastes that caressed his skin ignoring how hot Galant's body was to his left.

"You're lying," Galant joked, Arghi winking as Galant's hand on Arghi's wrist moved around the back of Arghi's hand. This has always been done by Galant since they were children, I don't know why.

Arghi grimaced half-smiled at his short lie with ease. Not knowing how Galant looked at him right now who was standing next to him.

"I want to ask?" asked Arghi turning his head to Galant who he hoped was heading in the right direction.

"Just ask, Arghi," he said along with the grip of Galant's snaring hand on Arghi.

"About a blind man like me, how do I work?" asked Arghi, using a joke in it. He thought of his undergraduate graduation being wasted. His dream was already destroyed like ashes flying by the wind.

"Why did you say that?" Galant's voice was cold and also piercing to make Arghi wince in the position of his head which this time looked down.

His embarrassment came quickly when Galant treated him like this by holding his shoulder tightly and shaking his. "I just asked, Galant."

"You don't have to ask that and I've already said not to worry about anything."

"I can't possibly live like this, Galant. Be a fool to others."

"Someone else? After everything that's happened to all of us in this house, you assume I'm someone else? Arghi don't you think that I am here for you, why I survived until now after my father's death and stood like this is because of you. I know you need me." Galant's voice roared in front of Arghi's face now the anger he could feel piercing directly into his chest.

"Your father took me off the road, after what happened to my condition like this you should have returned me to the road again. Galant, I don't want to be a thorn in your life."

"Arghi you want to run away from home again and end up in the hospital?" asked Galant coldly and also without any tone in it, he blew Arghi's shoulder tight and Arghi knew he had made a big mistake. "Now do what you want."

It all became a void that came suddenly he could no longer prevent him from getting his apology from Galant after Arghi heard the door slamming from inside. Arghi couldn't help but say the sentences just now to Galant while in a condition that made him mentally unstable as he is now.

In the end, he returned alone here, making Arghi slump and lean on the balcony and regret everything. In his mind thought of many ways to escape Galant's life as soon as possible, but he didn't do so instead of closing his eyes tightly.

Welcoming the darkness back with a cold feeling that further pierced his body. A single word came out of Arghi's lips when he was among his unconscious. "Sorry."