Serene

I could hardly fall asleep.

I had been tossing an turning for hours. It was for the best, not sleeping with him, wasn't it? To be honest, I wasn't too sure right now.

Although Dean had said that the kids were fast asleep, it didn't sit well with me that I hadn't seen their faces yet.

I felt so bad for them. They were so small and didn't ask for all these problems. Getting out of bed, I looked at the clock. It was three in the morning. My bare feet felt cold against the cool tiles of the floor.

It was dark, so I had a hard time orienting my way to the door. When I got to the hall, there was more light. I could hear people drunkenly going to their rooms. A lot of new couples seemingly had come out of this party.

Dean said that the kids slept next to his bedroom, but he also said that he took a bedroom next to his one, to sleep in tonight. How would I know in which room the boys were?

Biting my lip, I cracked open the door next to the one I was in, just a bit. God… What if it was the wrong door…

Relieve washed over me, when I saw my boys and my mother sleeping in the bed. I gently closed the door and headed back to room Dean had let me stay in. or would I…

It would probably be a really bad idea.

The tension between us had grown over the day, and the air that surrounded us was thick with desire. That was hardly love, but mere lust, I guess. I should not read into it too much… like I had said before… How much did I knew about him, really?!

I got back into the room and closed the door behind me. No, this did not feel right either. I wanted to be in his arms. I needed it. I needed him.

I got out of the bedroom again, into the hall and I stood before the door I thought he was in. My heart drummed in my chest.

What would he do… What would he think of me? The heck with that. I cracked open the door and his eyes immediately met mine in the dark. I had a hard time breathing.

"Can I come in…" I whispered. I saw some of Dean's white teeth appear, so I guess he was smiling. Dean held his arms open for me, gesturing me to come to him.

"I couldn't sleep," I said as I approached him. I climbed into bed, into his arms. "Me neither," purred Dean against my ear, nestling himself around me.

"Let's try to sleep together, and see if we have more luck," muttered Dean. "Close your eyes," he almost commanded me. His chest was bare and so were his legs. I wrapped myself around him, feeling his warm skin against mine.

Since he was only wearing his underwear, Dean could not hide the fact that his body wanted more than sleeping, but he did not give into it.

Dean had stroke my back and my arms up and forth, until I soundly fell asleep.

When I woke up, I felt a little disoriented before I remembered where I was. My face ached and my body hurt more than it did yesterday. Like the day before, my head rested on Dean's bare chest and my arms were intertwined with his.

It felt serene. I felt conscious when I realized that I had placed my leg between his during my sleep. I looked up at him, thinking that Dean would still be sleeping, but I was wrong.

I stared into those deep blue brilliant colored eyes.

"Morning princess," Dean cooed.

"I was just about to wake you," said Dean. "Most kids wake-up early, and I thought you would want to go see them first thing," Dean toyed with a string of my hair.

"Dean," I started to say. "Mhhh…" he responded. "Thank you," I squeaked. Dean squeezed my hand and kissed my forehead.

"I will run you a hot bath," Dean announced. "I can do that myself…" I said feeling strange that he offered to do that. Would he think I would bathe with him? Would I want to do that? Dean gave me a quick peck on the lips and stood up.

His body was well trained. Dean was incredibly hot. When he returned, Dean offered me his hand to get out of bed. I could hear the water running. He was such a gentleman. When I took his hand, it felt like there was that pulse of electricity again. We both smiled.

Dean guided me to the bathroom and brought his hands to my hips, steadying me. "You are so beautiful," said Dean against the small of my neck. My body shivered and I let my head back.

Unexpectedly, Dean took my face in his hands and kissed my forehead. I pouted my lips. I wanted more and I was pretty sure that he knew that. Cocking his head, Dean gave me a huge grin. Oh yes… he was well aware. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer. Our lips almost touched.

"I will go get dressed and retrieve your cloths out of Dani's room," noted Dean, with that grin of his still in place. I sighed heavily, and Dean shook his head and laughed at that.

"Alright, alright," I mumbled and walked into the bathroom. I needed to hurry anyway. It was really early still, so I could make it before kids would wake. I needed to talk to my mother as well.

The water was warm against my skin and it smelled like vanilla. How could he be so sweet? A guy couldn't be that perfect, there had to be something that was wrong with him! Quickly washing myself, I thought of the boys…

How in the world was I going to fix this… We couldn't just go back home, we had nowhere to go right now. All our things were still there… If Mason stopped the alimony, I would get in much financial trouble. I had never wanted my share as a spouse, but I did get child support from him.

"Princes," I suddenly heard Dean say beyond the bathroom door. "Yes," I said in a high-pitched tone, suddenly feeling nervous now that I was naked. Did I lock the door?!