Paradiso?

I stayed in the small hut for maybe about three weeks now. Leila would just come and visit me in the bed (where I stayed most of the time reading, drinking coffee, writing or doodling stuff on a notebook), every day and cook for me. One night I saw her fixing her bed outside the living room and been sleeping on the comforter trying to scrape off some bugs on her legs and all. I pitied her and decided to let her in the room and sleep beside me. Since there's only one queen-size bed, why not share it with her. I don't know what her plan is for me here but I try to live one day at a time and it's actually a wonderful experience not having to worry about work or business and have all the time for myself and my hobbies, fun and appreciate nature especially the majestic view in this paradise.

I couldn't sleep and Leila was already fast asleep when I moved close to take a look on her face carefully. She had some lines on her forehead and she's still beautiful just like I saw her the first time in school and when she slept over at our house in Milan. Haaah.... Those were the days when things aren't complicated as they are now. I wanted to kiss her but I didn't want to wake her up. When Leila's eyes flickered, about to wake up, I closed my eyes and pretended that I'm sleeping. She got up and saw that I my legs are seen out of the blanket, she immediately covered me with it and slept again. I felt loved and taken care of. I have all the money in the world but I have never felt this content, happy and excited living in this small space, with the woman I love and the place I have always wanted to be in, or live in...???. Leila remembered. She remembered when I said that I love waterfalls, nature and a hut where there's a jakuzi and bed, kitchen and tiny living room somewhere out there in the safari or a virgin forest, the exact words of my dream place that I would want to be in of course, with the one I love, her, Leila.

Leila woke up early and I didn't even felt she left my side. I woke up and caught my cellphone on its two bar battery. I can still call Lillian and tell her that I'm fine here. I dialed the phone but since there's no signal I tried to get one and went out of the hut and found one at the front porch. I heard two rings and Lillian answered. She was worried sick about me but I explained to her what happened and she understood. Peter called her and asked if Leila is with me. Lillian didn't know so she said she hadn't seen me nor Leila anywhere. And I told her not to tell Peter about us and where we are. Lillian will be sending money on my phone since I think I lost my wallet on my way here. I searched for a charger and found one on top of Leila's work desk. I was surprised to see that she's still painting and her work are posted and sold at Amazon and E-bay, as I watch how her lap top lit up and off with her paintings scattered on the desk. I am happy for her but what happened between her and Peter that she needed to talk to me here and not in New York?

Leila was driving a dirt motorbike where you can use it to ride on mountain ranges, dirt roads and steep hills or terrains. She saw me on my cell and her eyes glared at me with an angry striking look, like an enough to kill me stare which made me turn my cell off. I breathed in and out to gain strength and courage that whatever she does I'll fight back and if worse comes to worst, and I'd be dead by then so be it. That's so weird thinking that Leila could hurt me. But the way she is behaving, as if she is not in her right mind, bringing me here makes it more obvious that she is in deep shit. Who are you talking to?, Leila asked carrying fresh meats and vegetables wearing her usual boots and over-alls, hat and gloves. Lillian, she is very worried about me. And I know that you already remember her as your daughter and she is missing you deeply, too, I added which is very true. Hmm...well, I love her but many things changed and one of them is that you wanted to leave me, again. I thought you love me and you wanted to marry me?, she said unloading the stuff she bought down to the kitchen and looked at me with a questioning eye. Oh, okay, sure.

I went to her bike and took the remaining groceries and unloaded them off and took them to the kitchen. I smiled at Leila and gave her a hug. I love you, true, but when you disappeared I thought that maybe it's not our time then to be together. Maybe in time, when things aren't that complicated between us, I replied now helping her to clean the meats, maybe these will be our dinner for later. I know and maybe now is the time for that!, Leila said and now smiling at me while taking off her gloves, her overalls until she's naked in front of me and went straight to our jakuzi. Ahh... yeah...well. Leila, I think we should reconsider us where we have changed so much and I don't want to force you or even oblige myself to marry you because of a promise.

I don't know now, I still love you but I think we should take things slow and catch up from things we haven't discussed about ourselves, to get to know each other. After all these years I haven't talked with you, like a serious and heart to heart conversation. I want to get to know the new Leila and what you're true feelings about me, love and everything, I explained and Leila smiled, motioned her head to join her inside the jakuzi. With the view so beautiful as this how can I resist. Leila have been more lovely and sexy since the last time I saw her. I think she had been working-out and she has six pack abs now and muscled toned arms and legs. A real hot momma and woman who I fall in love with every day since we came here.

I took off my nighty and underpants, and joined her. It's cold in this place but bearable cold, but when I dived in the jakuzi, wow!, heaven. The hot water is so soothing to the taste and my body is just relaxing that I wanted to sleep in there. Leila slid her body down and bent her head to rest it at the edge. She became silent and I think she's sleeping. Poor woman, she had been doing a lot of stuff for me and I haven't even cooked nor cleaned or even washed the dishes to help her. I have been so naïve and cold to her all the past few weeks and I ignored all her work, sacrifice and care for me, us.

If being mature is doing this out of love and commitment then maybe Leila did grow up. I think I am the one who haven't left my childish regrets, guilt and immaturity that I was left behind or maybe I'm just experiencing a midlife crises these past few years.

Leila is still and calm. She is indeed sleeping and so beautiful I wanted to kiss her. I remained on my side and pretended I didn't notice that her face, body are all red, tanned. Her skin color is more radiant and like gold when hit by the sunset now that it is setting down from the far end of this majestic blissful forest.

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Leila is so beautiful and I can't resist it any longer, so I gave her a smack on the lips. I thought she wouldn't wake up but she did and smiled when she opened her eyes. Leila grabbed my head, hair and the bun loosely freed strands of my long hair. She held my face and then kissed my mouth gently, then passionately, to torrid where I moved on top of her and continued kissing for about 15 minutes or so.

We just kissed and felt licked, tasted each's tongue, mouth that led to touching each's body, breast and back. I took her legs to pull them closer to me. She remained under me and gave in to my desires to be on top and please her. I took the liberty of caressing her thighs up to placing my fingers on top of her private like massaging it to set her on fire. Leila moaned and couldn't take my teasing since I kept on massaging and now doing circular motions on her as we continuously kissed. Then, I broke out of her mouth and ravaged her chin, neck and breast, while my right hand is still at work on her now going inside to finish what I started.