Memory Torture

My eyes open to the bright light of my room from the curtain. I must have slept for too long likewise.

A familiar voice calls me out from the kitchen, I recollected Jessica slept here last night, what is she doing in the kitchen this early.

I get off my bed and stride to the kitchen where I see Jessica moving around and dancing to what I call dancing without a rhythm.

"You know you look absurd right " I giggle.

"Morning sleepy head I didn't expect you to sleep for this long," she says.

" Well it's because I had a beautiful night last night, I wasn't stressed or anything " I mumble.

" If Emir was to be here he." she realizes she was talking about Emir and she becomes aware of what he was about to say then ceases her sentence midway and brings a different topic

" You know I was the one that opened the curtains for you, you didn't even flinch " she laughs out loud.

l laugh back.

"Oh, shirt! speaking of last night I forgot I had a dinner date to attend" I hit my head with my hand.

"Wait with that Andrea guy? she questions

"Andrew, Jessica, Andrew!

" What the guy is just bad news, Emma," she says throwing her hands in the sky.

"And how would you know? "l ask jokingly.

"Because I just know! besides if it were to be Emir I wouldn't have said a thing! she hastily slaps her cheek.

" Why do you just have to bring out his name Jessica why? I question the anger inside me boiling to a level I've never felt before.

"Somehow you two will meet or maybe you already did but you just didn't know it yet," she says holding up her hands in defense.

"You bringing up his name all the time won't help you know, why do you have to bring him up, especially when I'm beginning to forget about him.

" Emma sentiments aren't things you can just forget in a day Emma, no one knows maybe Emir can't get you out of his mind too," she says with her eyes never leaving mine.

"Why would he, when he already has someone?" I outcry.

"Have you ever thought of why he left you, Emma maybe he was forced to or something like that "

"You know what Jessica!, stop being a bitch! and start supporting me for once you don't see how hurt I am, and honestly only Jason does ".

" Well haven't you started to speculate why Jason is always understanding all the time, he has feelings for you, Emma".

"Well, he and I are just friends get that Jessica"!.

We both sit in complete silence for a few minutes when I storm out of the kitchen and head straight to my bedroom in resentment.

After some minutes of rolling over onto my back ,I stare at the ceiling ,letting out a loud sigh.

I hear the familiar subtle of creak of my door slowly opening "Can we talk?" Jessica whispers without entering, I see a small hand holding onto the door from opening any further ,she is very smart enough to know she can't enter fully just for her safety and not mine.

She knows how crazy I can get when I'm upset , she really knows that I'm a lunatic when I get mad.

"You can come in " I say seating up waiting for her to reach my bed.

"I'm so sorry Emma please forgive me, I just don't want you to stress over Emir thinking he left you cause you thought you weren't enough, there are always two aides of the story you know, try to think about that for once ".

" And stop stressing over that idiot, if he left you because you weren't enough then he a big fool for that matter and if he left you for some serious reasons then he is a coward for a starter".

" He should have talked to you through whatever that it was and for well for Jason, it's evident that he likes you. You are wonderful Emma, and you deserve to be happy just think of what I told you and try to put that anger aside, won't you? She finishes and I feel her hand reach over to pull mine into hers, squeezing gently , letting me know that she has my back ,she always does.

I smile sweetly at her,she returns the same smile gesture as she sits up to meet mine with her gaze so loving and soft,it mends all the broken pieces of my heart.

She continues speaking "Now will you, please, please,please, please, forgive me " she pleads with puppy eyes.

Honestly, it's hazardous not to forgive her, she is right about the Emir, situation I should try to put my anger and hurt aside and try to be happy once and for all.

" I forgive you and you know I will always do so Jesse".

she hugs me tight.

"Don't mention the Jason part anymore his my best friend and your friend too so bite that and no more arguments about it". I say while still clutching her.

" I wasn't even going to argue about him "she Winks.

But knowing Jessica, really well she's not the type to remain quite for a long time so for now ,I will just have to play along and wait for the worst to come.

"So, are you excited to get your new car today?" she questions, her smile so wide and her eyes bright. This really cracks me up and I beam at her, I know how much she couldn't wait for this day, She is the type of friend I need the most, I don't know how I would have survived the heartbreak without her, I adore her so much.

She doesn't even give me the time to respond when she continues, "Get ready sweety, we somewhere to go" she says pulling me up.

"I love you, so much," I say.

" I know and I love you too, now let's get ready," she says with a wide smile revealing her white tooth her smile reaching her eyes.