How Do I Tell Her?

How do I tell Erica I answered her phone last night when she fell asleep on the couch.

She decided to have a sleepover last night since I also thought it wasn't safe for her to drive that late, and honestly, her staying over changed a lot of awkwardness between us, I thought I wanted to ask her how she knew where I was staying because after she drove me from the hospital I was surprised how she didn't ask for any directions she looked as if she knew where she was going and damn yes she knew.

We spoke a lot last night but both of us avoided dragging Emir, into the conversation.

Now how do I tell her, I answered her phone?

I need to tell her now before she finds out. I hear her talking in the kitchen. "Erica, I need to tell you something", I don't give her time to speak.

"Well, I kinda answered your phone, I thought maybe I would inform the caller that you were sleeping and it turned out the caller was Emir, and I still answered it knowing it was him, but I didn't say anything, I swear that's why I came looking for you." I stop talking to catch my breath.

" Emma, are you crazy?" she burst out into a fit of laughter.

she continues laughing and clapping her hands. "Damn" this girl can laugh wait she's even crying after snickering this hard.

"I know everything Emma, I heard my phone buzz last night I let you answer that call on purpose." she stops talking and continues to laugh.

"Wait, you knew?" I ask.

" Yes Emma, now I see why he can't get over you, you are so nutty and can't even leave with a lie" she chuckles softly to herself.

"But-?"

" You will find out sooner," she says.

"Let's go out for lunch shall we", I'll drive she smirks then giggles.

Lunch went well with Erica, we talked about almost everything except for the Emir, she seemed like she wanted to tell me a lot about him it was written all over her face. I get the fact that she's just trying not to spoil the mood and I appreciate it. Seeing her laugh and smile makes me think of Emir.

There's just no single day that flew by without me thinking of him, he was constantly on my mind, Even though I'm trying so hard to get him out of my mind. Erica sees my sudden mood change from being giggly to being in my thoughts.

"Back to earth, Emma," she says snapping her fingers to my face. I hear Erica and snap out of my thoughts and back to her.

"You are thinking of him aren't you?" she asks not taking her eyes away from mine.

I sigh and nod my head continuing to take a sip of my hot tea.

" It feels like he's so close you know?" I sigh.

"What if he is?"

I choke on my tea "Why would he choose to be near me when he's got someone else now?"

We both seat in comfortable silence until Erica breaks it.

" Let's get going," she says while standing up.

We drive back home, singing to the radio and doing some car dance moves, being around Erica feels like being with Emir it's funny how we would do so much stupid things and laugh at how stupid we are.

Hearing his voice on that call last night changed everything, it's good that I know his fine so getting him out of my mind this time will be permanent.

15 minutes later, we pull up outside my apartment building. Erica turns off the car and sits in her seat facing me with a smile.

" We are home Emma," Erica says.

This was a quick ride, I mutter to myself.

"It appears that Jason got here first than we did " she smiles.

Seeing Jason, brings butterflies to my stomach, I quickly get out of the car leaving Erica inside, running to him and hugging him, He hugs me back much tighter than I did.

"Where were you jerk, I was about to die and you weren't around?" I question.

" Just got a little late Emma, but I swear I'm always around," he says.

" Okay, besties let's get inside now or else you will give the media something to talk about." she chuckles.

"Fine, fine we are right behind you," Jason says while letting me go and obeying Erica.

I stop for a minute feeling strange, why do I feel like he's some were close, I can feel his aura, and it's vibrant.

I turn my head to look around but I see no one, I must be going crazy.

I rush to the elevator to catch up with Erica and Jason.

" Are you sure she was sick?" Jason asks Erica with his eyebrow raised.

" I guess something else made her stronger" she giggles and winks at me.

"Is there something I should know?" Jason asks looking at both.

Erica giggles and I'm not sure what she meant either.

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I wake up to a loud knock on my bedroom door.

" I'm coming" I groan, slowly dragging my body up and out of bed.

The loud, nonstop knock on my door starts again. I swear I will murder whoever it is on that door. " Emma, open the door" of course it's Jessica why would she annoy me on a Saturday morning?.

I open the door " God damn, Jessica it's a-"

She stops me from talking when she suddenly pulls me into a tight hug "Oh, Emma are you okay?" she asks with me still in her arms.

"Geez, Jessie, I can't breathe" I try to set myself free from her grip.

"Oh, shit I'm sorry she let's go of me out of embarrassment.

" Are you okay?" she cups her hands on my cheeks not letting her gaze off me.

Her eyes were red and puffy like her nose with her cheeks stained with dried tears. I feel my chest tighten as I look at her, she seems sad and broken.

"Please tell me you are okay?" she continues I shouldn't have left you alone that day, I should have just gone with you" she couldn't finish her sentence because tears start to stream out of her eyes.

I couldn't help but hug her as she cried on my shoulder.

"Shhh...it's okay, it's not your fault at all Jessica?" I tell her with my hands wiping her tears away.

"Let's forget about everything, I'm okay now" I smile at her.

We stand by the door frame hugging each other in silence.