Apparition

(Lana POV)

To summarize my plans, I divide them to be several phases:

- Phase 1 (Immediate): Morphing, apparition, basic occlumency, confoundus & obliviation (6-12 months)

- Phase 2 (Urgent): Getting adopted, making money muggle-style, establishing properties and investment (6-12 months)

- Phase 3 (Follow-Up): Pre-Hogwarts. Learning Wizarding Law, Investment in Magical world, have an account in Gringotts, Learn a bit of etiquette, Hogwarts books year 1-3. Master some practical spells and practice some potion preparation.

*I try to limit my spell training until after my 10th birthday as I do not want to strain my magic too much. I'm already pushing it with my morphing and occlumancy training.

Now that I'm close to being an 8-year-old kid, I need to manage my time well. If things go according to plan, I will graduate from primary school next year.

I will try to finish my secondary muggle school before Hogwarts (2 years) and then finish high school in my second year of Hogwarts.

Even though it is easier to finish them all before Hogwarts, I still need to be low-key in the muggle world. I don't want my name be on the newspaper for graduating very early.

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My morphing mastery is coming along nicely. Now that I am older, my body adapts better to the change. I could sustain my change for at least 2 hours without the hard physical labor like running or hiking. Though, my maximal changed height is still 165 cm.

I try not to work too hard on my body, but I am too excited to try everything. In the end, I just limit my morphing practice to an hour after light morning exercise and 1 hour before sleep. I started to do light jogging, push-up, and sit-up for stamina every morning.

Between school recess, classes, and a half-hour before sleep, I try to meditate to clear my mind. I want to train for occlumency. Even though the book does not specify how occlumency works in detail, I believe that magic helps creating mind awareness if directed well. So that's what I'm doing.

Meditation is good for clearing the mind. In the long-term, it helps to reduce stress, increase focus and attention, regulate moods, and in this case, direct 'magic' to the brain. At first, I did not feel any 'magic' going to my brain, but after 3 or 4 months of constant practicing, I could feel an increased serene or mindfulness in my mind.

See that I differentiate between brain and mind? The brain is an object, while the other is both object and subject.

After about 6 months of self-practicing morphing and occlumency, I could morph for at least 4 hours of ordinary physical activity. My mind is sharper than ever. Although, without a proper occlumency guide, I wouldn't know if my mind awareness is any good. So, I just continue for now.

For my apparition, I'm waiting for my summer holiday to start in 2 months so that I could prepare accordingly when something happens. Not that I want anything to happen. Just for precaution.

I am honestly quite nervous about it since it is invasive.

Splinching is a magical ailment, after all. So, if anything happens, then yeah *sigh*. In the meantime, I continue my muggle studies, meditate, and morph practice. All good for now.

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The summer holiday came, and I am preparing for the apparition practice. I wanted to start in the second week of the holiday, for no reason, really. Just to delay the inevitable.

For the apparition practice, I make it in serial phases too:

- Phase 1a (as in 1/apparition) is moving to <5 meters distance.

- Phase 2a is >15 - <20 meters distance.

- Phase 3a is <50 meters distance.

- Phase 4a is <100 meters distance.

- Phase 5a is <1 km distance.

- Phase 6a is <10 km distance

- Phase 7a is <50 km distance

I plan to give a week to master each phase. I don't want to take any chances.

Since the distance between Watford and Charing Cross is about 30-40 km, a 50 km apparition practice is appropriate for now. Later in Hogwarts, I would increase my game and get my legal apparition license for real.

I am honestly apprehensive about this apparition practice. I don't know if my magical core is good enough to do it. I want to believe that since my mental age is in the 20s, my physical core and by an extension (maybe) my magical one is higher than my peers.

*sigh*

One can only hope.

There's nothing I can do for now.

If I die, then I die.

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F***! I don't want to die!!!

Dang, it! Shit, why is my life so complicated.

Am I an overachiever or what? Trying apparition by myself!!!

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*sigh*

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Just move forward, man! Just do it!

If Potter can do it in his desperate time, then I will be desperate too!

I NEED to MOVE 1 meter so that I won't die! Fuck!!!

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*POP*

*POP*

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(vomit)

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