37: Questions?

SATURDAY,

Fate's POV,

After a feverish morning. helping Miss Lee, I get a few things. My handbag, cell phone and the most important thing that Miss Lee didn't let me forget. Money. As I stroll down to the hall "Did you take Money?" Miss Lee asked

"Of course" I answer moving towards the kitchen island.

She looks at me lifting an eyebrow "and?"

"Yes, I did take my bag" even though that should be enough but she didn't give me her smudging look so I continue " I did eat "

She smiles " I know. But yeah don't forget to get an umbrella."

I peek at the door finding any glimpse of the rain despite the sky being surely cloudy but I don't think it will rain. Yet as Miss Lee orders take an umbrella then take it "okay"

I lent a quick look upstairs. Weird. today's morning is peaceful .like a lot more peaceful than usual. maybe cause everyone is still sleeping. They are tired. When I got into my room I did find Miss Kim still snoozing.

" Miss Lee?"

She finishes placing the food on the table and gazes at me "yes"

"Where is everyone ?"

Folding her hands together she smirks " oh don't worry I told Joey to wake Jerry"

Not again

"JOEY!!!" Jerry's shrilling voice echoed from upstairs.

Joey maybe throw water

I glance at Miss Lee who was chuckling now "See that will wake up everyone "

Yeah more like give them a heart attack.

Nevertheless wish I could enjoy their faces but I have to go "Miss Lee I'm gonna go now so enjoy" Walking towards the door Miss Lee escort me

"You sure you don't want me to drive you?" She implores. I think this probably be the sixth time we are talking about this. She is a little worried.

I can't help but smile. How caring she can be for us. Aren't I the blessed one " Miss Lee you were okay last night about me going alone"

"I was b-" she shrugged her shoulders and handed me an umbrella "what if you get lost?"

Lost?

"Miss Lee, why would I get lost in my hometown? Everyone knows me. They know us. " I gave a her hug "I will be fine"

She stroked my head "I know and if anything happens just gave me a call and I will be there. Don't be late " the prior words were strict

"Okay! Mamaboss!"

My wholehearted flatter elicits Miss Lee to grin "Here" she takes out something from her trouser pockets

She palmed me some cash "But Miss Lee I h-'

" Fate." Squeezing my cheeks she persists " just Cause we are not going together that doesn't mean you will walk. Be Careful Dear"

Her soft voice driblet with tenderness. I think I tear up now "t-... thank y..you". I shuttered

" Family don't thank each other Fate. Now go. And Come Home soon"

'Home'...

My home

Smiling ear to ear I got out of the entrance and waved my hands. Miss Lee who was still at the door waved back.

I used to have a vision sometimes. Doctors said it's happened when you're highly medicated. So I don't think it was true, maybe it was only my dream with hallucinations

However, it wasn't bad. I don't remember what day it was but I know it was cloudy and cold. Just like now.

I don't recollect what the fabric felt that covered my tiny form but I know it was thin. Cause I did feel the harsh wind striking my body. Shivering in cold I was waiting, crouching somewhere, murmuring something.

And then I sense it. A hand over my head fondling my hair gently. Thereupon I glance up to meet his honey orbs

Jackson Adierson my dearest nightmare creator my father was staring at me but there was a difference not like other days his eyes were soft. He was smiling "You can't play in the snow wearing this My Angel,"

I mumble something, something that nearly reaches my ears. I thought perhaps this is it yet it wasn't there was more. I felt something carefully wrapping around me. The coldness disappeared as the cuddly wool material covered my Little form. Warm.

His hands slowly lift me from the ground. I rest my head on his shoulder"Carefully Angel don't get hurt ". He was taking me somewhere .slowly as his steps become clear my white replenished surroundings become darker.

"Fate!!" A screeching tone makes me look at its source. Mrs Sofia. Right, I am in her shop. She is a florist. just like every time I came here to buy some white lilies.

"Yes, Mrs Sofia?"

"Your okay?" She asked holding the bouquet for me.

I get the bouquet and smiled "Yeah of course."

She wanted to say something again but her husband Sir Eddie impede "Honey I'm back" his voice chimed. Mrs Sofia chuckled at him.

Who would believe even though they are married for 50 years now and still have the same blossoming love? Maybe it's the enchantment of affection and care.

"Fate you also here," Sir Eddie said. Mr Eddie Murphy or Sir Eddie used to work for the military but after his retirement, he choose to spend his time with his wife.

"Yes sir!" I motion to salute him. It's our way to greet each other

He laughed lightly shaking his head " you will never change "

That's good. I never want to.

"Honey, you wanted to tell me something?" Mrs Sofia asked her husband

Standing in front of his wife Sir Eddie takes out a small coupon from his shirt pocket "see I told you we will get a seat. We can for a date now"

Sweet.

"Did you give extra money?"

"No, I didn't I swear ". I doubt that. Sir Eddie is someone who will do anything to please his partner and his money. He bearly care about that.

can I wish someone like this?

'nope, you can't!'

Although Mrs Sofia knows the same thing she didn't say anything " okay we will go"

"Ahmm" I clear my throat aware of my presence " you two surely make me jealous " I joke

"Aww, Fate don't worry you will find a perfect man too. There is always someone made for us " Mrs Sofia said

Man! Hah!

Only if they know

"Surely" eyeing the tulips "can you give me those too" I inquire

"Okay"

"Tulips..." Sir Eddie mumbled, " Do you know what Tulip symbolises Fate ?"

"Not really." I don't know about them honestly. My Father used to love them. Every day he used to give it to Mom. Yeah before he starts his biting.

"It means unfathomable love "

Say what?

" unfathomable Love?"

"Yes. you must love this person very much-'

" my Dad used to love them"

"Then he must have loved you "

Did he?

" he didn't" murmuring I answer myself

"What?"

Shoot! I said it loud

"I mean he did. maybe" I answer looking at him

He smiled "of course he did. every father loves their daughters. Sometimes they just don't show it but that doesn't mean they don't".

Those kids are blessed to have a father like that

" Yeah"

Good thing he didn't say anything else. Later on, after getting my bouquets. Saying bye to them I make my way to the cemetery. The weather is still cloudy no glimpse of the sun. I trudge on the sidewalk, a cold breeze gently swaying rusting the leaves of the trees on the pathway.

What Sir Eddie said today I don't know what he means by that. I was the only child of my parents. And when it comes to Love's affection it makes me wonder was only my mother who love me. Because what Sir Eddie said if that's true then where is my father's love? Why do I never see it? Did I only feel it in my hallucinations? As I was a child I swear all the things that happen with holy. I can't help but wonder did he ever...those visions are coming back again. What do they even mean? Would I ever get my answers?

As I cross the street I saw a man holding his daughter's hand. The little girl looks so happy. It's fair to say that I wanted to know what my life could've been if my father and I had a healthy relationship. Just like them. And my Mom she would've been with me too. afterall all in my hallucinations, he was there, smiling, begging.was that all a lie?

Crouching down, Placing the bouquets I stare at the headstones of 'Faith Stone Adierson', my mom and then right beside ' Jackson Adierson ', my father

"Hey, mom. f-...Dad." I sighed slowly tracing my fingers over my mother's headstone taking the engraving on it

'Even In The Darkness, You'll Find a Light '

I read the words again. My mom used to say it a lot. It was her motto. Because when I was a kid I was very scared of the dark.

I peek at the other one

< Jackson Adierson >

'In Death, You Find Forever '

In death, you find forever. For people who want everything for themselves forever and ever guess this one is for them. Despite the truth is nothing at least Forever, everything has an End. And if you are lucky maybe you'll get a happy ending

"I knew you would be here "

My thoughts were hindered by a discerning melodic voice. A voice that I can always recognise no matter how far I heard it. I stood up and turn around. I was right the same raven orbs that greeted me every morning. One hand holding a bouquet of Lilies. my question is what this person is doing here?

"Miss Cane?"

My confession only brings her a smile. The same smile that always makes her gorgeous "I think we need to have a chat, Fate"

Sure we do