Chapter 38

  "I can't help but blame myself. I was out partying when my baby was feeling unwell. What sort of a mother does that?" I asked Nina.

  "Don't be too hard on yourself. Nadia and I are taking good care of her. And you are still young. You don't need to let her deprive you of the joy of being a teenager..........."

  "And a mother. I am a mother, Nina. She needs me."

  She touched my shoulders again and her hand felt warm against my silky dress. She was glowing these days and I guess I was meant to help her devise a way to be happy, whereas I was angry, devastated, and frustrated at just 20.

  "You don't get my point. You are Ellah's mother and nobody is disputing that fact but she is our baby too, Nadia and I. She is Nadia's goddaughter and she is my granddaughter. Stop blaming yourself too much. I believe this was destined to happen'', she finished and rested her back on the seat.