KENNEDY
I thought I let my hopes up.?
What was I thinking inviting Thayer over into my room? But what about that, we’ll continue this later speech??Oh, god!?I buried my face into the pillow in frustration, hoping my embarrassment would decimate.?
I’d known to be straightforward, but with Thayer around, I tended to make terrible mistakes. He had just consumed me—my thought, my energy—my world in general, and the fact that I enjoyed it a lot, it should terrify me, but it was quite the opposite. I found it more liberating.
In truth, if it wasn’t for the three big bad wolves, I couldn’t have faced my ex and that woman alone, but those guys boosted my confidence and backed me up, and it felt good.?
At my work, I shared my perspective. With my sexual partner, I voiced out my needs, but with Thayer, though, it was another story—I was a patient person. It was not that he was my sexual partner, but I never initiated anything.