Chapter 109

  I'm sorry Landon. I'm so sorry. You're too good for me but I wasn't even faithful to you. It was one sinful night that I wish didn't happen to me and Hugo.

  Regrets are filling me up.

  The next day.

  "Ben, hold still or the shampoo will get into your eyes." I tell him.

  Ben moves his head up to me while he blinks at me.

  I smile at him, "Ben, are you still mad at mommy?"

  He just stare at me.

  "I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth. Mommy was just scared to lose you." I could feel my tears building up behind my eyelids but I try to control it from falling.

  "I was so scared that they might take you away from me. I was so scared that you might want to be with them than me." My voice shakes.

  "M-mommy..." Ben talks.