Chapter 172

  Freedom and pain

  I’ve been craving the former all my life

  ‘Cause I think it’s worth the sacrifice

  You’re freer than most

  You think it’s a curse

  You think you’re killing me

  Your venom is my medicine

  I stood from my desk with the piece of sheet on my hand and walked to my white grand piano that was next to my desk. I opened it and sat down for a while trying to stop myself from crying before I can start. I try to find some intro for the song. It took me thirty minutes to find the perfect intro and the tune that would fit the lyrics.

  I try to play what I practiced as I try to stop myself from crying while I play it. I sang along with the lyrics I came up with but I ended up crying midway through the second stanza. I stopped and just cried silently again. I wiped my tears, grabbed the sheet with me and walked back to the my desk. I sat back down and poured myself another glass of whisky.