Chapter 216

  I cupped his cheeks and God I wish he would understand how difficult this is for me, for Hugo and for Landon most of all. "He's just busy. Alright? Now why don't we go to bed? It's way past your bedtime honey."

  Ben giggles. "Alright. Goodnight mom. Goodnight daddy Landon." He hugs each of us and he begins to close his eyes.

  Landon was still staring at me. "Goodnight love."

  "Goodnight." I leaned closer and kissed his lips very briefly.

  Around two in the morning, I still couldn't sleep. I have been lying awake on top of this bed while Ben and Landon has been deeply fast asleep next to me. I've been staring at the ceiling for two hours now and I am bothered about the things that Ben has said. He had said quite a few words about Hugo and I don’t want him to think that his own father does not have time for him. I've been counting sheep backwards too. I've been closing my eyes but I'm still wide awake.