I Never Pitied You

Author's POV

Siddharth hugged back the dove lying on his lap hiding her face in his chest. Siddharth doesn't know what to feel. She was molested, and also verbally abused. That piece of shit called her useless. Or he should feel the guilt which was breaking him day by day. Siddharth closed his eyes, it was becoming difficult for him to breathe. Those nightmares played in front of him but before he could break down he heard her whimpering. She was chanting a mantra 'I am useless. I am useless. I am useless.'

Looking at her condition one thing was sure someone is going to face hell.

Siddharth hold her up away from his chest.

'Look at me Baby Dove.' It was more like an order. Advika moved her beautiful eyelashes upward and looked at him. And for the first time Advika saw something in his eyes, which she never saw before. She always felt a slight amount of pity in his every care. But today she could see a love which is strong enough to bound her with him.

'I don't pity you Baby Dove. I never did.' His hold on her tightened.

'Sid I ... I.. ' She stammered.

'I love you Baby Dove. There is no pity in between me and you. You . Are. Not. Useless. ' He pulled her on his chest. Her soft frame collided with his hard chest.

'I .. you.. pity .. . I didn't ... mean' She wanted to tell him that she didn't take his love, his care as pity or sympathy. But her disheveled condition didn't let her. She looked like a baby who was trying to speak.

'No Baby Dove , let's end it here today only. Tell me Baby Dove if I were in a wheelchair instead of you will you pity me?! ' He asked her putting a finger under her chin.

'No , I love you Siddharth. I would always love you. ' She replied him like a kid.

'Then why would I Baby Dove?! Why would I pity you? You are my wife Baby Dove, you are bound to me for eternity. I never pitied you. I loved you , only you. '

'You loved me ?! ' She asked in confusion. Siddharth's brain clicked he changed his words 'Yes after I realise my mistake , I only loved you. Will always do Baby Dove.'

She nodded her head and then said 'Sid I will be always like that. Won't be able to walk on my own. Always a burde.'

'DOVE' He warned her.

'S.sorry' She mumbled softly. She wasn't allow to call herself BURDEN.

'You better be Baby Dove. Let me clear you one thing and keep that in your mind and heart Baby Dove if it take me to sit on a wheelchair just like you to make you realise that we are same then I am ready to do that for you, for us.'

Advika gasped hearing him.

'Sid what are saying?! '

'Only truth. I maybe selfish but for you I can do anything. '

' You are not selfish Sid. You are blessings, your love is blessings for me.' She cupped her cheek with her one soft hand. Siddharth hold her with one hand and kissed her hand.

'Baby Dove you just can't walk. There is nothing to feel bad about it. We all have some difficulties in our life. Acept yourself just like I accept you. Love yourself Baby Dove. ' His words were true. We all have some obstacles in our life but no matter what we need to love ourselves.

She put her head on his chest hearing his heartbeat. She was little relax after their confessions.

'So you Love me Baby Dove?!' Siddharth asked caressing her hair.

She nodded her head and blushed but didn't look at him.

'Words Baby Dove.' He demanded.

'Yes I love you. ' She shyly said.

'I love you more Baby Dove.' He kissed her forehead ' You are real blessings of my darkness.' Advika smiled at him not knowing the inner meaning. How much Siddharth wished to tell her that how from last 9 years he is only searching for her. How much she is connected to him, in his nightmares as well dreams.

But instead he said 'Now Baby Dove let me take care of your wounds.'

She only hmmed. He placed her on bed and brought things for dressing her wounds. Her dress was already changed by a maid while she was sleeping due to medicines.

He softly pulled up her comfy long night dress up to her knees. She pouted like a kid . Her lips curved in a painful manner as her knees pained.

'Sorry Baby Dove. It will be fine soon. Sorry , just bear it for me.' He kept apologising as he wrapped the bandage over her wound. He softly pressed his lips over the bandage making her all go in aww.

Then he stood up and moved towards her shoulder. He softly moved the straps of her dress. Her cheeks turned red .

'Don't be shy Baby Dove. It's just me.' He said softly kissing near her shoulder's wound.

'You always say this.' She smiled shyly hiding her face in his torso. He cleaned her wound and bandaged it. She felt more pain than her knees. Siddharth was more careful with her than before. He knew how sensitive she was to pain. Moreover no matter what , not being able to walk by herself always made her more sensitive. Siddharth bandaged her shoulder. He didn't pull up her strap as it may give pressure to her.

He brought a comb and started braiding her hair.

'Sid mai karu choti please.' She tried to move her hand but the pain stopped her 'Ahann!!'

Hearing her wincing in pain, he said 'Stop moving Baby Dove, I can do. I saw you doing this braid every night. Let me do na.'

She pouted and let him do her braid and unexpectedly it was perfect, just like she used to do.

That night Advika fell asleep fast due to medicines. Her heart was at rest as she confessed her love finally. But Siddharth's heart was beating fast for two reasons. One finally his wife, his lady love confessed her love for him. And secondly he knew how selfish he is, even the day when she will come across the truth he won't be able to let her go.

And he is sure of it. He will amend his destiny after all he got a chance after 9 years and he can't lose HER. This beast will cage his beauty , because there will be no Siddharth Singh Khurana without Advika Siddharth Singh Khurana.

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