Chapter 19

she close the door and sat on the toilet seat. Her mind was exploding, her chest was burning but in a good way and her heart raced like crazy. She was overwhelmed with the different emotions she was feeling.

Feeling so happy and surprise at the same time, angry that he only kissed her because she said that word. confused, maybe he liked her or was it truly because she said fuck. " why am I feeling this way " she whispered, trapping her face in her hands out of embarrassment. her face was burning red

Aiden felt as she got up and ran, he opened his eyes following her until she was out of sight. he touched his lips with his fingers as the event played in his head again and a smile made its way to his lips. the feeling of her soft, full lips was enough to make him desire more. he wanted to kiss her again and again.

" This is crazy," She said to herself. looking around, how will she go back there, what will she say to him. should she ask him why he kissed her. it was because she said fuck. " why will he play with me like this " she frowned. what Aiden just did, played with her emotions. " I can't go back to him. but I can't stay here for 7 hours"

Riley sat quietly in the Restroom for about 30 minutes. " Hey are you alright " she suddenly had a knock on the door and a female flight attendant voice " Hey "

" yeah. 'm fine, just need a few minutes," Riley said

" you've been in there for too long, please come out " The flight attendant informed

" oh, I am sorry. just a few seconds please" Riley stood up and took a deep breath " I can do this " encouraging herself. she opens the door and came out

" Are you alright," the pretty lady in front of her asked

"I'm fine " Riley smiled warmly at the lady before walking away. She made her way back to her seat only to find Aiden sound asleep. ' I can't believe he is so calm ' she thought to herself with a frown. how could he be so calm after kissing her when she was going through an emotional crisis. didn't he feel anything? Riley got upset. she sat on her seat next to him with her arms crossed

Riley tried to get her mind off things but couldn't. there was a lot on her mind. first, all that was happening with her, now Aiden just did this.

An hour went by, she finally fell asleep. when Aiden noticed she was sleeping he opened his eyes. watching his beautiful angel sleep is one of his favourite parts of his mission. he always enjoyed watching her sleep.

They arrived in London by 2 am. walking out of the airport Aiden held Riley's hand. feeling his warm hand against hers, the event in the plane kept playing in her head and she couldn't take it again.

She pulled her hand out of his " you don't have to hold me am not a kid "

" you never had a problem with it before," he said with an eyebrow raised

" well I do now " was all she said then she began walking away leaving Aiden confused at her sudden behaviour

" what has gotten into her, "asked himself in a low tone. he followed behind her.

they to a cab to a hotel where they spent the night. Aiden noticed Riley was acting strange like she was trying to avoid staying close to him which he didn't like. Riley took a shower and wore a robe to bed because she didn't have anything to change into. lying on her bed while Aiden took a shower. she listens as the water poured, imagining how the water will hit his skin and how all his muscles will relax as the water flows " shit " she whispered. realizing that her imagination was going wide.

not long Aiden came out with a towel around his waist and his upper body on the display. her eyes fell wide open in amazement. immediately she used the bed sheet to cover her head. her face was burning red and she felt movement in her stomach " jeez Aiden where are your clothes " she yelled from inside the sheet

" where are yours " he replied with another question

" Seriously?" she frowned " I have nothing to change into and besides I am well covered"

" for me, you are not," he said " I have a wide imagination you see and it is really difficult for me because I know very well you are not wearing underwear or a bra "

" you pervert " she yelled while opening the sheet but instantly closed it back when she was that he was still exposed

" I am not a pervert " with that, he walked out of the room

the thought of Aiden picturing her naked didn't make her angry but made her heart race. she blushed hard. then she remembered that he didn't have feelings for her resulting in pain in her heart " fuck I hate this " she cursed.

Riley had to force herself to sleep because she slept throughout the flight

" Honey did you have fun, " Riley's mom asked. it was very late and raining heavily. Riley's Dad was driving, her mom was sitting in the front seat while she sat in the back. she was 14 years old back then and they were from a friend's house. Riley wasn't happy that day because the children in the house refused to do anything with her so she sat in the seating room alone all day.

" it was ok " she replied with a small smile but her parents knew too well it was a fake

" ok as in ok or ok as in bad "

" it was ok " she replied again

" honey if you...."

" mom it was ok " she yell, cutting her mom off.

" don't raise your voice at your mother " Her father scolds " we just want to make sure you are all right "

" am fine ok. am fine why can't you guy for ones believe me when I say am fine " she had frustration in her tone

" ok, ok, " her mom said trying to calm her down " if you say so "

" thank you " Riley leaned back with her eyes closed " if only Valentine was here " she whispered

" honey you no you have to make other friends other than Valentine right " He Dad's advice

" What is wrong with just Valentine," she asked with a frown

" you need to socialize with people" Her mother supported

" well when everyone thinks I am a frick what do you want me to do, kill myself" she was getting angry at this point

" honey you are growing up. you will have to meet people" Her mom explained

" oh meet people. wow, like I don't want to. I spent my entire day today alone, on a couch because not a single one of those kids wanted to talk to me. scared that I will blow their head or something. I try every day to talk to people but everyone just runs away like I am a monster. do you know how hard it is for me to survive a day without breaking down or losing control" she quarrelled

" We know," her mom said trying to calm her down.

" no, you don't ok. you don't. Because you two are normal. you have no idea how it is to be a monster like me "

" honey you have to calm down" at that point her mom panicked that she may lose control of herself.

" don't you fucking tell me to calm down. I am sick and fuckng tired of this miserable life" she screamed. and that was it. the car exploded

" no, no"

" Riley?" that familiar voice called

" no, no, no, nooooo"

" Riley!!!!!" Aiden yelled pulling her out of her nightmare. Riley jumped in horror and Aiden held her hand. " Riley it's ok. It's a dream" Riley stared at Aiden in horror, it took her a while to finally relax

" hh" she sighs in relief

" it's ok " Aiden whispered " it's a dream " his voice was calming. Riley suddenly burst into tears

" I...i.I saw...I saw them...my mom and dad " the words managed to come out in the middle of her cry