Chapter 8: Why?

Mel's PoV

I was a little sad when I saw my older brother's reaction earlier when he tasted what I cooked. I know I'm too bad at cooking but that's really all I can do. I'm not good at cooking. But that's it, I'm just really sad.

"Are you okay? Did you put it on when I gave it to you?" I asked in the middle of eating.

"Ah yes. I feel a little better with what you gave me," he replied and continued eating.

"Don't get too full or you'll just throw it up," I said and snorted.

"Yes madam," he replied as he swallowed what he was eating.

"Hey.. you can talk there. You might choke on that," I joked to Liz.

"Ah huh? I'm sorry I was just thinking," she replied.

"What is that?" and now I'm curious.

"N-nothing hehehe," she just answered and continued eating. I just ignored it because I might be called gossiper. I just ate and soon after we finished eating. Liz and I still handed over the food we ate and we parted ways with my older brother and Liz. I went straight to the classroom so I wouldn't get caught later. I took my notebook in Filipino as well as my pen.

"Heyy.. can you introduce me to your older brother handsome?" she ask, which was the earsplitting in our class.

"Tar? My brother? Gosh.. don't do that. He's so ugly and he doesn't have any taste in you!" I discourage her so she wouldn't add another word.

"Eh, just an introduction, you're really mean. You also want your older brother, aren't you?" she asked and I knew it wouldn't end until our teacher came.

"It's because he's my older brother," I replied and she was surprised.

"I mean, is that why you want him to stay," she said and I got what she wanted to convey.

"Crazy! That's my older brother, okay? And what you're thinking right now is impossible," I said.

"Eh.. still it's possible," I laughed at her answer.

"What the.. it's impossible! HAHAHA the conversation has already turned at me when you just wanted to introduce yourself to him, right?" I reminded her what we're talking about earlier when she approached me.

"You don't even want to introduce your older brother to me. So we'll just talk about yourself," she said and I laughed even more because she seemed really interested in my older brother.

"Tomorrow. Go to the canteen, I'll introduce him to you up close," I said and his face lit up.

"Really?" he asked eagerly.

"Yes," I said.

"All right, you say that, okay?" then she returned to her seat.

"Hays thank you and my life is peaceful again," I said softly when she was able to leave.

You know you just want a quiet life but you have a noisy classmate, I also can't directly silence her because she might accuse me and assume of it that I'm challenging her to a fight. Well, maybe that's okay since I don't want my life too sad. I'm already sad, will I still make the surroundings sad? What is this, a virus that spreads? (This author was too sad because he's stating his real feelings here! Stop this author.)

A few moments later, our Filipino teacher arrived, said nothing and wrote directly on the board. Maybe she was broken. I took my notebook and pen and just wrote so that I wouldn't be reprimanded, I was still ahead. While writing I was worried about what I was writing, today's topic is not very important but I was just worried about my past. I don't want to go back but it always comes to my mind.

NAKARAAN

I was walking now carrying the burger and juice I bought in the canteen, when I passed the small alley it was as if I could hear someone kissing. I was very curious so I looked at who it was and suddenly my tears go down. I don't know but I suddenly ran out of the school, I was carrying my bag so I don't have to worry anymore. I just make the jeep stop and when I got on I kept my tears from dripping. My chest is being kept tight, I just wiped the tears that dripped from my eyes and then asked someone to relay my toll. I went down immediately even though I had change and entered my house. I immediately went into my room and cried there. It was a few hours maybe before I stopped dramatizing and I realized if he's deserving to be cried on.

I'm in the living room now and I'm hesitant to change my sim card, a while ago I saw my boyfriend with a beautiful woman. Until now my tears are still dripping even though I don't want to cry. I can't think of a reason for him to hurt me like this?

I called my friend Shane first before I swapped sim cards.

"Moshi moshi you're ugly," she greeted first.

"Where are you?" I asked tearfully.

"I'm currently in the classroom, are you taking drugs or what" she asked in astonishment.

"W-wait are you crying? Did something happen?" she added.

"Can you go here in my house?" I asked and she didn't answered and turned off the call. I took the micro sim from the cell phone and threw it in the trash. My tears kept flowing, the image kept coming back to my brain. How he kissed that woman hardly. I am not like others who are blind to what they see. Earlier, what I really thought of doing was to leave without saying anything. My older brother and I will be leaving next week, so maybe it's okay for me not to attend in class. My boyfriend doesn't know.. I mean my ex-boyfriend doesn't know about where's my house now since I hid it from my older brother so, my older brother himself doesn't even know what's going on. I first fetched water from the kitchen and drank it so that I would calm down a little. I lay down on the couch first and think of things that shouldn’t be thought of! I stood up again as if I'm losing my mind then I gently stroked my head to relieve the pain. I felt a little better so I went to bed again and tried to calm my breathing.