Chapter 5: Feelings!

Eros lay on her bed thinking what that was? And what these feelings are? Whenever she listens to Eugene and whenever Orion pop up in front of her, her breath hitches and the world around her disappears. Every time she feel something new, something different that only hidden words of poems could define. Every time she forgets about whom she is and a desire of being a brand new human arose inside her, a new person for him, but is all this emotional turmoil because of Eugene or Orion? She is unable to distinguish. That Mr. Stranger is Orion but why he always sound almost like Eugene to her? Can there be two persons with same persona? Well there can be I guess but is it only about persona?

Diary Entry: Random thoughts

Who are you? Can I see you?

The comprehensible you, cuz I'm in little chaos

Can I feel you? Can I know you?

The uncomplicated you, cuz I see you as immense cosmos

Can I approach you? Can I detain you?

The glassy you, cuz I feel secured into you like a saddle bars.

Can I?

Dated: 3-3-2021

"Welcome party? I'm not interested" Eros replied to her new friend or just a class fellow she get to know today.

"But it will be a fun" Sarah replied with enthusiastic voice. Eros was least interested to have any kind of interaction in class but Sarah approached her and she was so full of positive energy that Eros didn't ignore her and ended up having minor conversation with her.

"But our very handsome senior has invited us in a very unique way. How can we say no?"

"And who is this handsome senior?" Eros widens her eyes bringing her all attention on Sarah. She was expecting she already know who this 'Handsome Senior' is. She just wanted to confirm if it's him famous among girls or not.

"Orion. Haven't you seen our Welcome Group Chat?"

Her gut feeling was saying 'it is him; but still she chose to hear what Sarah has to say.

Eros bit her lower lip trying to figure out what these feelings are? She was feeling jealousy? And that's just after their second encounter! Why would she be jealous if its him famous among juniors or could be among seniors as well? She didn't even know him. Well... Who cares? It's okay, Yeah it's okay. 'I'm weird' Eros shook her head getting back to her books. But the very next moment she was on her mobile reading the messages of their Group Chat "Welcome".

"He is just a flirt." Eros turned her mobile off again after going through chat, bringing her focus back on books.

"Are you sure you will wear this?" Mia looked at Eros in skepticism.

And there was Eros getting ready for her welcome party. How her mind changed she hardly figured out but all she knew was curiosity she had to go because it was 'him' hosting a party. But why for him, she was still unable to decipher.

"Yeah what's wrong with this" Eros looked at her in mirror with complete confidence. She always has believed whatever she wore she looks pretty.

"Isn't it bit too much for a high-schooler I wore this on my Friend's wedding so-"

"It's alright anything is acceptable these days and also it's my Welcome Party and I want to look pretty that's it."

Mia wasn't satisfied but she let Eros do whatever she wanted to because she knew if Eros has made up her mind nothing could be changed then.

Eros entered a dimly lit room with a loud music where hardly voices other than music could be heard. She shivered as she checked out the hall with the students; young and wild and she was hardly of their match. She never went to such parties neither she was fond of clubbing or anything like social gathering. She remembers once she accompanied Ana on party but end up leaving her in the middle of party. She cursed herself for coming, and was in the middle of chaos of either to leave or stay, when she heard a voice that she least wanted to hear at that moment.

"Oh! You came"

Eros blinked her eyes. He looked handsome in three-piece suit with a flower tucked in his pocket. 'Flower over flower', her lips curved a bit at her thought of 'flower' to which Orion raised his brow suspiciously as he found her staring him.

"Done staring" He moved a bit closer to her with a victorious smug on his face as if he had found out what she would be thinking.

"Huh?" Her mouth hung open and she came back to senses realizing what she was doing.

"You looked pretty too"

That's it. Eros found her cheeks heating up . She knew she was blushing and was not looking less than a tomato. Eros looked everywhere but not at him.

"Thank You I guess" her voice hardly came out of her.

"Let's come in" with his signature 'rectangular smile' on his lips he pulled her to the dancing floor. Maintaining the decency he bowed to her asking for the permission before taking her in embrace and dancing slowly to the music. It was non-identical for Eros; the feelings, the contentment or the bliss. This moment was different from any she had till now. She wanted to capture the moment to cherish forever. She wanted to memorize the steps she was taking with him so she could write poems later on. He had an aura that Eros can't escape of. There was something about him that was making it unable for her to pull herself out of his embrace. She was rolling down in the deep valley of daffodils with him without knowing where this valley will lead to her.

"Eros"

Suddenly she heard a voice, pulling her back to earth and she realized what she was doing. Dreaming? What was she dreaming of? And above all, she was dreaming, nothing was real. The smile, The touch, The moment. They felt so real. She felt a pang on her chest. Oh what is going on with me ?

"You came? I thought you aren't coming." Sarah approached her with her wide smile and the positive energy she was famous with.

"I changed my plan at last moment" Eros replied to her with a smile.

"I'm glad you came. Now, You are under my custody for tonight"

Sarah pulled her towards the bar insisting her to join her friends but then there is Eros; least interested in people. They were chatting, having drinks but Eros just sat there unbothered, passing a smile whenever someone looked at her. She was scanning the room. well it's a lie. It was more like she was trying to find out that particular person in which she finally succeeded when her sight stopped at the corner and there was him; pursing her mouth in a self-satisfied smirk and an odd glow on his handsome face.