Chapter 2

The next morning my alarm went off and it was ready to get ready for my first day of school again. Even though it was my first day to a school I knew everyone in it was still nerve wracking. The last time I had seen these people were at my birthday party that I had run away from. How ironic. As I got ready I thought about how my friends would think of me when I walked into the front doors of the school. Would they be happy to see me, would they take one look at me and decide that I was never going to be there friend ever again, since I left them here. As those thoughts swarmed my head I thought back to how excited they were to hear I was coming back for good. I was so nervous to see them again but I knew that today was going to be a good day and there was nothing no one could do to ruin it.

I got into Stephanie's car and we talked about her wedding the whole five minutes it took to drive to my school. When we got to there I headed to the main office waving at people and gaining lots of welcomed hugs as well as high fives. At the office I got my schedule and catched up with the receptionist and other teachers that ran into me. I got to my first class on time since I knew where every room was, which was L.A. with Ms. Cardinal. She said hi to me and took my seat in the back row where all of my friends were sitting. This was just after Christmas so I did not have a lot of catching up to do. I just did the classes I had yet do to in the last term at Florida. They welcomed me with open arms and we talked about what had happened over Christmas break like I had not even been gone two whole years. Soon all my worries went away.

Class was about to start when the door slammed open causing everyone to stop what they were doing. I looked up from talking to my friends only to be greeted with Paul and Asa's eye's on me. They were holding hands and started walking towards me. I thought they were going to say something but they walked right past me to the back of the classroom and I could feel Paul's eyes burning into the back of my skull. Guess the news that I was already back had reached them in such a short time.

When the bell rang to signal that class was over I was out of there before anyone could see me with my friends trailing behind me. When I wasn't at Forks the only thing that reminded me of it was my wolf side. I had turned as soon as I left Forks. It was like god was telling me that I needed to back to Forks but I didn't want to. I was a white wolf with a black diamond on my left eye. Every single class I had was with Paul or Asa. At lunch I was welcomed back at our old table, some of my friends I had seen them in my class and some I had not had the chance yet. Lauren, Jane, Carrie, Becky, Nathan, Chris, and Jason were their names. We talked to catch up but the bell rang to soon. I had math will Mr Carp, but English was really the class I was looking forward too. I could write for hours, days, weeks. It was the only thing that has kept me sane getting through what happened with Paul. When I was writing I would think about when I had just moved to Florida. When I was writing I could be in the world I was creating. It made me feel safe and in control.

The day ended quick and I ran to the parking lot as fast as I could to avoid any conversations I did not want to have. Tomorrow was my 18th birthday and I finally get to figure out who is meant to be my mate. It was also the day I now dreaded because it reminded me of all the pain and suffering I felt that night. Sebastian and Stephanie were waiting for me at the front door with their car. That night I finished my homework easily and went to bed because I was so tired, today was more draining then I had expected it to be. Seeing everyone again but especially seeing that Paul was still with Asa only showed that I should not have gone back here. Maybe they were really meant to be. I know I never thought that talking and listening to a lot of new and old information about the lives my friends had been living.

I couldn't sleep at all that night even if I wanted to. All I could think about was Paul and my birthday, what would he do today when I went to school, would he regret what he did or would he really think that my misery was a good thing. Honestly I was to scared to find out so I hid in my room all day. As much as I wanted to go to school and learn my birthday was not some day that I wanted to remember. It was a day that I spent countless hours trying to forget and even if I did not forget it I would not let it change me for the worse. I wanted to be mature and different from that girl I was two years ago, but I could not yet not on this day. I may be a coward now but at least I own up to who I am.