It's been hard, hasn't it?

Req came forward and then held my hand. I could feel that, I could feel her skin, I could feel the softness of her hand, her delicate fingers, and everything else. However, that was not true for her. 

She could feel none of it. It was the cost she had to pay in order to become immortal, and looking at how she didn't CHOOSE to be a spiritual entity all of it rather seemed like a curse. 

"How…" I said. "How can I go back?" I asked. I was unsure of it myself as I didn't exactly know what she was asking me to do. 

"Just don't think about manipulating me," she replied. "Tell me Zero, what was the reason you wanted to use me?"

"Because you are strong, and if I made you feel like I loved you then you will do anything I want you to do. Basically, you are a valuable asset whom I didn't want to lose at all cost. That's why to ensure that you never betray me or never leave me, I went along with this plan," I explained.