Grief

The night before…

Ryan's Pov

I didn't mean to make her uncomfortable but I think it was inevitable. She looked surprised to hear me ask her that question but at the same the look on her face gave away to doubt and fear. 

In my opinion, she considered the idea but dismissed it for my sake. I can't decide whether to feel sorry for her or be happy. 

She and Jace had tried so hard to keep it from me and even instigated it to get me drunk. But it was so obvious that I had to forget about my admiration for her. 

I was a little envious though. What they have was something rare these days and one I might not even get to experience. 

I had hopes with Amiel when I first met her. But then she already has someone in her heart. I was a little late to even try to win it. 

I sat in my uncle's study, twirling with the drunk he offered. 

The liquid rippled at every turn I made. It was fascinating and pitiful at the same time.