Death to you is more beautiful than a thousand lives

The hoarse voice she used to hear in her dream startled her when he said, "What are you doing here, Raylene?"

Her eyes tremble, her lips tremble, her body became trembling and she put everything in her hand on the bed after realizing that the voice she had just heard was not in her dream at all, after the same feeling came back to her telling her that she was trapped again in his hands, as if that night was repeating itself.

She turned and stared at him with her eyes wide open, especially when she saw his height, his body, the beauty of his protruding eyes and his lilac-colored hair, and she said in her almost self-losing voice, "K..K.. How did you know I was here?" He looked away from her, clasping his hands to his chest, leaning against the door, which seemed to reach him at his height. "Actually I went back to get some papers and documents to destroy, but there you are, playing with them like a child's toys." Raylene backed away from the bed, her back against the balcony, "Listen… I didn't mean to break into your house like that but… I want to." I want to know something, please tell me this so that I can get rid of these dreams that have been in my head for two weeks!!" Tension began to eat away at her cute and beautiful features. "Tell me, what do you want to ask because I don't want to talk to you for a long time and then I want you to leave as if you didn't see any of these papers and in return I won't do anything for you" She grabbed the balcony door handle behind her and said, but her whole body shivered, fear possessed her completely, As if her body was reminiscing, "I tell...Tell me...Why do I dream about you so much, why do I see things that didn't happen to me but feel that they did happen?! Tell me why do I see that I'm dead in the dream and that I have a daughter from you, why does everything look so real?" Those words came out in a tone of sadness, hesitation, trembling, and stuttering, as if she saw Haiti Ran, who had described it in her dream. You could see anything but Raylene, he said with frightened eyes and a trembling voice "So...you remember...everything..." Those words were shocking to her, he didn't say it was a dream or that she was stupid to want to get him into trouble. , All these options that came to her head, none of them was appropriate or correct, even if it was a small percentage.

"What do you mean I remembered...? Wasn't that a dream, but how...?" As he took his steps towards her because he was afraid of her, she slipped back and her feet slipped, and she was about to fall if it weren't for his strong arm, which he grabbed her arm with one hand, then raised her to hold her by her waist and sits on the ground while she was in his hands and looking at him sitting on her knees, she forgot that it was someone who had previously raped her because of his eyes that were shedding Tears non-stop and for no reason, no crying, it was just eyes as if they changed their load hundreds of years ago, with her hands in his eyes and she said and her eyes don't stop crying either "Don't cry, just tell me what happened, I don't know I feel like I'm lost somewhere, no I feel normal"

He passed his hands on her cheeks and wiped the bottom of her eyes with his thumb, and said, "It wasn't a dream, Raylene, and it wasn't a reality either, all that happened after your death is that I no longer see the world, I see the sky black in the day, and the rain is a drizzle that burns my body, and the eyes of passersby I wanted to uproot them because they Alive, I hated everything, and I swore at your grave that I would give my most precious thing to get you back. I studied and reached the highest levels of school and the most abundant of money, then I realized that I had to get rid of everything for you, so I started with my brother, and ended with getting rid of Sanzo, I gave up everything, to go back and just touch this face, and see it moving in front of me, to touch this hand and feel its warmth And to touch this body, and I feel that it is moving and has not spent seventeen years in bed. She closed her mouth with her hands and her eyes were still shedding tears. Then she said, "You killed them all?? Did you kill Pontine and your brother too?" He smiled lightly, his eyes never leaving her face and said as he passed his fingers through her beautiful locks of hair, "Yes, if I had to kill more, I would, you are the one who deserves to live life after the torment you went through, first from the world, then from me I..."

"I used to wait for the births every year to see when you were going to be born and in what family"

I wanted to dedicate this whole world to you.

He removed his jacket, pulled out his gun, and put it in her hands, and placed it in front of his forehead calmly, smiling and eyes focused on those around her, and said, "If killing me will relieve you of the pain I have caused you, then death at your thighs will be more beautiful than a thousand lives."