Suffering

"I'm losing." I panted. I wasn't going to be able to save Roma. The man was too fast, and advanced in his sword. It was thin and bendy, but sharp. A rapier. He was good with it too.

His skill, miles ahead of my wishy-washy training. I was lucky I'd gotten this far. I wasn't strong at all. I was weak. This was only my second physical fight. What was I thinking. I couldn't beat him even if I tried my hardest. And I was. I was doing whatever I could.

His blade pointed forward, my blood dripping down its thin, flexible spine. I had cuts all over. His sword wasn't meant to deal raw, high attacking damage to me. It was meant to slowly immobilise me. And it was working.

I felt my left arm going lazy, until it stopped moving completely. 'Fuck.. My arm, isn't moving.' I cursed in my head. Frustratingly,I was getting too brash. I was rushing in without thinking.Reckless.

"Weak. You're so weak." The voice in my head called again. I tried to ignore it. It was getting to me. "Weak." It whispered again. Recklessly,I charged again into battle, thrusting at the man.

He stepped to the side and cut my fingers.

"Weak little boy."

I turned around and threw a heavy strike downwards. I was easily read though, and the man cut my other arm, stopping me from being able to use the sword.

"Unable to save her. Unable to save anybody."

My arms were at my side, flopping around with little to no control. Quickly,I charged in a fit of rage, and tried to body slam the man. He evaded again.

"So weak. As useless and worthless as you were in the other world."

I hit the hard dirt pathway. My arms weren't helping me up any time soon. I tried to scoot with my legs and felt a sharp pain in them, following two more in my shoulders. I turned my head and saw two arrows pinning me down on each side.

"You. You could have been something. Maybe if you were born somewhere else. On a better side of the world." The man mocked, he knelt down and held my head to face him.

"Before I make you suffer, let me introduce myself. I am Spade. 5th Raid leader of the Church of Red star."

"Stone. Come here." He called towards a comrade of his. I felt his grip on my head go and my head was held in an others.

He gathered 15 hostages. He lined them up, all on their knees."One, Two, I like you." A thud came as the head of the third person hit the floor.

Instantly I saw the faces of mortified people, begging for their lives. "Three, Four, you're a whore." His tune continued.

Thud. Another head rolled.

"Five, Six, you stupid bitch." he laughed.

"Please, I have a family, PLEASE." the man begged.

"Okay let me just." He sighed.

"Thank you so mu-"

"I lied." laughed Spade and a head came flying.

His tune continued, until all of the hostages were dead. "That was long, time to have some real fun."

I watched him walk over to Roma. "This is your girl right?" he pulled her over to infront of me.

"I'm gonna show her what happens when a girl meets a man."

I was sick to my stomach. Anger bloomed inside of me. I wanted to get up and end him. Right then. Roma was screaming, begging for help.

And then he defiled her. He pinned her down and did the unspeakable.

"Gann-" she tried to speak.

"Ganno please-"

"Don't look, I'm begging you-"

I stared in shock. I wanted to cry. I wanted to scream. But nothing came. Only anger. Only pain. Only suffering. Everything in that fight hurt me. But not more than this. This was, suffering.

I stared into Romas teary eyes. I wanted to cry too.

"Please, stop watching." she begged me.

I screamed at the top of my lungs, doing anything I could to free myself.

"Watch it." the voice called. "Watch this man rape your woman." he continued. "Open your eyes and watch your woman be used by another man, for his own pleasure. For his own enjoyment."

My rage continued. I screamed till no noise came out anymore. I screamed until I felt blood come out of my voice box. I screamed and screamed, begging for it to stop.

"Do you want power. Do you want to save her. Do you want to do something about her suffering."

I screamed yes at the top of my lungs. I needed to do something.

"Let me take over. I will help you. I will bring the end of this all."

I blacked out completely. I didn't see anything that happened. My world went completely, dark.

I came to, my former wounds steaming away. No longer cut. Bodies all around me, and in my arms, the lifeless body of Roma. And my blade, through her. I looked around me. I felt blood, not mine, on me.

Rain began to fall. For miles, I couldn't see anybody. The hostages that were being taken before were all dead, every raider dead. The flag of the Red star was also smeared in blood. Only I remained...

I looked down at Roma. Her naked body, minced by my sword. And I snapped. I broke. I lost myself.

In that moment he fell to his knees. The was no longer an I to refer to, because his conscious and sanity was lost entirely. The story once told by "Ganno" is now being told by the voices of this world. Because "Ganno" no longer exists. "Ganno" is gone, broken. And the few seconds after came the most mind breaking scream of all. The final moments of "Ganno" collected in one scream. It was a scream of sorrow, pain, sadness, anger, suffering. And most of all. Humanity.

The final scream, of his humanity.