Chapter 8: Running

I took in a deep breath as it was time to start the run but I needed everyone to get ready. I let Ashton take the girls to the mall today so they could buy outfits for the upcoming party. Sarah is a shopping maniac so I knew that I had to give them my card so Ashton wouldn't go into the negatives on his debit card. I don't know with my mate as I've never seen her shop before. I will in the future as I want her to feel comfortable and be able to trust me as long as she is staying with us. I want her to feel welcomed. I want her to feel relaxed. I want her to be a part of my family. I even want to start my own family with her one day. Have our own little pups running around in the forest as me and her are having a picnic.

I took in a second inhale of air as I held at the top of my lungs. Exhaling out the loudest howl I have ever done; notifying all wolves ready for a run to reach the border of the forest. I am already in my own wolf form. Being that my form is a big black wolf with a few patches of brownish white and orange in certain areas of my stomach and ears. Once I stopped howling I heard the others howls in return as I could feel the stomping of their paws under my own. I will train my wolves so nobody can hurt them. War is coming and it's inevitable. The female wolves are already training on their own terms as a Luna from the nearby pack comes and helps them train every day so they can be able to protect their pups. Some females come with us in training as our training is more intense and they worry that their own female training is weaker. We divide the genders in training just in case for those who feel like certain things are too extreme. We don't discriminate any genders we just want to maintain the respect and communication between both parties. We also respect the females that chose different training methods. 

After this training we will be training the upcoming pups coming of age to the hunting. I glanced behind me as I've noticed some pups trying to sneak in with the run. They tried hiding behind the bigger wolves paws. All the wolves formed into a thin line of threes so I know how many there are present and to make sure nobody younger sneaks in with the adults. This time I only found three little pups behind one of the warrior wolves named Alexander. Sadly Alexander did not notice the three little pups as they were covered in mud and seeing that Alexander's wolf form is a muddy brown fur color so they camouflaged very well.

Even their scent was hidden because of the mud in their fur. But I learned how to distinguish scents between the mud and dirt around the forest as I needed to train to become an Alpha. I am to be strong and be able to defend my own pack from hunters and deranged wolves. I only encountered one deranged wolf he went ballistic as his mate died of natural causes and he went into bloodlust mode as he blamed the moon goddess for taking his mate away too soon. I picked up all three pups from their scruffs carrying them back to the pack house; they were whining and complaining but they are not allowed into the run as everybody is triple their size. I don't want them to get hurt while running with the big wolves and then being hurt or end up being killed all because they wanted to run with the big wolves.

They're still young adults as they do not know the difference between an adult wolf and pups as sometimes the grown wolves will play with them as if they were pups also. A female wolf came running halfway through my walk as I was still carrying the little pups in my front teeth. She looked very worried until she saw the three little pups covered in mud pouting like the little pups they are. She sighs out in relief as she saw the three pups all right but I could see the frustration in her eyes as she kept staring at all the dirt in their fur. I knew not to cover myself in mud when I was a young pup as it was only used to hide from other predators or hunters when near the pack or when playing deep inside the forest for training purposes.

Being that the female was in her human form she picked up all three pups thanked me and then walked away. I could hear her scolding the little pups for getting dirty and for trying to sneak into the run with the big wolves. I chuckled lightly as I felt like a father instead of the alpha of the pack for just a few little moments.

Does my mate want to have pups? I don't even know if I can have pups of my own. If I ever want to have pups I'll do a check up later before they arrive so the pack doctor can do her usual tests and I'll I got to do is wait for the results. When she feels comfortable with us and she would want to have pups also I would take her so she can also have her own little sterile test with the pack doctor. I don't want her feeling useless for something that it was not her fault. If we are unable to have our own pups we will be adopting as many as she wants. I won't mind having adopting children as long as my mate is happy. I wouldn't even mind if she wanted pets instead of adopting children because of the whole heartbreak. I want my mate to feel happy, safe and secure and not be stressed; annoyed or terrified. My number one priority is my pack but once I mark my mate and she accepts me she will be my number one priority.

I let out a loud roar ready to enjoy as my mind kept wondering if my mate will actually accept me as I feel like she's already by my side loving me. I started jogging checking around the line ups. Making sure no other pup or teenager is hiding behind any adult warrior wolves. I huffed and sniffed making sure the scents were all there. I glanced at the old warrior wolves as they howled lowly; growled and or barked in a cheering manner. Ready for the run. Everyone was excited for todays run; even I am excited for the run today. I want to feel the wind brush my hair back. The mud going through my paws. The chirping sound of the birds above us. The sense of moist air hitting my senses.

The feeling of adrenaline pumping through my veins as I run faster and faster. I feel ready for the run today as all I want to do is burn everything I ate; I also want to keep my mind distracted. I don't want to end up still thinking of what I should do with my mate when all I need to think of is to make my mate feel comfortable and safe. I don't want her feeling stressed or obligated for things that it was not her fault. I finally noticed after these little days that I've met her and spoken with her she is human and she does not know about our kind not even her friend. I may not know my mate completely yet but as the days go by and the more I hang out with her and speak with her I feel like I've met her all my life.

I slowly start stomping my feet aiming towards the forest as we were all ready to run at full speed. I wanted to let my wolf run wild as we both needed it. I really want my mate to be by my side but I have to keep reminding myself that she is human and she does not know about our customs. at least I made sure not to contract her into the job position because I would feel bad that she is working while all she needs is to rest up and just enjoy life. I am so happy that I suggested for her to wait a whole week to choose if to work or to stay I don't want her to feel like she is obligated to work to be able to stay in the pack even if she doesn't know it's a pack.

I am very excited as if the more days go by and she forgets about the whole contract about working with us. I get to see her more and more and get to know her even more. I still can't get out of my mind how smooth her skin feels against my fingertips. I started running faster and faster as I needed to remind myself not to do anything stupid to scare her away.

I wanted everything to do with my mate and just have fund. Explore; go on adventures and just laugh. I really want to go on date with her. See her smile widely. Hear the laughter of all kinds. I want her to be herself when with me. My mate is beautiful and amazing. All I want to do is hold her tight against me. I want to cover all in my scent. I want everyone to know she is my mate. But I am afraid of pushing her away. I want her by me but if I have to keep acting like some human CEO for a Sanctuary I will do so. 

Should I ask her out on a date? 

Should I invite her to my next trip? 

Do I need to take my mate's friend in those trips?

What should I do now?