Chapter 3

As the time grows, our closeness grows too. Ani and me both are totally opposite personality but we still make it work. Rather I would like to confess that it was her who worked hard in our friendship. Me being an introvert, initially never opened up to her and she spend her lot of time with me physically as well as virtually over call. She is the one who do most of the talking, learned about my liking, disliking, hobbies or interest. And I am the one who just listen to her and tried to know or understand her, silently.

Like this two to three months passed. She understood and make me understand the more I look normal outside, the more I am abnormal inside. Though like every other person who will listen to this get shocked, I was shocked too and I went into complete denial plus defensive mode too. Ani was so sure and confident about my inner self, that she not only changed my perception about my self but give me her time and strength to accept it. With her help, I learned many things about me.

Initially, I learned that I am living with split personality issues i.e. for some people who are stranger to me and with whom I am not uncomfortable, to them I am a complete introvert, socially awkward, and usually a mute person. Secondly, I don't know how to express myself specially my emotions i.e. I do have a feelings and sensations in me but when it some to say, I simply suppress it or with different emotions. For example, when I am angry I would go silent or simply cry. And I am even in self harm. She make me understand that this one personality of me have introvert and passively aggressive traits.

Ani told me that my another personality is completely positive. This side has extrovert, talkative, a good sense of humor, adventure seeker. And this side only comes out with those people, whom I comfortable. Though here also I am unable to express myself fully but my happy go nature can put me at ease.

After knowing all this about myself, I was shocked, scared, anxious and crazy. I didn't believe it, though in my heart I know all this was true and being in completely won't help me. So, with the help of Ani I accepted it. One thing I love about about our friendship is, neither I asked her to change nor she asked me too. We accepted each other for we truly are and respected it.

Soon, together we completed our primary education. We made lots of memories involving eating lunch together, hanging out in malls. We become motivator, protector and advisor for each other. I also shared my family members behavior information with her and then she make me understand how the environment where I lived, toned me in this type of personality. And is okay to be not okay.

Everything is going on smoothly so, I never thought of a storm to come and destroy our friendship. But it come with a thunder strike and everything got destroyed on that one day.