After I reaching father's office, I directly go to the office canteen because I am feeling very hungry but before, devouring the food, I informed father that I am in the office canteen. It takes me around five minutes or so, to got relaxed and settled down, after this I start devouring my lunch. However, I am not really devouring it but eating it hastily, while doing so a thought pop in my mind....
imagine if father/aunt/granny sees me eating food like this, then a famous dialogue that will be coming out from them "don't you have manners, why are you eating food like a animals, eat it with more decency and respect." Like seriously, I rolled my eyes.
However, soon I came to reality as I heard one strong yet cheerful voice which is coming from my front and I look up, there I found my favorite Aunt Vaani looking at me with her gorgeous smile. Though she works under my father, but she is elder than him plus she is completely opposite to my father's personality. I mean even if she is just hanging around you, then the vibes coming from her are full of positivity, happiness or simply full of light and this too when she doesn't speak a single word to us but believe me when she start speaking to you then you will feel like you are in heaven, I really like her and adore her. Sometimes I feel like to become just like her, just try to spread positivity, love, affection or light.
However, soon her voice break my trance state, she sit in front of my chair and start speaking, an automatic smile come on my lips,
Mrs Vaani: (Chirpy voice) Hiii Siyu how are you and you eat food alone without me (making fake sad face)
Siya: (Smiling widely) Hey Viyu (my nickname for her) I am good, how are you and I was feeling quite hungry so, I just finished up eating it. Though, I am still feeling hungry (dramatically I rub my tummy with my right hand)
Mrs Vaani: (Dramatically clapped her hands) O yeah so, we are getting spicy Korean noodles, burgers and juices for us (Ohh I forgot to mention, she is a foodie and this is one of the reason why I like her more).
With this she go and order the food, here I check the time which says it six in the evening so, father will get free in an hour then we will leave for home. Though, a thought pop in my mind to inform mother that I won't be eating dinner so, I called mother to inform her while phone is ringing I kept my lunch box back in the bag and this time she pick up the call,
Mother: Hey Si
Siya: Hey mother, I won't be eating dinner at home as I am eating food here with Aunt Vaani.
Mother: Cool baby, no worries. See you at home.
Siya: Okay Mother.
She hang up the call, same time Aunt Vaani too come and a waiter following her step from the back with a food tray. Once she reach in front of me, she smiled at me brightly and her eyes carry warmth in it, I smile back to her, soon she settled down on the seat which is in front of me and soon waiter too kept our food on the table, then go back. Seeing my favorite choco lava dish among noodles, burger and juices, I got surprised at first then got fully excited and I look up her to say thank you but too my surprise she is looking at me only with those adoring and love filled looks.
Mrs Vaani: No need to say thank you, I know you love choco lava because your father only told me one day.
Siya: Ohh but still thank you and lets start devouring it.
Mrs Vaani: (With mischievous and sheepish smile) Yeah we should plus we need to finish all this before my boss or should I say your father come and scold both of us.
We both laughed a little then we start devouring our food and in, I guess forty minutes we finished eating our food with a burp, waiter come back to our table then leave with empty plates. We just relaxed ourselves for few minutes,
Siya: You know Aunt I rarely do burping thing in front of anyone because I think, they may judge or reject me as a friend.
Mrs Vaani: Ohh does anyone said something to you directly or do?
Siya: No, but I heard them saying that they don't like burping people or they don't want to go out with such people.
Mrs Vaani: Ohh look burp is not a bad thing its normal and you know it and other thing is when you feel like when you going to burp out loud just say excuse me and then do it then it would be considered as mannerism. And people won't be having any issues with your this behavior, lastly, don't let others thoughts to change you.
Siya: Okay.
Mrs Vaani: You know I really like your subject psychology because while studying this you would be helping, guiding and healing others and it would be definitely going to help in becoming a better person.
Siya: Ohh thank you.
Before any one of us or could say anything, my father called me up and asked me to come in parking lot area so, I hang up the call and say my good bye to Aunt then together we leave the office canteen. From there our path got separated as she exit the office doors to take a bus and here I limp in the direction of the parking lot. As soon as I reach there, I found my father standing there with too many file which I guess probably he would be taking back to home for work and the driver just taking out the car from the parking,
I go and stand beside my father,
Siya: Hey, can I keep your files in my bag, I mean this will make them easy to carry.
Father: (After thinking for a minute or so) Yeah sure keep it but mind it they don't get dirty just like your clothes which got dirty by eating food so, hastily.
Siya: (Looking down at my shoes) Okay.
I open my bag, first shift my books where my extra pair of clothing kept, then I take files from my father's hand and kept them where my books were kept earlier and while doing this I keep my eyes everywhere else, avoid looking at father. As I finish zipping up the bag, driver called us to sit in the car and it take us around two hours two reach home because of the traffic. Once we reach home, I directly move towards my room and father move towards his room I guess. In around thirty minutes or so, I got all fresh up, including brushing my teeth plus change in night dress then I plug my phone to the charger, decided to get myself out of the room to greet my mother and take water bottle for the night.
However, before I could leave mother entered in my room and ask me about father's office file, I told her its in my bag. There she got busy in opening my bag, I took the chance to leave the room and get me a water bottle from the kitchen. At kitchen I collected the bottle, start moving towards my room but mother's voice halt my step.
Mother: (Distant voice but loud enough to hear and understand the person is angry) Siya!!!!!
Siya: (Shout back) coming!
While I am walking towards their room, I found my self feeling confused and I am just keep repeating thoughts of few days to know whether I did something wrong in those days but I am unable to come on any conclusion. I reached in-front of their room, then I knock up at their door and when I enter in the room all I can feel is anger and heat in that room but I decide to keep my confidence level at full and be strong one, because my instinct and mind telling me that I haven't done anything wrong.
I keep standing at the door, look up at them and there I can see my father looking at with pissed off looks and my mother looking at in the other so, I follow her direction to my surprise I found my bag there all zips open.
Mother: (Anger filled voice) Go and look in where your clothes kept in the bag, there is something for you.
I do as she said, there I found a miniature vodka bottle which Erik brought up, which he purchased for me in the name of gratitude and then his words clicked in my mind saying "All the best." And now I am totally screwed up but I have read in books, whether you may have got caught up, all you can do is that stay true to yourself and find a battle with a full confidence stand for yourself. I turn back and look them in their eyes, trying my best to remain fully confident,
Mother: (Emotionless) You drink?
Siya: Yes
Mother: Since when?
Siya: More then a year.
Father: You were lying to us and we are keep trusting you.
Siya: (Internally, lying o really, when exactly I lied it? You never asked me and I never said a word in this matter) Yeah.
Mother: You disappointed me today, in our family no one have never done it but look at your brother and you, become addicted.
Siya: I am not an....
Before I could continue there she get up and slapped me hard.
Mother: Get out.
I pick up my bag, leave the room with water bottle in my other hand. As soon as I step in my room, I lock it from inside and there I first wipe tears from my eyes which got stopped in merely twenty seconds. Then I got my self relaxed on my bad, keep looking at distant which is technically no where and this time a thought plop up in my mind,
Siya: (Internal talk) I wanted to say I am not an addict because from regular to I come to occasional but they didn't give me the chance to say. I am not angry on Erik to do this to me because I think friends do such stupidity but I am angry on my parents for not trusting me. I wanted to tell the how I felt compelled to be with such people or drink it and why go for it but yet they didn't give me the chance to speak rather they slapped me.
Now they thinking I am a trust breaker, an addict and yeah I disappointed them, then Let it because I am not going to say do or explain it to them anything, as they have already made an opinion about me and they are not going to change it.
Last thought which roam in my mind before exhaustion took me over and I fall asleep is that,
"Does being full of Ego screw you up or becoming a rebel."