Chapter 59 Friend To Foe - A Tale Of Misunderstanding

A betrayal, bad mouthing, disrespect from your loved ones or family members hurt the most but what if your friends joined this list, how would it feel, because I guess friendship is the one of the bonds that we can choose for ourselves and but what if those friends suddenly turn in to foe.

A most common phrase for it "friend to foe." Honestly, I don't know how it feels as for me friendship always remained as a purest bond where there should be no fakeness, just fun, honesty, openness, hear to heart talk and trust exist.

However, I have never thought I would be learning the other meanings of friendships, may be now I will have the the answer to..... how does it feel like?

Continued From The Last Part.....

The moment I opened Erik's messages I regretted it because, what all he has wrote in those messages,

"what kind of hangout does he actually want?

hey but it seems like you want to go, then go. Just don't forget to use protection before doing it.

you are just like one of those girls who like to destroy married life of the family.

you know even my boss is feeling disgusted with you and telling me what kind of friend I have"

After reading this my initial reaction and feeling to his messages is that, what nonsense is this, when did I said I want to go because as much as I remember I just wrote, the whole matter in short and then send to him but wait let me check once. Hence, I read the message which I send to him,

"hey, I want to tell you something. I have this married man in the intern team, we work together sometime but recently only, he asked me to hang out in some bar for fun and chill but the problem is I am not feeling it to be a good option to hang out with him. The reason is he is married and plus we work together."

just to be sure I read it again and again, likely two to three times and when it got cleared in my mind that, I haven't written anything wrong in it then I text him,

Siya: What nonsense are you talking? I think you you misunderstood my text.

I waited for full five minutes but as I don't get the reply, I text him again,

Siya: Where are you? Why are you not replying? Are you still angry with me?

Still no reply come from his side so, I thought its better to wait but waiting in such moment is not that easy. All I am feeling is anger and fear because at first he completely misunderstood my message, saying all nonsense thing and secondly, what if he also left me like all of my best friends then how would I live alone or with whom I will talk.

However, to divert my mind I start pacing in my room, I may have done so, for ten minutes then I heard the pop sound from my phone. Hence, I checked the phone, there I found that Erik has tagged me in a post at Facebook with four images and as I read the quotation on each of them I become shocked and surprised...

(quotation on images)

"its better to be single rather that whoring around married man

extra marital affairs don't start at bedrooms, they start with conversations"

just like this rest of the two images has somewhat same words, which are insulting to each and every girl or a women but to me what more shocking is that I always thought Erik to be the one who understand me quite well but now reading all these words from his side, I am not unable to believe on him understanding me. I mean seriously how can he think so low of me and even misunderstand me.

On the other side, I am also feeling as if I am at fault, I shouldn't have told him anything or it would be better if I could specifically mention in my text that I am not interested in going to be with Yaseer. Another thought that pop in, I always found the reason for him to smile or be happy but look now I become the reason he is upset plus angry. I think it would be better if I apologize to him, tomorrow once he got a bit relaxed and then only I guess he will understand my point of view.

I learned from my grandpa, always try to save relation and for that if you have to apologize or go on your knees then do it. At least try for once to save it from my side but if it doesn't work then just leave them and move one because nothing is more important then your self respect. Hence, I am going to follow his advice now.

To divert my mind I tried to listen songs but it doesn't help, I tried to read a novel and yet it doesn't work out again because my mind is already too much preoccupied with what just happened with Erik and I am quite afraid of the consequences related to it. At this moment a thought pop up in my mind which is, talking to Ketty as I heard people saying sharing issues can decrease your stress level. Plus Ketty would be best option to talk, as she may be a little brat but she is easy to talk to.

I called her and she picked up the phone on third ring,

Phone Conversation Begin (...)

Siya: (Hurriedly) Hey

Ketty: Hey, what happen to you and your voice Crazy!!?

Siya: (Hesitant for a bit) I want to share something with you?

Ketty: (Getting serious suddenly) Yeah say

Siya: Umm I had a fight with Erik, actually he got angry with me and he is saying that its better to be single then whoring around.

Ketty: (Yell on the phone itself) What the hell? Is he mad or what? I can't believe it, I mean how can he even say this? I mean someone who is uncomfortable with physical touch, can't do such things.

Siya: (Shaky voice and doubting at myself) Yeah but what should I do now, I mean I don't know how to pacify him? Or how to make him understand that I am not at fault here.

Ketty: I don't think so you should do anything because its his fault not yours.

Siya: Okay (but internally, I am thinking what if because of this I lost him too. Then like Vicz, Ani and Jazz my this friend will be gone too)

Phone Conversation End (...)

We talked on several topics for like thirty minutes, this really helped me to get relax a bit and after this we end our call. Somehow I start feeling sleepy, I guess tiredness of whole day plus after my conversation with her relaxes me so, may be these can be the reasons behind it and soon I call it a night.

Next morning I wake up with a severe headache, because I worked hard in my dream to save myself from getting drown in the water at first, then, I start feeling suffocating in the crowd of people and lastly, I tried hard to convince Erik that I am not what he thinks but he didn't listened to me and walked away from me. However, keeping all side, I plugged my phone in the charger and go into the washroom to get fresh plus ready as well, for the hospital.

Once I get ready, I move towards the exit door to leave the house but hearing mother's voice my steps stopped itself.

Mother: (Distant voice) Siya wait!!!

Siya: (Turn to look at her) Yeah

Mother: (Scolding voice) Yesterday night, you poured water on your pillow???

Siya: No (I think I cry in my sleep)

Mother: Don lie to me, you are so much careless, I know you did this only.

Siya: (I tried my best to give my best fake apologetic look) Yeah I am sorry

She just nodded her head then walk away, I move outside. Later while I am travelling to hospital, my mind start speaking to me but I felt that this is not the usual conversation that I do with my mind because he is not my friend today, he just say one line and then keep quite.

Mind: This is better, mother always say we lie only then why not we accept her blames, which she put on us, even though we didn't do it? Yeah this is right, we will do this only.

After this neither do I speak nor my mind speak up and when once I reached hospital, I got to know that today I have full day duty here that is OPD, IPD and day care. Just like this my whole day got spend, whole day I only worked and this really helped me to keep my mind distracted plus there is one thing that I noticed that when I am totally in working mode. In terms of psychology, I think I am living with an another personality that get in mode when I have to work.

Just because of my schedule I don't get time to text or call Erik which is not something new as this is what I usually do. Once my duty got over, I reached home and after completing my dinner, I checked my phone and this time to my surprise I found no text or call from his side. Seeing this I got worried because this is something not normal from his side so, I text him

Siya: Hey, Look I am sorry but try to understand I think you misunderstood my message yesterday, I just wanted to know from you what to do? Because I am not that good in understanding such issues.

After this text I waited for like ten minutes then I received a message from his side,

Erik: Wow now you think I am misunderstanding all this, you think I am fault? You are just impossible, guess what I always thought that you don't deserve my friendship and now I know that I am right. Hence, from now on we are no more friends as I can't be friend's with someone who destroy marital relationships of others as well as their families too.

Siya: I am sorry but its okay, I understand.

Though his message hurt me deeply, broke something in me but I am not going to confront him anymore or show my feelings in front of him because this is what he wants, no more friendship so, he is not going to get it anymore. And for this I am ready to sacrifice my own willingness, happiness and peace because this is what makes him happy then let it be.

After this conversation of us, I plug my earphones in and play See you again then closed my eyes. I start crying because I guess when you force yourself to do something which you don't like or you don't want to do it, then you become angry, frustrated or irritated but in my case, I cry out. Just like this I called it a night, while crying silently.