CHAPTER 47 - WHAT IS LOVE?

Shin entered the room and saw Ginny sitting on the bench in the balcony. She went near her and sat down but Ginny didn't notice as she was engrossed in her thoughts that even a bomb blast could distract her. She didn't knew Shin was here. Shin shaked her to help her come back to reality and when Ginny came back from her thoughts she said

"oh sorry, when did you came? "

"I came when you were busy in your dreamland. "

"Oh sorry."

"It's fine but tell me what were you thinking about? That you didn't even notice me coming."

"I was actually thinking about alot. "

"You know doing a lot of things at a time Is not good. "

"I know but what can I do?"

"Discuss with me , may be if you talk about it your heart would feel at ease. "

"Ok so first some things are going at the company but it's fine as I made a decision and I will proceed with it tomorrow."

"Ok other "

"It's about MJ."

"I know you don't need to tell. I can see it. "

"What?"

"You are in love so does he."

"What are you saying?"

"I mean he was looking at you literally every minute and when we went in the kitchen he insisted me that if he could help you. I saw a kind of spark of love in his those deep eyes. A love which is not easy to get. Maybe it would be one out of trillion cases of love that would be so real, deep and pure. But what I saw in his eyes today made me think..sorry not only think but he made me believe in that he loves you."

"No it can't happen. "

"Why it can't? You guys do fight bit that's like couple fight."

"Ya ya "

"But what about you ?"

"Actually I am also getting that feeling. When I was at the practice I missed him so much that I can't even explain. It's the first time a boy has taken on my mind. I care for him. Whatever happens the first name that across my mind is his. I don't know what is it?"

"It is love sweetheart. You are in love. You have grown so much in these past years. "

"But how can this be love? It can't be. I love this feeling but at the same time not. What exactly is this love? "

"What is love? I have the answer. Love is when you put that person's emotion, need priority before yours. When you care for them to much. When you think that you can believe them, trust them. When you can tell them whatever you want. When you want depend on them but at the same time don't because you don't want to feel like a burden. When you trust them and feel safe when around them. "

"So mean I am in love . Oh god noo this can't happen. I don't want to be in love. "

"What are your saying? Why don't you want to love?"

"I don't deserve it. I can't care for people."

"What?"

"No I can't love someone. I have to take care of you all I am very happy but loving someone I can't do that. It bring a lot of responsibility. I am already not doing great for you all. There is already alot happening in my life. I can't take this. Whoever I love they leave me in the end. Like mom and dad did he will also leave me. "

Ginny started shaking.. And soon after pearl like tears started to fall.

"Why are you crying? Its not a crime to love. And your mom dad were died in a accident they didn't left you. I would a parent thing to leave their child alone in this cruel world.

"I know but I don't deserve to love."

"Why? "

"I don't know but if I fell in love I will care about him. And I will be scared for losing him. I am already have a fear of losing you all because my work don't support me to have loved ones and now he is there too. I will get weak and vulnerable which I don't want to be."

"But he is strong he can take care of himself as well as you."

"I don't want to be a burden ."

"When someone love someone it's for their heart. They don't love someone if they think that person is a burden. And in love it's not burden it's responsibility. And when you are in relation with him. Not only you but he would also be scared to loose you."

"But what if something bad happen. Our life is already complicated. "

"Start in a good note. Think positive. Why are you thinking like that?"

"I don't know but that's how I am feeling. "

"Its nothing forget it. You are feeling like taht because you are just scared of losing him. "

"But what if he left me?"

"Why would he? If he did then I will show him what's a real VILLIAN is. I would cut him into pieces and feed his flesh to hyenas. "

"My god. You are thinking like me."

"Afcourse I would. Now don't think like that. Think something sweet. But I think right now you should go to sleep. You are tired. When tomorrow you will be refresh then we will talk about it. Then maybe you will think positive. "

"I think you are right. I should not think about it . But then also I can't avoid thinking of that. "

"I know "

"What if I dream about it?"

"No. You won't don't worry. "

"What If I did ?"

"Watch a movie maybe it will help you cope with it."

"That's a nice idea "

"Come on then lets eat something good with it too. Marsh mellow chocolates and noodles yoi favourite and some pasta. "

"You are right. If you are think about future. Then don't. I have a nice idea. Just live the present and enjoy it. If in future he propose you accept it. Whatever happen go for it ."

"Okay I will do as you say. Maybe I could hold myself."

"Afcourse you will my baby. I will take the garuantee. "

Shin hugged Ginny tightly. And took her hand and said. "It's fine ,you will be okay. Just trust yourself. "

"Hmm. "

Shin took her to the bed and help her lie down.

"Now sleep. I will go. "

"Can you please sleep with me today?" Ginny pleased with puppy eyes

"Afcourse."

They both get to the bed. Ginny cuddled shin and slept.

In the morning.

Shin woked up and saw at her side and it was empty. Ginny was not there anymore. Shin found a piece of paper there which said I am going to the company. I will come back soon.

Shin went down in her room and got ready.

At the office

Ginny went to the manager and said "Call all the employees who were working for that project. How many employees where apart of it?"

"Ma'am they are 300 emplyoess."

"Okay. Call them all in the hall."

"Okay ma'am. But did something bad happened you look like you didn't slept at night. ."

"No nothing. I am good."

"Okay ma'am."

The manger called all the employees and all gathered at the hall.

At the hall

"So how are you all? "

"We are good" everyone shouted

"It's been a while I was far away from you all. Did you missed me?"

"Yess "

"Aww I missed you too till a certain period."

Everyone had questionable face..