Monster of the previous timeline

I stood up to look at the people looking with a somewhat blank expressions as they heard Theia's words before turning towards me and I sighed before speaking,"well… that huh… "

"It was that girl… I never understood her… her purpose… her reasons… exactly what she was… One time she hates me like I had taken everything from her, other times it feels like I am everything that matters to her… Her purpose… I don't understand. Kill me already, why are you hurting me so much? Let me go… why are you always coming back to me… Giving me hope… and then taking it away from me…

In the end, I was drained. All my friends had been killed… all my emotions were more or less numb… I had nothing left to turn back to. At that moment, when I felt like I had completely lost her… I had already given up on living. Though, at least I wanted to defeat that 'monster' before I die… however that was a futile dream," I spoke as I looked back at my past.