Women of New & Old 2

I loved her and made my world around her. But she isn't someone who will love a person back if she couldn't get something out of her, and that's my mistake. She made my life miserable, but I learned from my mistakes and my drug addiction was not really the drugs but her, making me feel insecure because she hated herself more than she hated my guts or my talents or my love for her.

Poor baby girl!, she isn't worth the tear for hon!, Alicia told Moira while telling her own heartbreaking story about her first love. Yeah I know!, she is a beautiful girl but not worth loving. However on my last text I told her that she is wonderful and that she can be better if she wanted to. She can be whoever she wants to be as long as she believes in herself. Love who truly she is and will become in the future. But her reply was a f*ck you finger so I didn't bother to text her again, ever. I think I blocked her from my IG, haha!.

Wow!, well I've had my experiences with difficult women too, but I think it's late for us to discuss about them. And I really want to savor this moment with you, Alicia said kissing Moira as they were lying on the rooftop of Gin and Alexa's home. They were staying at one of the Lawrence's guests room for the rest of the week. Alicia is planning to buy a house near the family so it's easier to visit them when they feel like it and when there's a need to.

Alexa and Gin are lying on their bed, cuddling together. Gin is caressing Alexa's hand and swirling his finger on her palm and tickling it to make her smile and giggle. And it worked like magic, Alexa is now laughing hard that forced her to take her hand off him. Gin smiled, caught her arm and pulled her to stay on the bed and looked at her lovingly, like it's his first time to see how beautiful and wonderful his wife is, though he knew that already. It's like his eyes and heart were opened to love Alexa again just like the first time they met, and it's so wonderful. Gin kissed Alexa lovingly on the mouth and Alexa accepted and tears started falling from her eyes, thinking about what happened between her and Alicia.

Honey, forget about that, it's okay. I love you more than the mistakes or your imperfections. You are perfect to me and your weakness is what I loved you more. With it, has made me think that I couldn't have the strength to forgive myself for doing those crazy things to hurt you in the past. You are my love and forever will be my one and only love, Gin added and kissed Alexa more rapid and deep now. The couple felt their love for each other grew mature and accepting. I love you!, Alexa replied now smiling at Gin with much gratitude and love, she couldn't help but cry with tears of joy and thanks giving.

Meg and Jade were out walking in their village. It's been a long time since they did this. Near the park there is a hotdog stand and Meg felt hungry and pulled Jade's hand to buy on food on that stand. Wait, babe!, Jade said smiling. You missed hotdogs huh?

Yeah, especially, nachos and pizzas, let's order some, okay and eat at the park there, Meg replied sounding excited. Okay!, Jade cried laughing at Meg.

When I was younger mom tried her best to make ends meet. After dad was imprisoned, I needed to think of something to help mom in home expenses and paying rents. I tried selling candies to my friends and classmates at school but it isn't enough. I tried to steal at supermarkets and tried my best not to get caught. I did that for a year and I wasn't caught but my conscience or whatever it is kept me awake all night. I didn't believe in God but he or some people would make me realize or think twice every time I steal a candy, bag of chips or piece of jewelry. I didn't use the money but give it to mom or buy food for the house. I sold the stuff I stole to my friends or classmates so I could help mom in the way I know I can.

But I was caught one time and it's a good thing the police officer was mom's friend, Uncle Justin. He is an African American who loves me too. In truth, he talked to me and didn't tell mom about what I did and gave me $100 for our food and other expenses. I cried and Uncle Justin hugged. The reason why mom and I was able to migrate to London was Uncle Justin's doing. He was single and only have his mom with him. When he had a terrible accident at work getting shot by a criminal who he had been running after for years now.

I didn't know this only after mom told me after 10 years, when I would be able to understand everything. I cried for three days because I loved Uncle Justin and he became my dad when my real one wasn't there to help or care for me when I needed one. Uncle Justin helped me to change not because he scared me or put me in jail. But because he talked me out of choosing to do good instead of the bad. He didn't preached but sat with me at a park while we ate hotdogs and juice.

I miss him and I can't help but be emotional every time I think about him and parks, Jade told me while we're seated at the grassy ground of the park and eating our hotdogs. She almost choked and sipped from her tall paper cup of cold juice. I remember about the songs of T.A.T.U. "All About Us and "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us". These songs were like 17 years old but still has touched my heart. Though I never thought of my self as lesbian but I felt I am different from the other girls at school or my friends. And when I met Megan at the canteen of our school, she changed my perception of a girlfriend for me.

I felt she is the one for me and looking at her brown long wavy hair and her beautiful eyes that speak to me like letting me know she likes me or loves me maybe. But I was so scared to tell her how I feel. The only thing I held on was when we kissed at the Ocean View beach and it was so amazing. Though I thought sleeping over to her house would reveal how I truly feel about her and might cause to lose our precious friendship, I risked it all just to touch and kiss her. But when she searched for me and told me she loved me, I was relieved. But It was after 10 years that Megan realized that she loved me, when with me I was already madly in love with her.

Being able to transform to a wolf isn't a curse but a blessing. The lady who gave me this gift is the one I should be looking out to thank for. I am glad she did this to me and made my life more meaningful, precious, not only for my love but also for the world. We are wolves but we only eat what we can consume compared to some greedy, selfish, inconsiderate and cold leaders, politicians and business people everywhere. We are animals in human form but they are wolves in sheeps clothing. We kill but because it's our nature though we control our hunger and eat what we only need, these wolves in sheeps clothing are by far liars, cons and used to doing what they do for publicity, fame and money.

"My Universe" by Colplay and BTS, is playing on my cell, while Meg and I are laying on the grassy ground to relax after the things that transpired at home. We just want to breathe the fresh air at the park and clear our minds. Meg read my mind and kissed my mouth while my eyes are shut to contemplate on the song and now Hayley Kyoko's "Gravel to Tempo", is playing.

What is it about gays these days?, we don't need to prove we are gay but live as what we think is best for us and our partner. Some people don't understand how we feel inside. They just thought being gay is a disease and a psychological problem, which is in fact wrong. This condition isn't normal but valid. I feel the same as what you feel, it's just that I like girls and love my girlfriend more than boys. And I want to have relationships with girls and not with boys. Mom called to say hi and told me about a movie she watched with title, "The Danish Girl". The story was about a couple who are both painters.

Eina is a homosexual who didn't know that he is one until his wife asked him to sit for her or be her subject for her painting she wanted to finish for a show. I didn't know if he was the first homosexual then but there were a couple of homosexuals during that era and doctors thought he was insane or catching a strange disease.

We were all brought to believe a norm and molded to follow that rule. That genders only consist of a boy and a girl, and other than that is evil. But even before this rule on boys and girls were implemented, there are a few who already knew inside themselves that they are different and felt they were more attracted to the same sex than the opposite.