Love and Confusions

"Arghhh..." My head hurts a bit as I do what seems to be sitting up.

"...Where am I?" I say gently, my head still hurting from what seems to be a major headache. I have no idea of where I am and no recollection of how I got here. I look around at my surroundings to see if there's at least one thing I recognize. It's nighttime so it's a bit hard to see. The first thing I notice is that I'm on the floor of a riverbed. There are trees on both sides of the river but I could not see past them, cause of the darkness.

I try to reach for my phone in my pocket and that's when I notice that I am completely naked.

"What the heck, where are my clothes?" I look around the riverbed but I find nothing. Talk about a bizarre night. I start to feel a bit thirsty so I stand up and push myself to the river. I'd drink now and think later. Not like I could think with this splitting headache anyway so I might as well recover a bit. Immediately I get on my feet a strange scent hits me.

"Weird, it smells like..." I look down at my body for the first time this night and what I see horrifies me.

"Blood!!" I fall back on the floor as I try to get away from myself. I immediately get up and run to the river to look at my reflection. It gets worse and I wish I didn't look. There's blood on my mouth and most of my face. It's then memories of what happened earlier hit me like a brick. I start to panic as the memories start rushing in. It hurts, even more, when I remember what I said to Lena. I kneel on the floor begging for the memories to stop. I couldn't take it anymore, this was too much.

About a minute later the memories stop and the last bit I remember is the intense bloodlust I felt towards something before I finally blacked out.

I start to add one and two together.

Immense blood lust, blood on my body.

"Oh no," I run my hands through my hair as only one possible scene that explains the blood runs through my mind.

I killed someone.

I break down at the thought of being a murderer. I didn't mean to. It wasn't my fault.

"Deer Blood" My instincts kick in as I hear a voice behind me and I immediately turn and growl at the shadowy figure.

"Hey Drey, I finally found you" I see Ace step out from within the darkness, a sign of relief on his face.

Was I still mad at him for making me seem delusional and covering up what happened that night?

Yes. But at this point, I needed explanations and answers and he was the only one right now who could give them to me.

"How do you know it's Deer," I ask him still a bit feral cause of my anger and worried that I might have killed someone.

"I'm a werewolf Drey, my sense of smell is way more advanced and trained. That and I saw a dead deer with huge chunks of it bitten off on my way here,"

I let out a huge sigh of relief. I was happy I didn't kill someone but the thought of eating raw deer didn't sit well with me.

"What happened to me, how'd I get here?" I ask him hoping he has the answers I'm looking for.

He doesn't disappoint me.

"You shifted and took off,"

"Shifted, you mean I turned into a bloody wolf? I thought that wasn't supposed to happen till next week during the full moon" I ask him, shocked at his revelation.

"I see Luna has briefed you already. Yes, that's what was supposed to happen but other things or factors can also cause a forced shift, for example, Intense emotions," He replies

My Rage. So that's what caused me to go berserk and shift. That explains why my body felt so weird and out of place. It also explains the intense bloodlust I felt. Poor deer.

"Go take a dip and rinse the blood off. Put these on after you're done," Ace says as he tosses me a shirt and shorts."

I don't say a word and just comply as I was too tired and stressed to even talk. I walk into the river and take a dip. Seconds after I'm in the water it hits me again, what I did.

"How's Lena?" I ask Ace, my back turned to him not wanting to look back.

Ace had taken a seat on one of the rocks on the riverbed and was staring into the night sky.

"Broken," Ace replies.

At the word broken my heart throbs again. I put my head down regretting letting my anger take the best of me. I don't understand how she makes me feel this way. I'd only seen her for the first time about a week ago. Sure at first sight she already had a bit of me just because of how beautiful she was. But I barely even knew her. I didn't know her Favorite stuff to do, her hobbies, what makes her smile, her dreams, aspirations, or where she's from. I knew none of these things. So why does it feel like she's someone I've known and wanted to be with for years?

"It's the mate bond" Ace replied like he knew or read my mind.

"How'd you know my thoughts, can you read minds?" I ask him

"Not exactly. We werewolves have a mind communication link specific to a pack. Even though you're not in our pack yet you're still my Alpha so I can more or less tell what you're thinking. That and you don't know how to create a mental wall yet" Ace says trying his possible best to explain it in simplistic terms.

"What do you mean by I'm your Alpha?" I heard Lena call me that when she reintroduced us, so naturally I was curious as to what the title meant

"I think I should let Luna explain that part to you herself" Ace replies.

"Oh that's alright," I say to him confused as to why he didn't want to explain, but I had more important worries right now so I shrugged it off.

"Do you have a mate?" I ask him. I figured if he's been through the bond he might understand me better.

"Yeah," He replies. I turn back and I see him smiling. More or less I could figure out why. She was on his mind already.

"Who's she?" I ask him genuinely curious.

"Ashely" He replies this time the obvious blush on his face.

"Wait a minute. The Ashley. The girl I saw with you the other day at the car?" I ask him.

"Yeah" He replies again.

"Wait that means she's also a...?"

"Yeah, she is" He replies, guilt clear on his face. Yet another thing he had hidden from me. That wasn't what bothered me though. Just how many werewolves are in my school and for how long have they been blending in? Thank God I decided not to be a bully. Might have bullied my way to death's door if I ever came across one of them.

After I'm sure the blood is gone to a manageable degree I step out of the water and out on the clothes Ace brought for me. I mean if there was one thing I knew it was that my friends were good guys. The least I could do was at least hear them out. I'm sure there was a reasonable explanation.

"Where's Zack?" I ask him.

"He's back home with the Luna," He replied. I don't know why that ticked me off. I could have sworn I let out a growl. Damn this confusing mate bond.

"Don't worry, he isn't near her" Ace says to me. He heard my growl. Being someone with a mate himself I guess he immediately understood why I growled.

"Listen, Drey, I'm sorry..., no, we're sorry we hid this from you and also about that night. We supernatural live by an important law. We are never to expose ourselves to humans. If we ever did, the human in question would have to be killed. That's why we could not say anything until we were sure you were turned" He says looking down, his hands locked and on his knees.

Killed? I guess I understand why they were so desperate to make it look like I'd only seen stuff. If it was found out that I knew about the supernatural while still being human I'd be hunted and killed.

"I don't get one thing, why hide yourselves from humans?" I asked still confused at the concept.

"Humans fear what they can't comprehend and take drastic measures to ensure their sanity is safe even if it means destroying the very sanity they are trying to protect," He answered. Damn, I've never seen this side of Ace before. I knew he was mature but right now it felt more like I was talking to a man in his late 20s than a teenager.

I did understand what he meant though. Humans are destructive creatures. If the wolves were to ever expose themselves it'd probably end up as a war between Science and the unexplainable seeing as we loved to experiment and dissect anything just to understand it.

"Alright, I get it. You guys didn't want me dead. That's why you decided to hide it from me." I say trying to hurry this up.

"Yeah." He replies.

"Let's talk about this later, I got something more important to attend to now."

"Luna?" Ace asks me.

"Yeah. I don't understand this mate bond thing and to be honest it still confuses and scares me. But I just know that if I don't talk to her as quick as possible, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, so let's move" I say to him walking into the forest.

I took a few steps forward before realization hit me. I had no clue where I was or which way home was.

"You don't know the way do you?" Ace says to me. I could have sworn that he was mocking me a bit.

"No shit," I say to him laughing a bit. He does the same

"Wait how'd you get here?" I ask him.

"Car and your scent" He replies.

"Alright then, You'll be my GPS for the night. Lead the way" I say to him.

"My pleasure Alpha."

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After about 30 mins of driving, we finally arrive at my driveway. I immediately step down from the car. I turn around and look towards Ace as he does the same.

"What should I say to her?" I ask him not having a clue how I was gonna make her forgive me.

"Nothing you'll regret," He says back to me. You know if I wasn't thinking about how to please Lena I'd tell him that was a cool line. Not that it helped though.

I sigh and walk towards the door. As I'm about to reach for the doorknob my door opens and reveals Zack standing behind the door.

"I see Ace got through to you, welcome back bro," He says to me and smiles at me. Something seemed off about his welcome. It was genuine yet still so off.

"Where's my mate?" I ask him.

"She's upstairs in your room" He replies.

"Alright thanks," I say to him as I walk past him. I immediately run up the stairs and straight to my room. I slow down as I get to my room's hallway. I hesitate a bit and try to gather enough courage to open the door. I put my hand forward about to open the door when she opens it from the inside. She was standing in front of me. Her eyes seemed to have bagged up a bit and her hair was messy. I could tell just by seeing her that her evening was not pleasant. It broke me knowing that I had made her like this.

"Hey, Le..."I start but she cuts me off immediately.

"Why didn't you come in, thinking of how you are going to reject me?" She says to me the pain clear in her voice. She was angry yet subtle.

"Reject you? Lena, there's no way I'd do that." I say to her almost immediately. I take a step towards her but she puts her hand up blocking me from doing so.

"You already did when you told me to shut it so why not just go all the way and complete it? Just reject me. The only reason you've put up with me all these while is because of the bond so just get on with it. Reject me and be done with it" She says this time letting her emotions slip. I could tell she didn't mean it. If she wanted it she'd have rejected me herself. I couldn't tell why she wanted to be with a guy like me asides from the mate bond. She was right I have no reason to be with her. I didn't know anything about her and I could tell that being with her was going to cause me a lot of problems. But I don't care. All I have to do is to find a reason.

I sighed, took her by the arms and pulled her into an embrace.

"What are you doing?!" She said to me surprised by my sudden movement. I ignored her wails, stretched out my fangs and bit into her neck on the exact spot where she bit mine. She gasped and just stood still for a bit. I guess the shock had gotten to her bad.

As I marked her the bond was complete and I felt everything she felt. Everything felt complete. I felt whole. Through this, I finally got clarity as to why I wanted to be with her. As to why she was messing with every bit of my system. As to why I can't think straight anytime she's not around me.

I love her.

I found everything she did unique and beautiful. Her eyes, her cheeks, her lips. The way she said my name. The little tease she gives me every once in a while. Just conversing with her sent my mind to another plane where only she exists. The bond was just a catalyst, my loving her was my choice and it's a choice I intend to keep for the rest of my life.

I pulled out my fangs and looked back into her eyes. I could tell she heard everything I said in my mind.

"Now do you understand?" I say to her as I place my hands on her eyes wiping the one tear I saw coming down.

"If you feel this way then why'd you turn me down earlier?" She said still doubting me. I could feel her worries. She was afraid I was going to leave her.

"Because I was confused at first love. I didn't understand what was going on with me. Now I do and I'm willing to learn more about you and the world you live in so please, don't push me away," I say to her meaning every single word that I said.

She looks at me one last time and then nods. I look at her face and just take in how beautiful she is. Damn, she is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. I just can't help myself.

I lean down and pull her chin up so that her eyes are looking straight into mine

"You're mine just as much as I'm yours Love," I say to her as I lean down for a kiss. I feel a sharp pain in my stomach almost immediately. I grunt and hold on to my sides as I slowly lower myself to the ground. Turns out she punched me.

She squats and pulls my chin up so that our eyes meet, then she smiles at me.

"I forgive you love but not enough for you to kiss me yet. Also, try raising your voice ever again at me and I'll kill you myself, okay?" She says as she flashes me a warm yet dangerous smile.

"Yes ma'am" I reply to her smiling back at her in pain.

"Good." She says as she stands up. I am just glad to see that she's happy again. That's all I want. That smile on that pretty face.

"Oh yeah, you also get the couch tonight, It's what you get for running off and leaving me," She says as she happily walks back into the room. 'Damn what a woman' I say to myself while still on the floor. Also mental note for future me. Do not anger our Luna. Try it and we will have to pay a quick visit to death's mansion.

I stand up and head downstairs wanting to give her space. I just marked her so I figured she'd need time to process everything. I needed to do so too. I head for the fridge to get an ice pack when I see Zack and Ace in the kitchen.

"I see, you guys are official now," Zack says to me trying to lighten up the mood.

"I see she also made sure to pay you back," Ace says laughing as he sees my bruised sides.

I understood that they were trying to apologize for hiding what they were from me but to be honest I understood why now so I wasn't mad.

"Listen guys it's alright, I understand that you guys were trying to protect me. I should be the one apologizing for running off the way I did. I should have given you guys a chance to explain yourselves," I say to them. These guys have been my bros since Day 1 so there's no way I'd stay mad at them.

"There's the Drey we know and love. Too bad a deer had to be the sacrifice for your clarity. Poor deer" Zack says almost immediately. We all burst out laughing. I guess Zack was back to his usual self

"So, what's next?" I ask them not knowing what step I was to take after this.

"Well, we go to school tomorrow. After school ends we move to pack grounds. From now on it's going to be your new home," Ace says to me slowly trying his best not to overwhelm me with the Information.

"Training?" I ask him.

"Yeah, you're a werewolf now so you've got to learn to live like one and there's no better place to do that than among other werewolves," Zack explains.

"Oh, I guess that makes sense,"

"Well cheer up tonight we celebrate your successful integration into the supernatural" Zack says as he pulls out some alcohol from the fridge.

Well, I'm definitely going to have a terrible hangover.