THE SHOCK

I remember he times I imagined how my life without my mom would look like and it always made me scared and I always prayed to God that she will get to old age,not till sickness came I became more scared now she finally left. She left me alone with a man that doesn't care about his children,our eldest daughter didn't make it easy for me in most families where the mom is away it's always the first daughter that fills the space of a mother but not my sister. Every day I will have to wake up and try and prepare my younger brother for school.some days I go to school sometimes I don't and my father or my sister never notices. I had no one to open up to,I had no one to talk to I was alone and each passing day I missed my mom no one was taking care of my needs they didn't ask me what I wanted and they didn't get me anything.i had to manage the little I had from what my mom left me. Sometimes I went to school without money sometimes I went with little money and at this point I knew I was vulnerable. One day as I was coming back from school I met a young guy Daniel very handsome and he approached me,told me he just moved in newly,he offered to buy me food of course I agreed I wasn't even sure I would see food when I get home.after he got me food he gave me money to get home. I was so happy and I felt like I have found someone amazing that will take care of me. I got home,had my bath without bothering to eat again I went to bed happy.if only my mom was alive I could have told her this.

The next day after school he came around again bought me food and gave me money to go home,listened to me why I spoke,he gave me all his attention and I was in love already.i was still in high school I was in my final year in high school I was meant to prepare for our final year exam that will determine if I can make it to college then I met this young man Daniel.in my head I felt like he was going to be my husband.i started following him,anyt anything he wanted me to do I will do and I always looked forward to see him every day.i didn't have a phone so we never communicated once I got home. On a weekend Daniel invited me to his house because I trusted him and I was in love with him I accepted to go see him. I left without letting anyone know where I was going. Each time I was close to Daniel I always felt this comfort I really thought he was the love of my life. He offered me food and drink,after he gave me ice-cream. Ice-cream that no one has ever bought for me why will I not leave myself with him.after that Daniel started telling me how much he loves me and how he is going to take care of me of course I believed him he gave me things no one in my house ever thought of giving me,I started having reasons to smile all because of him so I believed his words. He promised me he will never leave me and again I believed him after that he started touching me,I haven't been touch before and I was scared I tried stopping him but he asked me if I loved him and I said yes,of course I loved him,he asked if I trusted him and I said yes then he told me to relax he will make me happy. So I let him. I allowed him touch me,he undressed me and pleasured me I had feelings I have never had,he entered me it was hurtful at first then pleasure after that there was drops of blood on his bed he helped me wash off. I just lost my virginity with him but for some reasons I was happy because it was with him. We continued like that once in awhile I would visit him and we will have sex,he later got me a small phone I was so happy.phone I know no one will ever get for me in the house he got it for me and e told me he was traveling far I told I would iss him,he told me that was why he got me a phone. Unfortunately when I got home that day and my sister's saw me with the phone they started asking who gave the phone to me I told them it was someone that dashed me the phone,they kept asking I couldn't tell them it was a boy,I couldn't tell them it was my boyfriend but I know they suspected that out of anger they smashed my phone and beat the hell out of me. They beat me badly of course no one will stop them and after that I fell very sick.i was so sick they bought drugs for me to take but it wasn't working so my dad called in a nurse to come check on me and then she gave a breaking news. A news that changed my life,a news that made me realize yet again that I was alone.the nurse told my dad I was pregnant. Oh my God!!I didn't see that coming my father was so disappointed and angry that he sent me out of the house in the night with no where to go.where was he expecting me to go I cried and begged him,I pleaded grabbed on him but he kicked me out not even with a cloth I was given nothing.i was sent out on the street in the night,a young girl like me with nothing.no cloth,no money,no phone absolutely nothing.where will I go?I was crying on the street and I was scared I went to a closed shop and his myself there praying no one would see me.i was crying and started wishing my mom was alive she would have atleast fought for me as I was hiding in the shop a young guy was passing and pointed his touch in my direction immediately I went to hide behind a table in the shop he asked me what I was doing I lied and told him I was waiting for someone he didn't say much he left I snuggled myself and prayed to God to help me.i know my father he will never accept me and I don't have any other person to go to and I couldn't go to Daniels house. He doesn't live alone and I wasn't sure he was still around as I was lost in thought still crying the young man passed by again and tried hiding from him again but this time he came closer and asked me again what I was doing all by myself in a place like that and at this time of the night I told him I didn't have anywhere to go,he asked me what was wrong and I couldn't tell him,and he didn't force me to tell him he asked me if I will like to go with him I became scared,I told him that I can't what if he was a bad person he smiled and told me he wouldn't feel happy leaving me here all by myself he might leave and then the bad people will now come for me.i asked him where he was living he told me but I didn't know that place but then I have no where to go and this man just invited me so I followed him.it was late so I didn't really know where we were going and I didn't really know what he looked like but I followed him with faith. We got to his house it was a small apartment he didn't say much to me he allowed me sleep on his bed and he slept on the floor and I cried myself to sleep. The next day he woke up before me and was preparing to go to work and that was when I saw his face,he was a good looking young man he gave me food to eat and a cloth to change into when I bath then he left to work.i ate had my bath and changed into his cloth I went back to crying.later that day the guy came back and sat across me,he told me his name was Kelvin,I told him I was ella he asked me what was wrong so I opened up to him I told him everything and how my dad sent me out of the house and how my mom was late.he asked me about the father of the child I told him I haven't been able to reach him. So he gave me his phone to call the guy good thing I know his number by heart.i called him and told him I needed to see him,Daniel told me to come to his house Kelvin gave me transport money to go see him. So I went to see Daniel I told him I was pregnant and how my father sent me out of the house because of it and was staying with guy I didn't know. Daniel was shocked and asked me if I was sure it was his own??oh my God!!how could he ask me that?I lost my virginity to him it's been only him I have been seeing and he knows that why will he ask me that?he then apologized and told me we should remove it that besides he was leaving the country and won't be around but I was in love with this guy why will he be so casual with me in a situation like this?but how he ended up having sex with me that same day I don't know and gave me small money for transport told me he will call me so I went back to Kelvins house I told him what happened and that Daniel said he would call.so we waited but Daniel didn't call,I had to call him and Daniel shouted at me and asked me never to call his line again.kelvin was so angry Kelvin called him himself,but instead Daniel insulted Kelvin and blocked his line oh my God!!that was when I knew of a truth I was on my own. My mom is not alive,my dad sent me out of the house,my sister's are not even in search of me because I know my dad restricted them from having anything with me,The man that got me pregnant has denied me and the baby how he succeeded in having sex with me in the midst of this I don't know I was really so stupid how could I have fallen this deap. That was when I realised I was really on my own I was scared,helpless and heartbroken